mari19

I should be scared of god?

Just pray and believe and ask but how do I know if it is true for sure? Sorry.

As I read the posts I see that you all seem to being going along the same lines with accepting Jesus/God. I get that you can pray to them and stuff although I am not sure who they listen to or when they listen. I mean if I were to just sit here and start talking now they would know? How would I know? Would I get an answer? I hope that I don't sound like I'm being skeptical, because at this point I have tried all I know to do, and if there are a few people out there that ask me to try something else I am willing to try it. I just guess I'm a little scared of jumping into something I don't really know about. I mean I have heard of Noah and Jonah and the big fish and stuff, but I don't know much about Jesus or God themselves or what the Bible says or why people really go to it. I want to know. I want to see if there is something there. There are certainly alot of people who follow all that. I am willing to try if it will help this huge hole. Sounds weird but thats what it feels like a huge giant hole. I have put lots of things in that hole and it's still there. I don't know. I accept that God is real. I think there is a God somewhere that watches over the world. I don't know why he would care about me when there is a huge world out there and lots of people who need help or are lonely. I am not anyone special and are not important to anyone here, let alone a god. I guess my question now is, what do I do now? I think God is real. Is that what I need to know? What about this whole church thing? Where do I go? There are like a million and one. How do I know what is good? I don't know. If I need to stop posting and bugging you all I can do that. Maybe I am asking too many weird questions. I don't know. Thanks for listening anyways. Mari

First I wanted to thank everyone for responding to me post. I certainly wasn't expecting that. I guess I just thought I would vent and no one would read it. I am glad though. Over the weekend I have been reading and rereading what you all have said and I find myself maybe a little more confused than when I started. One thing you guys said was "accept" God. I don't really understand about that. I guess I think God is real. I don't really have a reason to think he isn't I guess. But is that accepting? I get the feeling from reading what you guys said that it's not. I don't know what to think about it really. There was also alot said about praying. I guess I hae prayed before although I didn't really know to who. I don't know if anyone was listening or even cared. I guess I just did it. I am sort of confused and feeling a little dumb about all this. I really wish I could just figure it out on my own. I feel really awkward talking on here about it. Something is propelling me to type though. I don't know if it desperation, curiosity, or just plain being scared. Anyways, I think I have written enough so I will stop now. Thanks for anyone who is reading. Mari

I posted alot of "welcomes" to be able to post here. Someone said I have to have 10 posts before I can make one. Anyways, does anyone else ever feel like there is something missing? I mean I have a good job, and friends, but it feels like something is missing from my life. I cant seem to find the "key" no matter what I try. Ive tried EVERYTHING to fill the huge void but I cant figure out what it is. Is there something I need to be doing? Am I not living right? I feel like after being on this site for a few weeks, I feel like maybe, IM not living right. I do good things, Im not a bad person, I dont drink, party, or any of that stuff. I dont know, maybe this all sounds really weird to everyone else. Just thought I would put it out there. Thanks for listening. Mari