givingittogod

I try not to like judge or hate nobodies, cause I don't like it when it's done to me at all. I tried to witness to a lesbian friend of mine - she really chewed me out now I'm afraid of the lesbians, but I'm determined to love her! (I didn't like preach a slew hardly I didn't say much at all - she just knows me as a christian blogger and was sure I was about to preach to her a ridiculous slew ------- I don't know really if that was what I was going to do -------- I think I was just trying to open a line of communication and the phone was violently hanged up on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm afraid of lesbians now for reals! what if that's how they all are like?) But anyways I prefer it when people love me, if you ever going to reach the sinner ya got to love em! If you don't love em, your just pushing them farther away into sin SATAN land (I speak from personal experience, much personal experience). But even if I'm hated by all I gotta stop.........................................it's no good. No good for me. I get lonely and there's the devil, no christians, no, no christians, the devil. None the christians around me want to have much to do with me, I try, I have 2 christians right now I'm e-mailing daily, I might get a reply back from them every 5-10 e-mails later.........which is some response...............but it hasn't been the love I need to really make some kind of difference. But I just gotta stop myself, it's getting hard, really battling lately. Jesus is christ, for sure. Love people people, love em. You don't love em, you won't reach em. You don't reach them the DEVIL will.

-------------------------------- well right now I go to 2 churches and have the best of both worlds, but my pick would be the "holier than thou attitude" cause my aunts church is the apostolic christian church of america ---------- it's fun to e-mail their pastors stuffs uhhhhhhhh out of the box. (yank their chains around I do basically) Sucks to be the pastors of the apostolic christian church of america hahahahahahahahahah Yank yank hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

is it like a good idea to do a good deed even if I don't want to, just to like look good in heaven and make god happy????? (should I only do good works if my hearts 100% in it I'm asking, cause I have a do gooder christian friend who I currently do much believe very well might be being nice to me just to like do good for reals! ------------- sometime's if your heart ain't in a good deed 100% it ends up not being a good work ---------------- being "nice" to me for the sake of "doing good" isn't the same as really being my friend I'm just not picking up that friend vibe from this christian """""friend"""""" of mine someone once told me never to make friends at church it never goes well it's not went well for me the past few years that for 100% sure-------- I'm not sure that doing works just to do them is the bestest idea, but then again I feel like I should always be doing something - just what????????????) Course I'm not currently having much luck outside of church making friends either but I don't get out much so, no babysitters, trapped at home for the most part (I dragon boat ------- I literally heard some girls talking about me on the team ------- that's all I'll say about that YIKES) 1 Corinthians 3:13-16: "Every man's work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man's work of what sort it is. If any man's work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward. If any man's work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire. Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?" Also there are people in my family that like aren't doing good works like at all that I know of - like I'm like the only do gooder that I know of in my family besides my big sis ------- I think my family is really thinking they just going to be "saved; yet so as by fire" But like don't some of everyone's works have to stand, doesn't everyone in heaven need some good works.........for wedding garments so we all have to do up some good works real good right??????????????????? Matthew 22:12-13 "And he saith unto him, Friend, how camest thou in hither not having a wedding garment? And he was speechless. Then said the king to the servants, Bind him hand and foot, and take him away, and cast him into outer darkness, there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth." Revelation 16:15 "Behold, I come as a thief. Blessed is he that watcheth, and keepeth his garments, lest he walk naked, and they see his shame." I'll pry like teaching art this year, I do like the kids, I'm not getting paid for it and it is a lot of work, think as I get old I'm wanting to --------- get lazy YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!! pray that god will send me some real christian friends, the real kind that be friends with me for reals not just to "do good" as a "do good" project............real friends that won't put : o ) at the end of every e-mail (this christian ""friend"""" of mine putting : 0 ) with every e-mail...............clown faces people are a bad idea!!!!!!!!!!! I get to thinkin well she clearly doesn't think much of my friendship it's all joke time - that's what I kinda believe, all those clown faces later ----------- I don't get the clown face, if you end the entire e-mail with a clown face what you telling me????????????????????????? What is this christian """"""friend"""""""" of mine telling me with all these clown faces???????????????? My husband says she pry just thinks it's real cool and means nothing by it, I don't know, the friendship was pry doomed from the get go I have little in common with her -------- that's my #1 prob. I'm to odd weird and out there, with like some people on this earth I get cool kid kudos for this, but I've made things real hard for myself by being so different ----------------- I need to try to go get my nails done like all the rest of the women on this earth, I need to try to love shopping somehow???????????????????? (I'm liike a guy I hate HATE shopping oh it's so tiring what's the point??????????????????) ----------- tonight I clipped dead roses, for a dead rose arrangement (that's weird myself, weird time, your supposed to be running to the store right now to spend $20 for fresh flowers myself that's normal, not making pretty dead rose arrangements that's not normal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) So hard for me to fit the goody goody mold ------------ I don't want to I don't want to be like my goody goody christian friend so uh I guess her fake friendship is the best she can give me, being that she is goody goody and I am practically a member of the Adams Family : ) My christian """""""""friend""""""""""" surely wouldn't ever have dead flowers in her house NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Where are the christian FREAKS any FREAKS out there, I mean incense burning, drum circle attending FREAKS anybody?????????????????????? I can't be normal I just can't do it for the life of me. Have a great do gooding week everyone : )

