Without going into details for the past 7 years it seems I have had a number of sit backs and stressful issues happen to my life. I understand that nobody's life is perfect. That everyone at some point in their life will face bad times and pain. But I feel that what I have had to deal with over the past several years has been way too much. I seek God. I read his word and pray. I try to live a life that is pleasing to him. I ask him what it is he wants me to do. I have a strong desire to help others in need. This strong urging to show Christ to others by way of showing his love for them. By helping them however I can and through my help they see Christ because that is what Christ did and that is what he teaches us to do as his followers. To love and help our follow man. To me that is what it means to call myself a Christian. But how can I help others when I can not help myself? Why do I keep getting hit with so many life issues that it makes me want to just lay down and die? Am I Job? I feel like Job. What is it that God it trying to tell me? What does he want me to do?