Hi, I am kind of new posting on Worthy Boards. The advise given here is very good. Grief is different for everyone. My husband went home to be our Lord three and a half years ago. Although our ages are not nearly the same the feelings that you stated, colleen, were much the same. Just to let you know, one time you will be fine with it, then five minutes later it will change. As someone stated, please don't make a major change of anything for a while. A year may be short, too long, or just enough. I can testify to the fact God never leaves us or forsakes us. There will be times you won't want to be around anyone, but please don't shut everyone out. Good Christians friends are like angels of mercy. And last, but surely not least, remember you are not the only one grieving. The children and both his and your family members are also. I found it healing to cry, to laugh at remembrances with my children, sometimes just to hug them and sit with them. You and your family are in my prayers and anytime at all you want to talk, yell, scream I will listen, and God is available 24/7. May God bless you and yours.