I do not feel love for any other people. I don't think I even feel love for myself. What is the feeling of love? How can you tell if you feel love? My mother was too traumatized to think, much less nurture a baby. She was unable to do anything but reject and neglect a baby from the day it was born. I don't know who traumatized her, but it must have been horrible. My father was able to think, but was unable to feel. I never had a role model of a person who feels love, and neither of my parents were ever able to teach me what feelings were what. So I have never felt love, or if I have, I have never known that that was what the feeling was.
They say that if an infant is not nurtured, then significant parts of the brain do not develop, or they contract, or waste away, or they get turned off. A brain scan would probably show that the portions of the brain that people use for love have wasted away in my brain, or worse yet, never even grew to begin with. How can I feel love?
Is it possible that God can nurture me the same way a mother nurtures her infant? Can he hold me and suckle me and attend to my needs as a mother attends to her infant in order for me to feel love? Can he grow the love portions of my brain? What does the Bible say about those whose parents prevented their loving ability from developing? And what does the Bible say the solution is for an adult who has never had love?
