lykos

say your wrong and walk away? i've met very few people who know they're lost. i'm not bashing you or quistioning your intentions just confused

thanks but i wouldn't really call this a patch. i've been like this for years and i thought that if i was more positive it would help myself and others. i still try and be positive but i am just trying to be more open. i used to not because i was afraid of getting burned. but what more can they do?! and i was happy for times but pain always followed. i can overcome. adapt and survive, but now i have better tools. the positive with my freinds failed though. they quickly forgot how cold i was and how much of the dark i saw in the world. how much i knew. and treated me like i was a stupid little blind alter boy that apparantly didn't know anything about how dark or hard the real world was . these were the girls who always cried on my shoulder and told me everything that went wrong. they also "listened" while i told them. i told them about what i was going through and they said they saw the pain in my eyes. and a few weeks later they told me that i didn't know anything about pain or hardship. but all thats behind me now. and now i'm not afraid. not afraid of the dark. not afraid of pain not afraid of being let down. i think it's bad though how things that should be emotionally crippling just seem to bounce off though. you know what though it can't stop me. alot of people who i call freinds drew from my cold mentality "ideal soldier" some with good interest at heart and others not. i may be, i may not be. i won't just be a faceless little soldier boy waiting for a war that never comes. i'm going to do whatever i can to do good in my life. the strength these years of hardship brought strength and wisdom and while i may not have been as succesfull as i like with the ppl i tried to help i am determined to find a place where i can be. Only those you love can draw true blood. In that essance i died, i want to come back with god. i hope this all makes sense but if it doesen't just let me know. any advice.

thanks. i know god loves me and i hold that love close to my heart, my thanking god wasen't cynicism btw it was me literally thanking him

thanks thats a touching piece of advice.

thanks. i just never saw a way out to be honest i never thought i was alone though. i may not be alone but i don't trust MOST of the ppl i know. there are those i do trust still and i think it's important to hold onto that. i will let him guide me and i realize he we work towards the same goal thats the way i want it to be. this has been interesting advice.

hey uhm alot of things have gone down in my life and i don't really feel much of anything anymore. like i literally can't cry. i can still enjoy some poetry and i am still sensitive towards emotion but i don't really feel much else other than pain. essentially the people i know have been burning me away and there really isn't anything left to burn. which is a nice little blessing in disguise (thanks god!). so i know he's still looking out for me but and i know he doesen't want me to live this way but i'm not sure how to rebuild and i want to build my self back up closer to god. any advice?

Everyone has there own opinion . . . . . . or lack of one lol don't worry ive been there

i can see that now!

oh okay then i am used to the FIERCE moderators

i am used to the hardcore forums where you get banned if you are off topic

yes he is my savior yes i was baptized back to the subject at hand

again my personal forum but i really do appreciate it (Thank you all i see that you are all trying to help) but this isn't the topic of the forum

I believe in god and what is good and right. I try and keep an open mind so i won't exactly jump to anyones side. I do support Christianity and i do believe that Jesus Christ is the son of god. i'm sorry i'm not exactly descriptive but i was never good at forums and btw i don't think this is the right one to do this on, i only brought up biting and my nickname because i thought it was related. I don't quite see how this is related but i do thank you for your concern, i mad a welcome thread if you would like to use that to talk about me otherwise let's stay on the subject at hand. i will be more than happy to talk to you outside of the message boards. email is good and so is im'ing i have yahoo.

Jesus loves you and wants to bring you to the light. But what you are doing is wrong. Is that better? Committed Christians don't ignore or condone wrong behavior, but confront evil where ever it appears and through whomever it manifests itself. The problem with most of the "Church" is that they don't want to offend anyone or make anyone uncomfortable. That is not what Christ would have us do. oh okay that helps. seriously thanks. Btw i am telling you what other ppl have said to me about why they don't believe in god. and why they hate Christianity as a whole. they felt ridiculed. just sharing btw, when they came to preacher they were almost at the point of tears already and i guess he didn't handle it well because she STOPPED going to church. She felt bad like no one cared and ppl everyone hated her for who she was. trying to be helpfull btw

I am not even sure what to say to this. Are you a Christian? ok yeah i want to know this as well and also is that why you chose your username? a take off of lycans perhaps? wow i am praying for you it was an old nickname me and my friends came up with, it was just a character from one of our stories, all the "lycan" stuff is just in good humor. hope this helps, again we all like to write so we bounce ideas off each other.

interesting points all of you. By the way the whole "this wrong absolutely" with things like biting tends hurt an already vulnerable person. Like it makes YOU the enemy in their eyes, they see the light as corrupted and the damage is almost always irreversible. I'm not saying you all are evil i'm just hoping to help and letting you know that yes sometimes things do go awry and making a vulnerable child shut out a part of themselves when they are already broken basically destroys what faith they did have in you. Not only in you but also in god. These are not theories but things that i have seen. The children often think now that NO ONE not even god loves them. They think that something is wrong with them and that no one can fix it. I am really not trying to bash you all just saying what people tell me with tear filled eyes. I don't think i can ever help them enough and i don't know how to get them to let god do it. It makes me sad and i came her to find it if i ever will be able to. Btw i don't particularly like vampires but i do like biting (both ways). Not so sure about blood. Uhm i earned the nickname "Wolfy" cause i have A) sharp teeth B) Get emotional on full moons C) am rather canine like D) my eyes change color E) i love being pet like a doggy ^.^. I hope i can help! Again people who turn to darkness are lost not damned, i have seen alot of Christians forget that with disastrous results. Best of luck all of you!

wow riots, you know at first glance the third picture looks like the L.A. riots. maybe they should redo the election