Face Down Girl

Hello my friends in Christ, I am married for some years now and when I married I believed I was marrying a believer. Now, he believes Jesus saved him, but does not like the "hyprocrites in the church", does not go to church, does not pray with me, does not care that his 19 yr old daughter sleeps with her boyfriend, etc. He treats me as if I do not exist...he had a rough upbringing with a mean father and an over protective mother, so he cannot share feelings or feel empathy. He is always in self-protection mode, suspicious of other's motives, non-trusting of others, I could go on and on. I'm a basket case as well, and I am emotionally needful of affection as I lost my dad as a kid, and I have abandonment issues, so I'm not just trying to bad rap him, just lay some groundwork about why I am concerned about his salvation. I guess the worst thing is he doesn't ever feel convicted by the Holy Spirit when he does something wrong. I, on the other hand, am a miserable Christian because I am so angry at him and God constantly reminds me of my sin of unforgiveness and my anger at my husband for deceiving me. Be that as it may, I will remain married, as that is God's will, and he is not abusing me...just passive aggressive stuff. But....please just pray I will be given my heart's prayer...wisdom and understanding...not from myself, but from God...and that I will do as Jesus would...love this man completely and not take what he does to hurt me personally. Right now, I do not like him, do not care to talk to him. He never has any affection for me, or wants to be with me at all, so it's easy to stay apart from him, but emotionally, I would love for him to submit to God's will for our marriage. and that we could both get on our knees together and be blessed as a Christian couple, and be healed of our selfishness and emotional hurts. Thanks to anyone who reads this and will pray for me and him.

I know sometimes it all gets so muddy...I just crawled out of a pit myself. I felt like nothing was working...no one cared...God was not interested in me or my problems...it got pretty bad. All I can say is keep opening that bible, and keep praying, no matter how skeptical you feel, how it seems to matter little anymore, no matter how long it takes....don't give it up. Look up, not around you..I hope it comes soon for you....restoration feels very good!

Bass player: One more verse for you: Psalm 139:17-18 (The Message) The Message (MSG) Copyright

bass player, do not give up what is free to you. eternal life...think of it...eternal....and you can play bass in heaven and worship our God in person. there are hypocrites everywhere, even in church...no...especially in the churches, but we are called to pray for them. Jesus hung with sinners, he did not participate in evil with them, but he also did not call them hypocrites...even his own followers became hypocrites...some stayed and some left the churches....but he loved them all as we are called to love them. why give up eternity because some so called Christians are judgemental...they aren't perfect anymore than we are. hang in there don't go out into the world...it's an ugly place and the next step on the pilgrimage is not heaven....you know that I know of course, but keep an eternal perspective.. ps. my husband is a bass player...he struggles with these same issues. Hypocrites and pain in this world are hard to deal with, but we must suffer as Christ also suffered. Here is a verse for you from The Message Bible (if you don't have this bible, please get it...it is in plain words and while I wouldn't replace my NKJV or NIV with it, it is wonderful to read L Romans 8:31-39 So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us