babyroses

thank you for reminding me of my safety and my family. i have a dangerous streak. it's not on purpose. it's more compulsive and just happens. i've had to go to jail before because of it. they always change or give me more medications and turn me back over to my gaurdians. i've never been in a jail with other people. and they never made me take my clothes off. they say that they do that to criminals. but now the police give me to the ambulance people. they always post an officer at my door. i've done bad things to myself. but when i've ran into traffic, i could have hurt others. i didn't plan it. everything just happened so fast. i really have to remember my safety and my family. i haVe some toys and colors that i take out to play with. but my old therepist say that adults aren't suppose to do that. it really makes me sad. i wish i could just be like i am withoput making people uncomforable. my family says it doesn't bother them. they even help me with my piggy collection. everyone gets my babies clothes too. i love scriptures. i might be sick on the outside, but i'm not on the inside. Jesus forgives me and the scriptures tell me all sorts of things. i have lots of favorites. i really am happy everybody wrote me. i'll try to be a good friend. i'm alittle scared because i'm already getting your names confused. i hope you won't get mad at me while i learn them all. i had some tears todfay. because you all sound very nice. i was scarted that i would get yelled at. i always feel baD for the poster when they get unkind posts back. babyroses

that happens to. that's when He pushes us out with armor on. but everyday. so much sex, drugs, violence, greed, lies, wounds, preditors, muders, fowl lanuages, unjust systems. blind, deaf, hungry, widowed, laziness, corruption. theivfs. pain, abuse, dysfunction. how canm i be content ?! how can the ways of the world not need us right now and e3verywhere. ofcourse we can't infringe upon peoples rights....... what if i did leave my family. leave all i know to souly exsixt for mimistering to others. what if i do live in the scriptures quite literal. what if i see thgings the way i do. to seperate me from the word. what if my reality is cokmpletely different fot a apurpose. these thoughts have been working there ways into my brain, since i was 8. when i wished i had been the three year old offeringto the temple. many times i have traveled through the dessert. i sought a burning bush, bu found none. but i sought God. He was there watching over me. but at that timt; i could not feel him. i dispared. i ran. later i learn, that He was there the whole time. we are all knit together, we are His tower and He our Corner stone. For I hold you by your right hand

Psalm 23 A psalm of David. 1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. isn't it bad if we live only in scriptures and promises? aren't we suppose to go out into the world and use God's love and truth to heal others? what if i sit in my head with all of this, unable to exspress it. sometimes i want to go live out in the streets and only have God with me. if i had nothing but Him, then i could feel Him more? see Him more? i won't be so confused and busy with life. but i would be busy with Him.

.... i've already taken my meds, so no, i'm not needing to go to the doctor. i need fellowship. i need advice. i need truth. i need concern. i need passion and i need compassion. my heart is black and wet with tears the dew on my hair has been here for years from the scales on my gruff old heals to the top of my brow with sweat i cling to my God and weep for him yet my life is spinning in circles no one understand my brain my biggest problem is i hold things upstairs in my head until i'm so confused i have no idea what i need to let go of. what do you work on when you can't socialize normally with people?! my comunnication skills are so bad that everyone avoids me. or worse, i get around them and can't talk. i mean can't. i've been on this board for over a year and made no friends. hardly posted. messaged very little. etc. ok. here's where everyone tears me to shards for being so imature and ignorant. i'll listen. but i don't know how easy it will be to post back. pray for me please. this really is not something i wanted to do. i felt i have to learn to socialize for maturity.

Oh yeh!!!!! Hi, I am so happy there is someone I know here! How cool!!! I can't wait to see the new features! Really though, I am glad things are looking better with this new christian therapy. It is just the more I say it, the less scarey it sounds and the easier it is to get through it. With that 10 hour session though, it just confused me more then I was before. I know I sound a little morbid when I talk about it but I really find it a morbid thing. It seems so much easier to write then it is to say. How are you doing? I am still praying for everyone whether it is up or not. Lily00 p.s. Really though, it is hard but I am getting through it. Confusion and SI are the main things I am working through but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger! (Can't wait to share the new spiritual fruit!!!) osbsevation/therepy is how they see best to help you. it's not so bad once you start to feel the value of it. don't be shy about your post. your feelings, even re-accurring ones are important. before you realize it, you'll be settled into a routine with therepy. i still have seen some real growth from you. you can't imagine spiritual growth. it shines through all your words. even your discouraging moments can't hide your growth.

i have lots of mental health problems. i use to hear voices all the time. doctors said it's deleyed stress.... (from not knowing how to heal or cope)... i learned to shove them out of my head. if i didn't, i'd re-live what i wanted to heal from. re-open the traumas that consumed me and allowed myself to get confused and hurt all over again.

i'm pretty sure i know who you are ( from fallowing your fruits of the spirit studies). your growth has been big. you are so courageously going forward and are being built so strong. i know you worry about 'strong'... but you are leaning on the one who is truelly strong for us.

christian music has some awesome heavy metal.

our youth group is totally cool. it has branched out at church and into homes and into two new buildings!! YOUTH GROUP TEAM MUSTS 1. youth pastor has adult youth leaders. 2. youth pastor has youth youth leaders. 3. regular meetings (even if it's some of leaders). 4. regular parties (even if it's a small turnout). 5. outside church, smaller bible study groups (for growth fellowship). 6. clubs/ interrest groups, feild trips/ BBQs or pinics. 7. everybody inputs and invites friend to outside activities. 8. fundraisers ran by kids with donations going to activities. 9. sports and hangout after church at park and school. (really popular!!) 10. sign up sheets for everything.

Luke 10:27 So he answered and said, ""You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your mind,' and "your neighbor as yourself."' so when we mirror God's love we are being completely obediant... we are are loving Him back, loving others and that's being the lights of the world!! WHAT A MINISTERY OF LOVE

Matthew 22:37-39 37 Jesus said to him, ""You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.'38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second is like it: "You shall love your neighbor as yourself. God took me out of my mental illness when doctors and medicine gave me no hope. He found me in a pit that kept me from seeing what reality was... and taught me who i am. He gave all the piain inside my head a purpose... He commisioned me to show others that they have healling and love and purpose to. now all my pain has become hope and wisdom. He took me in the mist of rebellion and gave me a clean and new start. He re-newed my mind and spirit and put joy in my soul. He guides and teaches me. He lives in me and with me... and calls me His own.

John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends.

John 15:12 This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. i want to urge each of you who come to this tread to share how God has loved you.... please leave a scripture of love or encouragement. the reason why i wanted this thread is because i saw all the heated debates and threads with strong comments. we are suppose to mirror God's love.... so can we help ourselves and study the law of God's love.

no one wants to offend anyone. i wanted to know what it means and why. since you have first hand info, see it as an opportunity to put our ideas in the light of what this means to you. i grew up in this church. it was not known or seen to me then.... boise, Idaho. USA i was a prim, missinette and on the nationals bible quiz team. maybe you can share some specific situation where you witnessed? that was not referring to your church, but airport ministeries he saw first hand... the comment was made as a stament to that. praying is something i think we all can agree on. again, no one was referring or attacking your church, or your beliefs. how nice for you to provide this. can you tell me where the word "slain in the spirit" comes from, and what is it's deffination? it is driving me nuts! i can't find it anywhere. please give all the details you can. thankx............. GOD BLESS! Roses

i don't like the sound of the word Justifying.... it sounds suppicious i know you being facious.