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Thanks everyone....everything had me thinking. I appreciate it.

Okay so I will be 16 this saturday, right? Have I had a boyfriend? no.....no one has ever been attracted to me, ever, at any time in my life. I wouldn't say I am feeling sorry for myself, I'm not, just sometimes I wonder if any guy will ever want to marry me and start a family. I feel so ugly compared to all the other girls....so....different. And my morals are different from the girls who go from boyfriend to boyfriend, since I have been here I have seen several several go through 3 boyfriends in what? 2 years? I guess its the fact no one finds me to be beautiful, attractive, girlfriend material, but you know what? High school dating hardly ever ends up in marriage and I had rather wait until college and find someone who wants me for my personality, not just for my body, which is probably why people don't find me attractive......anyways......just wanted to get this off my chest. Hopefully I will turn from an ugly duckling to a swan in a few years so I won't be so much uglier than most girls....

Okay so lets turn the topic, to a much more important topic. My mom called my youth pastor and his wife last night and during the process found out when Kristin was away on a seminar for a week (she had to fly there) she had a miscarriage. David wasn't there with her, so that made it even worse. I know they have been trying for like 8 months and they just lost the baby. Please pray for them, I know they could sure use it. Out of all people, why them? If anyone deserves a child, its them, you know? I love them to death and hate to see things like this happen to people I love. Just please keep them in your prayers....

lol....yeah i know better than that! I will probably get them cut out not this friday but next. They are HURTING! Like they both came up, went back down, and now one of them is back up.....ugh

hahaha, man that would be hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha.....i might try that....okay okay i wont but it would be funny if someone actually bought it! Because each tooth that was pulled was $150 and then the wisdom teeth is going to cost I believe $250 a tooth so thats ummmm $1900 lol! anyways.....i found that funny! Have you seen the prozac barbie on ebay?!

lol i somehow dont think mints will work! hahaha Oh and to the keeping the teeth I still have the 6 they pulled ummm what was it when I was 12 about to turn 13....hehehe so if they can get the teeth out whole i would like to keep them lol. I might just make a necklace, how cute would that be?! hahaha no i wouldnt go that far. The 6 they pulled out have wickedly long roots nd all came out in one piece but all 4 of mine are impacted. the bottom two that had came up are now back under the gum...

"And I'm sure your mommy will give you plenty of TLC. " Hahaha.....riiiight. Anyways, I told her I said so what? your not allowed to brush your teeth for 24 hours?! And she said no. I said well then I aint going to school, she said "oh yes you are" I said oh no im not.........very much TLC.............not! lol

hahaha.....^^^^I will do the same thing! Oh and I plan on getting all 4 out at once, he has to cut all 4 of them out.....so, yeah.....i have had 6 teeth pulled at once with laughing gas and 12 novacaine shots......never again in my life! Oh my gosh I was still fully aware and he said i was going to sound like snack, crackle, pop, well when it popped i threw up, the amount of force he used was sickening! I had a headache the entire day from pulling against him for him.....*throws up now* lol

ugh so like yesterday and the day before i got a wisdom tooth on each side of my bottom teeth. you can feel the top ones but no break through as of yet. IT HURTS SOOO BAD!!! Anyways, mom is making an appointment with a new dentist since I hate the one I have now and maybe just maybe but I highly doubt I will get in tomorrow. And then of course will be the appointment with the oral surgeon to cut these stupid things out.....ewwww. Have I mentioned I HATE going to the dentist? Ugh I cannot do tastes, textures, smells, sounds.....and I have a really really bad gag reflux and have thrown up many times. I really need prayer....but the only way I will open my mouth is if I am under general anesthetic....lol and I am serious! So if you have your wisdom teeth out, I want all the details from that morning on to recovery. thanks

hehe, sorry....i just thought the peeps at the gym would appreciate seeing hairless legs in shorts rather than hairy legs, hehe.....i swear i only shave my legs when i have to lol...

hahaha.....^^^^ that made me laugh. that's awesome. too bad its not true. Man, I am goig to the gym tomorrow and am going to work my butt off! I even shaved my legs tonight, lol.

note to self *get your fat self back to the gym! ugh, you sicken me*

thanks everyone for the encouragements and prayer. No, I have not worked things out in my youth group but it has gotten better. Ugh, just to get my pants to fit comfortably.....but its gonna happen, one way or another.

