fallen_stone

I believe some people are under the wrong impression. I am not fallen stone, she is gone, I am her friend, I wrote this post to let people who helped know what happened. For those who are private msg. her, She cant answer to you. I ve been checking back to see what people are saying, and thats it, do not force religion upon me, or believe that Fallen stone is back, shes not, I wish she was, but she is gone, im just looking here for memory of her. Eventually i will stop looking i hope that clears a few things up,

Dear all Wrothy Board Users Please remember fallen_stone for she was always longed to be accepted and loved, and although she is no longer able to write to her friends on worthy boards, she is in a better place now and hopefully has at last found peace. While i was searching through her things she left behind, trying to sort things out, i came acroos this website, and decided it was best to let you all know. This will be the last time this account will be used, and i am sad to say it's not by her. I want to thank you all for being her support whenwe, her friends were unable to. If only we could have listened more, and been there for her more than we were. Again, thank you for being there when she reached out -A FRIEND OF FALLEN_STONE

It seems you know me so well. Thank you for writing so much to me, and really listening to my cries. I believe you are right when it comes to the last name, i just fdon't want to be associated with my mothers family or her, and where we share the same last name, i just want to leave her behind. I must make this enrty short because i have to go to work, but i will be back to talk, i hope you will still be there thank you soo much!

i'm not the most religious person, but if you've been forgiven, when judgement day comes, will you be safe? or will the final judgement be made then?

i should say sorry if i have offeneded anyone here. I am very impatient on this topic considering how huge it is and how i a in a rush to make a decision. I know that God takes his time to answer, trust me i've been calling out to him for years, but i really need to make up my mind soon.

I am bothered by the fact that while i seriously need help and advice from someone about an issue that involves verbal abuse, and past physical abuse, i am gettng no responses, while people asking questions about their sex life and other questions are getting many replies, maybe i came to the wrong site. I am seriously begining to regret coming here. YThank you to the two people who were ther, and i'm sorry to the rest of you for not being in "enough need" for your response. i can;t depend on my family i have no idea why i was lead to believe i could depend on strangers.

thank you, i need it!

My mother is manipulative. And altough i have no contact with her now, when i did, the only way i found to solve it was to ignore it. Saying no is hard, especially the first time, but your friend needs to hear it. So the next time she asks, or manipulates you for something, say no, sorry i wish i could but i can't help you. whatever her plead may be. Stay firm. In my experience not only is manipultion about insecurities, but it's also about having power. Bring able to control someone. This is what she wants and she will stop at nothing to get it.There';s no need to confront her, altough in a perfect world it would be a good idea to do so. But considering her reactions, i have a funny feeling that the more you say no, the less control she will have over you and eventually she will stop. i don't know if this will help you or not, but it is an idea, and i hope it does work for you. I'm sure it will be hard at first, but everything is hard when you don't know the outcome. Just remember htough, you aren;t hurting her by saying no, you're hurting her by giving in all the time. Good luck, i hope all works out for you ~fallen stone~

Thank you for your thoughts you have no idea how much it means

I'm really not sure how to PM you, but i can give you my msn, if you have access to that? it's stonebaby86@hotmail.com I don't mind opening up either, for i am so desprately in need of help. you see, my mother and father divorced when i was only weeks old, and i was not permitted to have any typed of relationship with my father. I was told that he was a very bad man. He has been compared to the devil many times. My mother was very young when she had me, barely out of her teenage years, being young, she left me with her parents while she went to bars and met men. Finally she moved away to another province, and that's when she began to physically abuse me. i was 9. five years later i was removed from her home and sent to live with her sister. i continued to have a clsoe relationship with her parents. although they blamed me for what happened compared me to being bad like my mother constantly. Whenever i made a mistake, i was a dissappointment to them, i never had their support. Recently i have made contact with my fater. he is not evil. It was all lies. he was not allowed to even see me they hid me from him. now i feel cheated. i could have had a good life with him. i am not bitter, and altough i am angry after discovering the dark truths of my mothers family, i was wiling to forgive them. But once again i am made out to be the bad person in their eyes. I want to be able to walk away from them, change my lst name back to my fathers, the name i was baptized with. I need help making a decsion. i hope you can help sorry for typing a book!!! thank you for thinking of me -fallen stone

