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@Neighbor I was a suicidal person and the reason why I started smoking was my demented father with schizophrenia. I just couldn't take it anymore!

@Neighbor thanks for the cheering and for the advices but I already made that decision to smoke.You seem like someone who has a better life and future than me. At leastt thanks for listening to me,for 10 years no one ever listened to me

What's the City of Hope @Neighbor?

Sorry but I'm not that kind of a person.I'd rather die of a heart attack or lung cancer than listen to my parents. The other life is better than here on Earth. I'm not suicidal but smoking seems to be the only option for me. Thank you for listening to me but I already decided how I want to die!

Well were you too mistreated and bullied by your parents?

Hi,I started to smoke because my own parents are mistreating me and I had no one to support me.I tried praying a lot but my prayers were unanswered and I had the idea that if I die of lung cancer everything will be better.I realise this is not the answer but it's very hard to live all by yourself.This isn't about stress this is about the continous state of struggling,loneliness and pressured by others. I have no life and I have no idea what to do!

1) I'm 24 and I've only seen my father in Galati.He no longer lives with me but when I come to him he acts agreesive and criticises me in whatever I say 2) Well I have a video [censored] 3)I gave them the video and a lady from the police told me that this is just my imagination and it's not real. I have no other evidence then that video In the vid he lost his capacity to think and he was drunk+agressive+insane 4) If I would say that I'm a christian how would that help you?

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Hi,I'm not a bible person and I seek advice from my father who treats me like crap and beats me like a brute. My parents divorced in 2019 and I was glad I got rid of him. I can't take it anymore he treated me like a slave and always forced me to do his bidding. From 2014 to 2018 I was beated in the bath,I was harassed by my school and highschool classmates,rejected by a classmate from highschool because he told me I don't belong there and was humiliated in a lot of ways. He drinks a lot of alcohol and he is always drunk. I haven't done anything to anyone and I don't understand why this happens to me. I am not pure of heart and I'm not holly but what have I done to God to deserve such awful parents? I burned my own chest because of this situation. I tried to go to the police but they didn't do anything to solve the problem with my father and they told me that this was a joke. What kind of a human I am if I am harmed by my own parents? My case is exactly like Saint Dymphna!

Romania.

Which you have to pay! Now,if you were a pentecostal you will get free help from them!

I forgot to mention that there is an institution which is based on social help but the General Social Assistance Directorate only helps people who have a handicap or are in college and have a social scholarship! I had a social scholarship but that didn't gave me a financial support each month and I had to rely on my relatives. The church only cared about my money and not about my financial crisis!

@Deborah_ I hope that you can give me some enlightenment! I'm seeking your advices! Isn't the church supposed to help people in need?

Hi,I no longer want to become a monk because I realised that there are some rules to follow.I'm choosing this path because my mother was scammed by 2 old people who were pentecostals.They sold the appartment without the balcony and the garden. In my opinion,these 2 people were protected by their christian community,they had a free lawyer and free food while we(me and my mom) weren't protected at all and I find that a discrimination. Why is that? I just don't find it fair that some people are protected by their community and others have to pay in order to be satisfied. I went to the local priest to receive help and all that he could give us were some piece of paper with some saints pictures. What are the benefits of this religion? Can you receive human help from this religion? As a normal christian I went to the church but no one listened to me....... Is it my fault?

I tried finding a bible verse about being mentally reduced(dumb) but all I could find is this: 1 Corinthians 1:26-29 26 For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. 27 But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; 28 God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, 29 so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. Proverbs 30:2 Surely I am too stupid to be a man. I have not the understanding of a man. Psalm 94:8 Take notice, you senseless ones among the people; you fools, when will you become wise? Psalm 92:6 Senseless people do not know, fools do not understand, Job 18:3 Why are we regarded as cattle and considered stupid in your sight? Job 11:12 But the witless can no more become wise than a wild donkey’s colt can be born human. Proverbs 15:21 Folly brings joy to one who has no sense, but whoever has understanding keeps a straight course. What is the role of stupidity in the Bible? How does stupidity help you? Isn't intelligence more important than stupidity? I mean if you're dumb and you feel that your intelligence is low how can you get smarter? Just by praying?

