AndyM

Dear friends, thank you all so much for the responses. I know that ministry is not about titles or positions and that we are to serve God and others in whatever position He places us. Coming into this new season has made me aware of a number of things hidden within me which the Lord is using this season to deal with. I see now that I have a major problem in submitting to people younger than me and I know that this is linked to pride as well. Praise God He has started dealing with these things already and I thank Him for bringing me to this point where I can see these things and not be blinded any more. Now I welcome the fire, although its painful, I want to be purified and prepared for the exciting and awesome plans that the Lord has for the future. God bless all of you.

A year and a half ago I was running a ministry, now the Lord has taken me into a season where I am at the bottom again. I have to submit to people who are younger than me and possibly have less experience. This must the most difficult time I have ever been through! This afternoon I allowed me mind and flesh to rule and I ended up feeling sorry for myself and eventually sinned in my mind. I felt anger and frustration and allowed myself to feel hard done by and I questioned what I was doing here. I feel like I have gone back to step one in this season and its so frustrating! I do know that the Lord needs me to learn total submission so that I can move forward. I feel like I'm suffering 3rd degree burns here . Oh man, I need prayer!!!

It suddenly hit me today that most of my life I have been controlled by my flesh and my mind. Even after walking with the Lord for almost 2 years its almost shocking for me to grasp this revelation that unless my flesh and mind submit to my spirit under the authority of the Holy Spirit, I will have a mediocre walk at best. I want to experience the dunomos, the power of God working in me and through me and as I re commit myself right now, I know I'm never going to be the same again. Praise God!

Question: In Acts 13 Barnabas and Saul are sent off on mission work and at the end of verse 5 it says that John was with them as their helper. Does anyone know if this John is the same John who walked with the Lord and wrote John's gospel and other books?