i battled it, and i still am battleing it. the only person who can help you is you. Everyone tried to help me, i was even threatened to be sent to a center, but it came down to me being ready or not. Kind of like a smoker wanting to quit, only when they are ready can they do it. I wasn't ready to give up my control, i was controling my body, becuase i felt so lost in the wold that i could not change anythign but my body. i wasted away to bare bones. and still when i get emotional, i find myself fighting not to eat, but i think back to when i was paper thin, to when my skin was greyish and my eyes were sunk. I think about how i could see all my bone through my skin, and i eat just a little. i find it helps to eat lots of small meals throughout the day. Maybe a few bits of an apple now and a small plate of kraft dinner later small portions add up throughout the day and you don't find yourself getting sick either. hope all is well with you, and i hope you find it in you to help yourself!

sorry, this tale is far too confusing for even me to understand. you see, for 20 years my father was out of the picture, my mother's parents raised me until my mother decided to move to a different province. When i was removed from her home, i was sent to live with her relatives, people i was close to and knew. They always judged me and said i would turn out like my mother, which is bad, she lies and cheats people and has no morals. it hurt to hear that. Whenever i would make a mistake, this family would only put me down more instead of support me. My father just recently moved away as well, shortly after i met him. He did offer for me to go with them, them being his daughter and wife, but i am in a commited relationship, altough we are not living together, we are insepratable. I would like to change my last name back to my fatheres and it is my dream to be able to walk away from my mothers family and not look back. to not be hurt by them again. but i'm not sure if it is the right thing to do. I hope i made more sense., thank you for taking time out of your day to help me god bless you -fallen stone

Hello, My heart goes out to you, for i am in the same boat as you. My mother abused me as a child, and to this day i still fear her, She lives in my dreams and affects relationships that i am in or trying to make with other people.. Unlike you though i never keptit a secret. I wanted people to know how serious and how common this problem is, so that it's no longer a topic you keep hushed, but just becuase i talked about it doesn't change how i feel. i still want to end my life. there are times when the darkness is far more powerful and all i can see is misery. But as you have your little baby, i have my little kitty cat and my loving boyfriend. I know a cat isn't a child, but to see the jooy he feels when i walk into the room is equally as fullfilling as it must be when a baby sees his mother. You can make life different for your child, keep his innocence alive. yours may have been stolen but you have a chance to keep a new one alive. If ever you need to talk to someone, email me, stonebaby86@hotmail.com i'm not a victim of abuse, i am a survior, and so are you. lets bring the sunshine back into our lives together. may your light begin to shine -fallen stone

Hello everyone, I only just found this website, and started an account, and to be honest i'm not really sure how this works, but I really need someone to talk to. I just posted this in another room, but i'll post it here just incase. I need an outsider from my life to give me guidence. You see my vision is too cloudy at the moment, and i am unable to help myself. I've tried to find outher chat rooms and websites, but I am lost. Please some one, be of help to me.The sun has turned i'ts back to me, and my world is nothing but darkness. Here is my problem. I am in my early 20's. when i was jsut a few weeks old my parents divorced and i had no contact wiht my father. I was never close to my mother, she would always leaving me with her parents to care for me. When i was 9, she began to physically abuse me. Finally 5 years after the physical abuse began, i was removed from her house. A few months ago, i decided to make contact with my father and it was success. He eagerly accepted me into his life wher i now have a new family. The trouble is, i am begining to see all the lies my family that i grew up with told me, and more than ever i want to be free from them. you see verbal abuse and control was and is a huge factor on my mothers side. And now i am being put down more than ever. I live on my own, and i am grateful for all they have done for me in regards to raising me after i was removed from my mothers home, nut the way they are treating me, and calling me a disappointment and other names, is hurtful. I know family lis important and they are all you got, but tha'ts not the case with me. I need some feedback and what i should do. Should i change my name back to the name i was baptized as? and should i walk away from the family that has hurt me all these years and finally be free, or should i stay with them becuase of who they are? Please somebody help me!!!!!! I feel myself breaking, and if i dont' get help soon, i don't know what i'm going to do!! Thank you -fallen_stone

Hello everyone, I only just found this website, and started an account, and to be honest i'm not really sure how this works, but I really need someone to talk to. An outsider from my life to give me guidence. You see my vision is too cloudy at the moment, and i am unable to help myself. I've tried to find other chat rooms and websites, but I am lost. Please someone, be of help to me.The sun has turned its back to me, and my world is nothing but darkness. Thank you -fallen_stone