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I have been beside myself for weeks! Im just gonna get straight to the point. When I was young around 13 I saw porn for the first time by accidentally stumbling upon a site I miss spelled (in all honesty). And the porn I saw was gay porn. I watched bits of it and sadly got facinated and even more sadly attracted to it even tho I still was attracted to girls. I had a horrible habit of it throughout the year but never did it with anyone bc I knew it was wrong anyway. But half way through last year I accepted christ as Lord through a youth retreat. Past then ive felt alot of guilt for my actions and continued on with my habit the follow weeks. It was just recent were ive been so down on myself for these acts and I broke out crying to the Lord asking for forgiveness and how poor of a representation I was. Its so hard to be a light for God kingdom when you are commiting sins like these wether its any sin (all sin is same in Gods eyes, except blasphemy of the holy spirit). But more recently I watched it again but wasnt gay porn. Im embarrassed to talk about this but really want answers to my questions especially from a place where multiple christians can answer. My questions are am I saved? Ive heard so much to God loves gays (he doesnt like the gay part) to u are going straight to hell if youve ever felt that way towards same gender. I want to be at rest with this bc the thought of being seperated from God scares me. And second How can I tell im saved if I am? I know its through the holy spirit and I hear him getting at me to pray and to ask for forgivness and tells me to do things like help others or points out certain people that I need to be nice to or pray for them. Its just im so so so scared of wondering if im saved or not based on all my horrible actions. Ik I have the holy spirit within me I am just worried and scared. I need %100 confirmation of these things. I want to be at rest and tired of battling myself. Plz help and pray for me. God bless you.