Bassplayer

so understandig God as a whole is somthing we never can do... truthfully he will reveal aspects of him self but that is it.

SO I dissaperd because i moved am now at a chritian camp for spring and summer just serving people, my back is really in alot of pain and i have to pay off some deabts but i have no money so, Prayer for that would be nice my back and the financial situation Thanks guys!

(I am still researching things on this and trying to make things clear more for me but i am just stuck... i think-

So 2 Corinthians 5:11-7:4 cover a lot of areas on people

thanks Fresno. Amen

so in my class we write two sermons on Esther and i choose jot points but yea.. i preach for about 30 mins >.< its just a over veiw

Sermon

- Esther chapter 9 and 10 are Possible Additions to the book, it is guessed that someone else wrote the last two but it is unclear.

-In Esther we see a huge turn in events starting out with the 13th day of Adar which this chapter is recorded on

- This day was the day that Haman

Excellent song brother, you have a very compassionate and loving heart for what you look around and see. Well said, we are all to be ministers of the gospel, it was Jesus that said the healthy don't need a physician. Thank you for sharing.

Thanks. I also posted it up cause some people dont see the compassion in it all... they dont seem to share the love to those who need it!

Thanks

My car broke down in Arizona,

Have to ride the bus again,

At ten-o-clock on Tuesday night,

With thirteen cents and a broken pen.

I put my backpack on the bench,

Tell two people I don't smoke,

See the cop across the street,

He thinks that I am selling dope,

I could have walked another block,

To get away from the scene.

Why does it always come to this,

Where zero meets fifteen?

And so I gave my thirteen cents,

To the man who peed his pants.

He passes out and falls on me,

I watch my change fall from his hand.

I see the lady next to me,

Holds her baby black blue.

The junkie gutter-punks keeps asking,

Where I got my new tattoo.

What does it matter anyway,

Thirteen cents or all I own?

How can I ever save the world,

On cup-o-soup and student loans?

I want to try and save the world,

But it never goes that way.

God I don't know what to do,

Down at Colfax and Broadway.

Now the man with no shoes on,

Says I don't know how to play.

He says I fumble all the time.

He thinks that I am John Elway.

I put my face down in my hands,

Water wells inside my eyes.

What do I have to give them?

Does it matter if I try?

I can't stand to see you suffer,

I try to intellectualize,

A formula to end you pain,

It doesn't work,

God knows I've tried.

Sometimes my cup is overfilled.

Sometimes I'm too afraid that I'm going to spill.

So i sit here and look at it, i am one of those people who seems to always! Have something go wrong to me and around me i have no idea how to react to any of it.. it just makes me Pray and feel for those who are lost and with out JEsus.

for me i always m being acused for selling drugs of some sort but i dont... always am explaining that and people judge me as they walk by me... But i live this life that Christ JEsus has called me too. i help out the homeless when i can even if it means not eating my self i give up so much in wonder HOW can i help people around when I cant really help my self.. I am a giver but i just want to know how can i help more but i know If they are unwilling to hear i cannot help... ALways ASKING GOD WHAT CAN I DO... to help and to be who he wants me to be so i am aplying for the rcmp haha in a way i can help its the national police force in Canada

I Cry for what its like out there people drunk hurting unloved and give nothing but hate back... a Nation a international countries a WORLD That lacks love... and we are meant to give the love and light to the world... But what stops us from doing that?

What holds us back?

is it Well other people are doing it so i am not going to?

sometimes we are empty and meant to trust God when we serve other times WE ARE too full and we may feel as if we will just loose it all...

LEts keep our Eyes upon Jesus Christ the author and perfector of our faith...

and reach a world that needs something more...

Even if they are mean to you ... turn the other cheek... If they dont wana hear then its their loss we tried. but we shouldnt give up...

What stops us from Doing what God commands us to do?

So sitting here i look around me, i drag my feet and it is hard to speed up i drag my feet and try to pull my self up unable to go on but I will seek after God. In school i am struggling i am Trying to get 6 assignments due but i have no creativity or even ability to get anything started i am falling behind and struggling in my mind i get angrey quickley and i am rarely around. i have no idea what to do.. i am just struggling to be with you God.

Bible college has blinded my ears to hear and my eyes impaired so i cannot see you here. Un aware to see you. i am fgalling down. and lacking faith.. i am tired burnt out broken and unsure what to do...

These studies and college are just a small passing in time for you, but it's what you do right now that will help to determine what you will be and show how much you love God and man! So make your choices wisely, as this very day is shaping your future. You may be fighting with evil spirits within you which tells me that you are not allowing God full occupancy to work within you. Don't treat God and HIS works as a task or a subject that you just have to pass with the best grade you can get out of it. Put your entire self into HIS works! Take time out during Spring Break to assess your love and devotion for God . Perhaps you may have someone who you may be able to help whom you are very close to right now at school or near hope. Someone who is worse off than yourself. If God is leading you toward this person to give assistance to, it might help you to take your mind off yourself , which is what God doesn't want us doing, and focusing on others, who need us more and is exactly what God wants us doing if we are able. I hope this helps and I will begin praying for you if I may?

