johny111 Posted February 3, 2018 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 10 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 29 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 8 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/11/2017 Status: Offline Share Posted February 3, 2018 Hello everybody, I am suffering from OCD magical thinking. I have intrusive, dreadful thoughts that something bad is going to happen to me or to other people. Also i suffer a bit from OCD scrupulosity. For example in last days i dont feel comfortable after listening to secular music. Today i was listening to some hip hop song and a thought jumped in my head (one of my typical OCD thoughts) that i will break my neck. I started being anxious. My sick way how to neutralize the anxiety is to do the compulsion, behavior or ritual. I said a mental compulsion. It can happen only on certain places and on other certain places it can not happen. And the rest of the world is according to Gods plan. Than I continue listening to music and i clicked on top 50 songs and the first was Gods plan. I started being anxious because i connected it to that situation that i can break neck. Now I am so afraid that this could be my destiny. Why would God do this to me? I have unwanted bad thoughts, but it is because of my medical condition called OCD. So should i by punished so badly? I think that i am good person. Could this be evidence that my destiny is going to be bad. I am so scared, anxious, please help me! Thank you all so much! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johny111 Posted February 3, 2018 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 10 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 29 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 8 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/11/2017 Status: Offline Author Share Posted February 3, 2018 My one more example from OCD scrupulosity. I refuse myself to watch pornography. Than i saw a movie were was an action, where people were doing sex. This also stressed me out a bit. I dont really know what to do. Is this really OCD scrupulosity and i am anxious unnecessarily or it is normal to be anxious from this. Please help me also with this. Thank you all so much! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 4, 2018 Share Posted February 4, 2018 9 hours ago, johny111 said: Hello everybody, I am suffering from OCD magical thinking. I have intrusive, dreadful thoughts that something bad is going to happen to me or to other people. Also i suffer a bit from OCD scrupulosity. For example in last days i dont feel comfortable after listening to secular music. Today i was listening to some hip hop song and a thought jumped in my head (one of my typical OCD thoughts) that i will break my neck. I started being anxious. My sick way how to neutralize the anxiety is to do the compulsion, behavior or ritual. I said a mental compulsion. It can happen only on certain places and on other certain places it can not happen. And the rest of the world is according to Gods plan. Than I continue listening to music and i clicked on top 50 songs and the first was Gods plan. I started being anxious because i connected it to that situation that i can break neck. Now I am so afraid that this could be my destiny. Why would God do this to me? I have unwanted bad thoughts, but it is because of my medical condition called OCD. So should i by punished so badly? I think that i am good person. Could this be evidence that my destiny is going to be bad. I am so scared, anxious, please help me! Thank you all so much! And there in lies your mistake, "I am a good person" You think. If you see yourself as a good person, how will you ever see the bad thing's you do? Is God punishing you, no, God does not punish as he once used to. There's a new convent that says He does not punish as we deserve. Why am I saying this, because God's punishment is not like the world's punishment. It is the world that is doing you this harm, mixing up your mind and throwing you in to confusion. You'd be well to take solitude, and rest, offering up prayer requests. Speak to no one what you say to God, and don't make a show of your faith. God will hear you in private and rescue you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johny111 Posted February 4, 2018 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 10 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 29 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 8 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/11/2017 Status: Offline Author Share Posted February 4, 2018 4 hours ago, wideawake said: And there in lies your mistake, "I am a good person" You think. If you see yourself as a good person, how will you ever see the bad thing's you do? Is God punishing you, no, God does not punish as he once used to. There's a new convent that says He does not punish as we deserve. Why am I saying this, because God's punishment is not like the world's punishment. It is the world that is doing you this harm, mixing up your mind and throwing you in to confusion. You'd be well to take solitude, and rest, offering up prayer requests. Speak to no one what you say to God, and don't make a show of your faith. God will hear you in private and rescue you. Thank you so much for your response! I have one more question for you. I said myself that so it means also in front of God that i wont watch pornography anymore. That day i was watching movie and there was a sex scene. Does it mean that i can not watch any movie with sex scene anymore? It makes me anxious a lot when i realize that i broke a commitment. How should i deal with this? Can i somehow withdraw what i have said? Thank you so much again! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 4, 2018 Share Posted February 4, 2018 3 minutes ago, johny111 said: Thank you so much for your response! I have one more question for you. I said myself that so it means also in front of God that i wont watch pornography anymore. That day i was watching movie and there was a sex scene. Does it mean that i can not watch any movie with sex scene anymore? It makes me anxious a lot when i realize that i broke a commitment. How should i deal with this? Can i somehow withdraw what i have said? Thank you so much again! You are born in this world with nothing, and nothing can you take out of it. Live for less material pleasure not more, since these thing's we acquire we'll have to one day say goodbye. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johny111 Posted February 4, 2018 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 10 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 29 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 8 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/11/2017 Status: Offline Author Share Posted February 4, 2018 8 minutes ago, wideawake said: You are born in this world with nothing, and nothing can you take out of it. Live for less material pleasure not more, since these thing's we acquire we'll have to one day say goodbye. Sorry i dont understand what have you written here. Can you please say it another way? English is not my main language. Thank you so much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 4, 2018 Share Posted February 4, 2018 2 minutes ago, johny111 said: Sorry i dont understand what have you written here. Can you please say it another way? English is not my main language. Thank you so much. There's so much that we don't actually need. Look at what is essential for a righteous life, then cut away the rest. The more possessions we have, the more we can become secure in what we own. If a movie cause's you to sin, cast it from you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johny111 Posted February 4, 2018 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 10 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 29 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 8 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/11/2017 Status: Offline Author Share Posted February 4, 2018 2 minutes ago, wideawake said: There's so much that we don't actually need. Look at what is essential for a righteous life, then cut away the rest. The more possessions we have, the more we can become secure in what we own. If a movie cause's you to sin, cast it from you. I will be honest with you. I am suffering from OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) and i have thoughts that something can happen to me or to other people because of my bad thoughts. For example i had a thought that if i read your response you will die. I said that is just a thought and continue in my work. Than i had a thought that i will break my neck if i write the sentence in certain way. I wrote it in that certain way. What do you think about this? I am visiting psychotherapy so i am working on my sickness. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 4, 2018 Share Posted February 4, 2018 1 minute ago, johny111 said: I will be honest with you. I am suffering from OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) and i have thoughts that something can happen to me or to other people because of my bad thoughts. For example i had a thought that if i read your response you will die. I said that is just a thought and continue in my work. Than i had a thought that i will break my neck if i write the sentence in certain way. I wrote it in that certain way. What do you think about this? I am visiting psychotherapy so i am working on my sickness. Friend, I wish I could leave tonight, to be with the Lord would be gain. But it is God who decides who lives and dies, not you nor I. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johny111 Posted February 4, 2018 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 10 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 29 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 8 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/11/2017 Status: Offline Author Share Posted February 4, 2018 2 hours ago, wideawake said: Friend, I wish I could leave tonight, to be with the Lord would be gain. But it is God who decides who lives and dies, not you nor I. Thank you for your opinions on my questions. God bless you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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