Lcevallos

What I know is that I will NEVER win any money on the lotto. About 3 years ago I would buy the scratches hopping to win $ 25,000.00 to go back to school. I never won the money. God provided in an other way. My job payed for everything and i graduated 2 years ago. Now when I am having money problems I always get a shift of overtime. I know God will provide for my family but by hard work only. LCevallos.

Since I also don't have a church I also do something different. MY mother lives in Brazil and is very involved with couples that are in Bible college. They normally had jobs and left everything to prepare to be pastors and missionaries. I send the money to my mother and she pays the tuition and buy what they need. Sometimes she feels that the responsibility to manage God's money is a lot but she does it with love. LCevallos

Wow, I wish I had the fire you have! Thank you all for the replies to my post. You have no idea how much it helped me. I would love to have a study group in my house but the few friends that I have work a lot. I don't know of anyone that would come. Also, like someone said isolation is not the answer. I would start going first only or the preaching and than gradually try to stay longer. Again, thanks so much. LCevallos

Well... if you are lonely ... why not try visiting other churches? You may find one that suits you fine and you like the services, etc. I think some folks don't like going to church because they aren't comfortable with other people - and that can be a problem. Do you have some friends that attend church? Maybe you can go with them. I don't like crowds and our church is fairly large, but I've found that the more I go, the better I feel... My heart sings at church. I hope you can find a church home where you feel happy and comfortable and able to Praise God. God Bless you! I did.

First of all, I hope this doesn't sound harsh. It's not meant to. Secondly, I considered replying privately, but there are others with the same sentiment as you. Let me ask 2 simple questions: 1. What do you not like about church? 2. How are you serving our King? - For my personality the worship time is too long and the preaching is too short. I miss the hims. - I listen to a lot of preaching in the net, i sing at home and in my car I give to God the money that belongs to him and I just love him sooo much that sometimes even at work i say aloud how much I love him. He is so good to me that I can't even start talking about it because i will never stop.

Please don't give me no lectures. I am looking for help. I finally had courage to confess that I actually hate to go to church. I never liked much. I am very close to God. I study the Bible, listen to sermons, praise God with hims but just don't know of any church where I would like to be. Since the pastor of the church where I was a member retired I can't find a HOME and I am lonely.

How about a doctor just out of school that owns $ 170,000.00 in student loans, comes from a poor family. If she renders his services for free will the community pay her loans? I actually work with a doctor and that is the amount of her debt.

If anyone knows about a church that have sermons in the internet and would post it I apreciate. Lori

Thank you so much for the support. I will ready every scripture wit time and meditation. I am OK today and praying to stay like that. Lori C

I agree I do not have a demoniac spirit. I do have the Holly Spirit in me and there is no space for any other. What I have is an illness that the Lord can cure. I will not stop asking for a cure until he does it. I do take meds what is the reason that I am able to keep a full time job. Most of the days I can't hardly finish my 12 hours shift as a nurse but by the grace of God I never have to leave early. Amen

I do not believe that depression is demoniac spirit. If the Holly Spirit lives in me there is no place for an other spirit. I am clean by the blood of Jesus. I am on medications and therapy. I had to slow down with the therapy for financial reasons and transference. As an RN I know that the problem is chemical and sadly chronic. Since God has cure so many physical illnesses what I am looking for is the devine cure of my mental condition and I will not stop until he does it.

Since I can't post in other boards I am using this one to maybe get some help. I suffer for major depression. Despite the fact that I ,thank God, am able to have a full time job it hits me hard when i am home. Most of the time I barely do some cleaning and quick cook for my son. I am a sincere born again christian but some times I wonder if since God promissed a peace that surpasses all understanding why don't I have it? Why do I become so anxious we events that other people will not think twice about it? Why my mood is so vulnerable? Do I really belong to the Lord or am I delirious? Lori