Prayers

In God's love

Larry

thanks for the encouragment

I dont get a spring break it is a mission trip so it is a bit hard i am taking all my school work with me

So sitting here i look around me, i drag my feet and it is hard to speed up i drag my feet and try to pull my self up unable to go on but I will seek after God. In school i am struggling i am Trying to get 6 assignments due but i have no creativity or even ability to get anything started i am falling behind and struggling in my mind i get angrey quickley and i am rarely around. i have no idea what to do.. i am just struggling to be with you God.

Bible college has blinded my ears to hear and my eyes impaired so i cannot see you here. Un aware to see you. i am fgalling down. and lacking faith.. i am tired burnt out broken and unsure what to do...

-=hug-=

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Great points and thank you!

i just get encouraged by those who respond.. i dont know if thats shallow

your welcome

thanks,

It was for couple of months 6, ion ontario toronto, and then i jsut snuck in the house late at night i am 21 now. But i have changed completely. Still a fighter but on the otehr side.

Thanks that comment made sense. The people one.

and yea I have a otn of comments about it all, well about the John comment and that..

it is learning to go beyound our selves. and reaching to God and shaking off of our pain and the things that hinder us.

i have so many other things to write about but my fear of people what they think stops me but i know i have to reach out beyond it.

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

a Verse that hits me and hard, comming from a rougher background. a short time street kid who hated home did not know where i belonged at all. My struggles my self, my weakness, my laws these all are my "pit" or "hole" in this race that we run. my urge to fight comes and goes, my wanting to hate everyone and be a hermit is something that digs in me. But i Pray to God that none of it will be upon me! and sometimesi forget those times i struggle the most. That when i am not focused upon Jesus Christ the Author and perfector of my faith who died for my sins my shame he died out of love, another thing i am slowly learning. yet Jesus Stood RECKLESS ABANDONED in front of people who mocked him who hurled insults and stones curses upon this king who bled for them, He died for us. he did not conform to them saying something like "oo hey im gonna stop calling my self the Son of God, cause you are all gonna kill me" NO he stood firm he struggled with it but he trusted in What God called his Son to, Who died and rose again!

Jesus stood againt the times and people that said something diffrent about him about what he believed about WHO HE SAID HE WAS!

He went beyound that.

others who show this Reckless abandoned leaving their comforts to follow God, Moses, he did not want to speak but yet he went beyound that trusting in God going BACK to where he came from and saved God's people. he straddled two diffrent posts he stood firm in who God was. and followed God in his life.

Abraham a man who God used called him out of his home land to another one, not to return to. when he got to the new destination. he let Lot choose what land he wanted, NotAbe chooseing the best land for himself. being abandoned to his own wants and desires, letting others go before him. and aberam was used by god being set apart,

As we all are called to be this, being diffrent then what the world says.

Romans 12:2

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is

it is,,,,,,, i love my mom,... but not now... well lshouldnt say that but she abandoned me now... so it doesnt matter.

the point of the song was the good things that came from the bad..

thanks sisteR!

pretty much my super nintedo back in the day became a piggy bank iwas distrought.. 7 year old haha

yes a loli pop was in there

How did you manage that one, Bassplayer??

still unsure... but it is fixed

i have it all written down

yes a loli pop was in there

So! To go with my strange and yet random, topics!

I just had my computer in the shop to get fixed! Yay seems to happen every mid term point, but! This time was intresting, there was a sucker stick on the inside of my optical drive, And it got me thinking how many times in life we think there is somthing Great happening around us, that everything is going good. but inside our selves there is somthing that does not seem right. the "Succker" if you wish! haha

that to me i had one of these moments i was going seeming and thinking all is well. but on the inside i was caught up in the ways of the old rebellious me! so now i am challenged to seek God, and just keep focused upon him even though i have no understanding of that at times of who God is due to the fact i have been abandond and let down hurt. by people but taking that sticky messy stuff to God.. And laying it at the foot of the Cross

That also somtimes in our own lives we stick things in there uneeded and will just wreck us and just make us streay away from God,

sucker - lolipop

So i wont be around till my computer gets fixed up! BECAUSE It pooped out on me! so i will be back around tuesday the lateest not long but so you know i did not die or anything

Al...Always always and forever(x2)

Sitting here I'm thinkin' back

To the time when I was young

My memory's clear as day

I'd listen to the dishes clink

You were downstairs you would sing songs of praise

And all the times we laughed with you

And all the times that you stay true to us

Now we'll say

(Chorus)

Said I thank you

Will always thank you

More than you would know and more than I could ever show

And I love you will always love you

There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you

That you're beautiful forever

Al...Always always and forever

You were my mom you were my dad

The only thing I ever had was you

It's true

Even when the times got hard you were there to let us know

We'll make it through

You've shown me how to be a man

You taught me how to understand the things people do

You've shown me how to love my God

You told me that not everyone knows the truth

And I thank you

Will always thank you

More than you would know and more than I could ever show

And I love you

Will always love you

There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you

That you will live forever

Forever and ever(x2)

(Chorus)

That I thank you will always thank you

More than you would know and more than I could ever show

And I love you will always love you

There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you

That you will live forever

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So the tital was not supose to say this si my rant cause it is not!

Ok so i was sitting here listeing to this song by good charlotte always and forever and it is for their mom..

and this is somthing i struggle with my mom shes done all this things but yet i rember everything that has happend an i dont know what to say

And this is the step i am at...

i am making a video to this song for my mom and mailing it to her

YEa a little Bit but today tons of pain! I think i reopend it somewhere unsure! it stinks