I am anorexic and bulimia. It is considerably better, i never lost a ton of of weight unfortunately. I went to counseling for it and she dropped me after the 6th session.... Anyways....my jeans are getting tight and I do not want to wear a 3! I like the number 1, especially in pant sizes......and I have this urge to not eat at all until thanksgiving and if i eat it will be a small dinner since mom always cooks. Then I have the plan to start throwing that up.......great huh? My mind is the best in the world.......not. Anyways, I could really use some prayer with this.

my church wants to start a discipleship program and many adults went up their (they could either be a mentor to someone or learn to be a "disciple") and I went and laid my card on the table to learn to become a disciple.....i just dont know any more than that. I know like they are going to do it 1 on 1........has anyone ever experienced anything like this? he said it could take 6-9 months or longer....any ideas as to what all this could entail>?

let me rephrase that, i dont think they ever really cared. i have some of the teens in classes throughout the day and none of them say anything to me, even when i talk to them first. ugh, i hate this

97- afjrotc 96- biology 92- literature 91- advanced economics geometry- it was 77 but he gave me 2 zeros that he is fixing so it should be a high B low A Spanish- 73C......uuuuuuuggggghhhhhhh i am going to have a C on my report card, there is no way i can bring it up 7 points in 4 weeks! Ugh, i still i hate being ignored....especially since i love them all so much, i do not think they feel the same way about me anymore

yes, I read it. I don't know though...I play an active part in the youth group and participate in about 95% of all trips and activities....I love them to death and all but this is getting old, being ignored. They used to not ignore me but now they do, Im not exactly sure what happened there. Anyways.....I can tell today is going to be a bad day because of last night. P.S.....I get midterms today and have a C in spanish.....I need to have it up to a B by report cards in like 4 weeks........please pray that I can bring it up. God has helped me many times with academics and I know he can do it again, I just have to do my part.....thanks

yeah, im not the loudest person in the group, i dont talk much. but still, you know? it just hurts. i feel so weird around them, and they completely ignore me, which is rude i think personally. i dont know anymore. i give up on caring about people

tonight i gave my youth pastor his bday gift.....4 cd's I spent $50 on them (they were on sale). He was really grateful for them but then like everyone ignored me for the entire night.....its like this every sunday and wednesday. I dont want to say anything about it, but its killing me inside. I'm on the verge of tears whenever im at youth group. Like i was going to leave and i was going to hug him and he walked by i guess paying no attention and then he turned around and hugged me real quick and then acted distracted. I dont know anymore....i try and try....yet im always the one teen who is left out in the cold, and it hurts. So bad. I guess this is just a vent.

Does anyone know of any christian artist releases that have just recently came out? or of any coming out before november 20th? Thanks! (anyone like tree63, toby mac, etc)

Fiosh....I'm glad things worked out for you and your friend. I wish I had the courage to do the same, but I don't unfortunately. I turn shy around her. Anyways....congratulations

I have no clue.....any ideas? like a subtle hint....just not sure how. She and 5 girls including myself are in the same small group, she is our leader. So if you have any ideas at all....i would be greatful. I saw her tonight at second coming and we were leaving and I wanted to hug her but i didnt want to....she was across the room. Anyways I went over and hugged her and she said "fine, don't hug me shows what kind of friend you are. " laughing and said "I hope you have a good week"

It wouldnt be so bad if she is my age,lol. She is 28 I believe I'm almost 16....quite a age difference. I think what makes it worse is the fact my youth pastors wife know me better than 98% of people.....makes it hard. I just wish she would approach me first, I hste confrontation.

Ugh, i cant do it. I can't bring it up at all, heck I don't even talk to her anymore. I just wish God would lay it on her heart or something, you know? I'm so confused.