I watch Dr. Who been suckered into it. My husband the original fan, got my 10 year old addicted to it, so now the .......show is on in our house every single day! Well at least Dr. who isn't such a "friends with the world" sort of tv show! Worry the most when your a fan of Wendy Williams talk show ------------ somedays I worry about my soul over that...............what the heck that I would ever watch wendy william's show and enjoy that stuffs????????????? You'd be better off without the Dr. Who god is a jealous god, the more time we give Him the happier He for sure is! These days I'm actually liking the christian shows some them more.........last night I watched the 700 club, it was 500 billion times better then regular tv news, so upbeat.........somedays I'll watch regular news and be entirelly bogged down! I don't think I like really want to hear about the bad going on somedays............somedays I very much just want to hear about people seeing angels and etc. etc. of good stuffs : ) Do you have one those Dalek cat attacking robots, they look so cool? Hope that helped somehow??????????????

I felt that way once (well who I kidding I've felt that way often) I shot up a prayer for you! ((last time I got that way was the worst, I started talking like the devil to christians everywhere ------- it was so bad I feel bad about it to this day)

It's totally not just you, things are so diminishing.....but I think a lot of churches are doing better these days, or the ones who I attend/listen to sermons online of are : ) so there is some upswing in all the downswing : )

I definately believe that "we" (not me though) created this modern day babel ourselves. I believe most people like to be to buisy or appear to buisy to be reached - it's their plan it is their plot - I had a friend if you could call her that she claims she was my friend - she told me she only talked to saroj once a week cause that was all she had time to do in a week as far as talking to a friend goes ------- telling me that she was just to buisy. This modern day babel is very on purpose. People are off buisying themselves in 500 directions but you can be sure it's the 500 directions they choose. And me I'm outside of it ------------- though I'm not a senior citizen I live like one : ) I sit outside with my chickens just about daily ----------- well and I play my electric guitar which I'll cop is absolutely not senior citizen stuffs especially not the way I play. All the rush and hub bub might get the fast kids lots of friends - but man that all seems exhausting. And people don't want to work together, dog eat dog world like snoop dog said. But then there always is that top dog outside it all : ) bow bow bow yippieo yippy yea : )

I'm married to a liberal.........a self described bleeding heart liberal. (he tells me all the time he loves me, and i believe him, but me and my husband have 0 in common) and he is a self described "agnostic" his liberal heart it's buisy bleeding good! He'll go on and on and on every single day of my life about topics that are of 0 interest to me, he listens to talk radio all day long every day like his life depends on it! He's in the kitchen right now, doing dishes while listening to talk radio - the stuff must make his life all complete? As does all the latest tv shows and movies such is what I'm left guessing????????? (I no watch tv, yet he's always telling me about shows, I think it's his way to try and draw me closer to the world and the fluff it offers) If you all want to be "progressive" don't blame the liberals....................last I checked not many liberals is preachers! If they were I'd be walking up after church and whacking many of them!!! (and my husbands heart bleeds for some STUPID stuffs by the way!!!!!!!!!!!! at least compared to his salvation which he's completely just about neglected -------- he does go with me to church every sunday --------- but that's it for my husband he no reading the bible during the week or praying never, he told me he only has prayed 2-3 times in his life, he no have the holy spirit either ---------- it's like he believes his liberalism will save his soul for reals!) I wouldn't recommend marrying liberals, especially not the bleeding heart ones - not a good idea! I love my husband, but he needs his #@$@#$ kicked!!!!!!!!!!!!!