Let me give you just a bit of background as to what led up to where I'm at today.
I had a good child-hood, raised middle class, my mom took me to church every Sunday. Went through Confirmation, but church attendance faded after that. I had always just assumed, as I was brought up to believe, that when we die we go to heaven, and that's that, unless you were a murderer or something horrific like that.
I have not lived a very Christian life, now that I look back on it. I was never in trouble or anything, but I did party alot. One thing that bothers me alot is, my high-school sweetheart got pregnant our Junior year, and, being young and scared, we had an abortion. I regret that very much.
I joined the Marines right out of high school. When you're not busting your butt, you go out and have a good time. I traveled all over the world. I was a machine-gunner in a combat unit. I served 8 months in Saudi/Kuwait during the Gulf War in 90-91. I am very proud to have served my country, and will always be a Marine at heart, but did things during that time that bother me.
I now have a wife and two great kids, ages 9 and 11. We are very happy together now, though we've been through some rough patches. We have been married almost 11 years. When we met however, she was still married to someone else. Her first marriage was going to end anyway, but I feel guilty as to how we came to be together. She became pregnant and we had our first child before we were married.
I recently read the whole "Left Behind" series. I loved the books, and they are what got me thinking about everything. I am trying to read at least a little bit in the Bible daily now.
Is it too late for me to be saved? This worries me alot.
Sorry this got so long, I didn't know where to start off. A lot of things I said here I haven't talked about with anyone else, but I want to be as honest as I can with everyone.
Steve