This is what happened to me: God never helped me with anything in life!I had to deal with every problem myself. For example,in highschool I had to learn for a promotional exam and I had to choose science(biology,chemistry or physics as a subject. In this subject I choosed physics and I had no idea about mechanical or electrical phenomens. I had to search the internet about some things about forces,diagrams,electrical circuits and I felt desperate because no one in my family knew something about science. In school I was very stupid and my IQ was reduced to a thinking level of a rabbit. I was parallel with the science subjects(except english) and I barelly passed my math tests. I used the internet as a source of searching and not God,Satan or other beings. As a child I had a vision of my father who laughed of me like a demon who takes pleasure in the suffering of others and I cried a lot in the 2nd grade. Only my mother was the one who accepted me and cared for me,not God,Satan or other beings. There was another person who helped me do something with my life,an aunt from Greece and she helped me to discover myself as a person. She didn't have a school and she was just a cook. Because of her my intelligence grew,not because of prayer God,Satan or other beings. I was very jealous of my colleagues who had a higher intelligence than mine. In 2017 I went to a project for electricians and in that project only 4 people were prepared for life,they knew how to make circuits,how to connect cables,how to use tools,my parents were too stupid and I had to handle everything on my own. I couldn't and I had to create lies,manipulations,conflicts and other things which were not so useful. The participants were knowledgeless and only 2 or 3 participants knew what they had to do. In the last part we had to build an electric hub and I had no idea how to build it. No one helped me. Most of them were quite hostile if you lied to them and the volunteers instead of helping us reach our potential they told us that if we don't do what they say they will lock us in a psychiatric hospital or worse. After that project I developed a mental breakdown and I could no longer function. I was stressed,forced by my parents to learn every subject in highschool and I couldn't take it anymore. After seeing that I had suicidal thoughts in 2018 my parents decided to lock me in a psychiatric hospital with the police being their partner.The police officers were very cruel and very hostile towards me. I had pain in the stomach and I couldn't breath because of the stress that I've been through. I don't know if Jesus was in a better position than me but at least he had a father who cared about him while my father was a complete douchebag,a loser who worked in the bar and sold alcohol to other people,he used his money to buy alcohol from a military police officer(gendarmerie). If my father was like Jesus Father maybe my situation would be different.

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Hi,I'm in hard relationships with my family which divorced 1 year ago. I'm struggling in an engineering college and I don't have someone to help me with my studies. I'm a complete failure and I decided that I wanted to choose this path because that way I don't have to deal with aggression,hostility and the world that wants to harm me. I'm saying this because my father was an alcoholic person and when I wanted justice I couldn't get it because my father had a ,,vision'' that if I had a proof of him commiting an illegal act he would erase the act and blame it on myself so I had no idea how to solve this conflict between me,my father and my mother. I want to choose this path because I could have my own salary and my own room from the help of the monastery. I have no idea how hard the life of a monk actually is so I'm asking some guidance here!

Thanks for your advices but I made a decision.I do want to kill myself and there is no turning back.In life I didn't get a lot of help,maybe in death I could get something better. Also there were some quotes from the bible that explained me that the dead have no conscious and there is no hell and heaven for them.I might be lucky and get the chance to wait in my grave.

So there is no second chance after you commit suicide?Not even a bit of mercy?That's not fair.

So you mean that waiting is the only thing that I can do?Praying and repentance don't seem to have an effect.

I was thinking of drowning.Is drowning a sin?I didn't specify at first how I wanted to take my life.

I suffered from stomach nerves when I went to a camp and told them that I wanted to be an electrician.I never wanted that.The activities were dull and my teammates were dumb.I didn't know what to do anymore.No one ever asked me how I feel!I hated that camp and besides that stress killed me spiritually and physically and I prayed for a few times but nothing,nothing appeared to comfort me.My father told me that I'm a sinner and I don't deserve salvation. I'm a very sensible person but no one in my family gives a crap about me.Is hell my only option?

Why would you pray for me when I deceived others and lied to others that I am good at different subjects?What if God hates me and wants to condemn me to eternal suffering?What have I ever done to Him?

I had thoughts about drowning myself for 2 months and I didn't know if God will forgive you if you complete this act.I heard a lot of rumors that if you kill yourself you will not go to heaven and you will spend in hell for all eternity.Is that true?The bible is not helping me at all and the only quote that I found was from the ten comandments:Do not kill!Does that include yourself?Also if suicide was caused by stress,anxiety and panic attacks will you be forgiven?What is the punishment for this sin?