Purplewavyline

Haha yeh we tryin. It's getting better, I can enter one building, very occasionally, and it feels dreamlike and vague. But I can't get out of that building. There is no door for me. So th others just come an visit.

Yup we have a pretty solid inner world that every1 except me can access (*shakes fist*) when they aren't in front. For those who might not know, an inner world is a shared imaginary space for alters to communicate which some systems have, sometimes it's as simple as a single room, sometimes a building, a city, a planet. Ours is a few buildings, a tent, a duck pond, a garden, a cave system, n forest which has a river n some cottages. The others live in there just like others live out here. Reality is a little off but they still have to eat, sleep, shower, deal with injuries etc. An they can spend time together or just do their own thing lol.

Just so y'all know, we're totally happy 2 answer genuine Qs, but if its 4 personal interest n not 2 answer the original question we'd prolly prefer u DM us so this thread isn't more clogged up ✌️✌️ Also again, plz stop suggesting full integration lol. Say it with me now: we are not fully integrating. End of story.

Integration isn't an option 4 us. This is an agreement we have in our system n Ava outright said its not what we intend 2 do. Even if she wanted 2 she'd need all our permission 4 it which we do not give, n theres no guarantee wed still be Xtian. Its actually super unlikely. If u don't wanna answer the actual question that was posed plz move along

We keep passwords and reminders on our phone in a notes app. We also use the same password for anything that isn't important.

I have literally zero interest in christianity, but idc what other ppl believe if they don't push it on me. Ava can believe what she likes bt she knows if she tries 2 evangelise 2 me I will b very unhappy with her, and I know its the same with the others. She knows this am respects our wishes. There will be no "accepting of jesus" from me or most of the others. Our trauma was not a deliberate attempt to fragment us, that is v uncommon.

I'm the host. U can call me host. Ava won't remember, we have almost total amnesia between alters most of the time, but she'll just read thru, or if she doesn't front 4 a while I can summarise. It gets annoying if ppl have 2 repeat themselves all the time lol. In terms of triggers, its p much common sense with us, if u think something cld be triggering don't go into detail without asking 1st. Unless ur talking 2 a trauma holder, which I and Ava are not, just mentions of stuff generally isn't enough to trigger us.

Oh its just a rly specific thing to try an apply to the entire did/osdd community is all. Ritual abuse for eg is more likely 2 create a polyfragmented system (like yours) than other traumas.

OK, naturally dissociate /more than is normal/. And that is not relevant 2 our situation, weird thing 2 bring up lol

High iq isn't part of it For did or osdd to form u need 3 things: Natural predisposition 2 dissociate Disorganised attachment model to primary caregivers Long term trauma before the age of 9, which would severely limit the childs ability 2 function if they remembered it

Ava isn't here rn but I'll try 2 answer in her place cos idk when she'll be back. We aren't looking 4 a cure, esp a religious one. We're happy with seeking treatment from an actual medical professional, and not 2 cure us but 2 work best together. P sure she was looking for an answer 2 "where do we go when we die?" rather than how to cure us. Thx.

Hello friends ? My name is Ava, and I am a member of what's known as a Dissociative Identity Disorder system. This means I am one of multiple people, known as alters, who exist within this body. This can occur when a child experiences ongoing and extreme trauma, and the brain fragments into separate identities, with separate memories and attributes, as a protective measure. We can each control the body at various times. We have different names, genders, sexualities, interests, glasses prescriptions, reactions to medications, dominant hands, allergies, and beliefs. Obviously we aren't literally different people, we are manifestations of the needs of one brain, but to us it feels like we are different people, so I refer to us as such. I am not the "main" alter. If an original exists I am not it. I in fact did not exist as an alter until fairly recently in comparison to the rest of the system (once the brain has learned to split in childhood, it can continue to do so into adulthood in response to new traumas). I am, however, the only currently active alter who is Christian. The rest range from disinterest to active dislike of Christianity, especially as some hold memories of trauma perpetuated by religious institutions or by people wielding religion as a weapon. My question is this: what happens when we die? Do we all go to hell, because the others reject God? Do we all go to heaven, pulled there by my faith? Might we have separate souls, and each go to heaven or hell accordingly? Note: I am not looking for medical advice, so please do not try to tell me how to "cure" DID. Full integration is not an option for us and is generally considered unsafe. Any comments referring to us as demons will be ignored. Converting the others is not really an option here, they get frustrated and upset when I try. Thank you and God bless you for any perspectives you can give.