Your comment reminds me of myself when I was a new Christian. I was learning new discoveries about my new love Jesus and wanting to share with others. All was fine in my heart prior to sharing, I was on a spiritual high, but as soon as I shared, even with a good Christian friend, I would "hear" these condemning words "Nobody wants to hear what you have to say." Once my story was out of my mouth, I would sense these words, and feel horrible and depressed. After it happened a few times I concluded it was the evil one trying to stop up my witness. I persevered and kept sharing with others and eventually the bad feelings decreased to where I seldom notice them anymore. Maybe I'm just choosing to ignore them. There have been other deceptions the evil one has tried to pull over the years. God doesn't stop the evil one from messing with us. That is something I was unaware of as I was learning about God and Jesus. I thought I was immune to the evil one's devises. Not true. However, a very wise Christian friend told me to seek God's protection from nightmares. I thought the dreams couldn't be of an evil origin since I was saved, but whether they were or not, once I asked God to remove the nightmares nearly all of them ceased to plague me. Your not believing you are a child of God but rather an orphan or bastard may very well be one of the evil one's biggest battles at the moment. He never got me to doubt my salvation. He tried. One of those nightmares he said to me "You thought you had it all figured out and you were wrong." Well, that was not a very pleasant message to receive, but I knew it was not Jesus speaking. It made me love my Lord even more! I remember waking up and praying to Jesus that I was so grateful I knew the truth about Him and His love for me. So, don't buy into any nonsense the devil is feeding you. Know the truth so well that when a lie crosses your path you instantly know it and reject it.
Your comment reminds me of myself when I was a new Christian. I was learning new discoveries about my new love Jesus and wanting to share with others. All was fine in my heart prior to sharing, I was on a spiritual high, but as soon as I shared, even with a good Christian friend, I would "hear" these condemning words "Nobody wants to hear what you have to say." Once my story was out of my mouth, I would sense these words, and feel horrible and depressed. After it happened a few times I concluded it was the evil one trying to stop up my witness. I persevered and kept sharing with others and eventually the bad feelings decreased to where I seldom notice them anymore. Maybe I'm just choosing to ignore them. There have been other deceptions the evil one has tried to pull over the years. God doesn't stop the evil one from messing with us. That is something I was unaware of as I was learning about God and Jesus. I thought I was immune to the evil one's devises. Not true. However, a very wise Christian friend told me to seek God's protection from nightmares. I thought the dreams couldn't be of an evil origin since I was saved, but whether they were or not, once I asked God to remove the nightmares nearly all of them ceased to plague me. Your not believing you are a child of God but rather an orphan or bastard may very well be one of the evil one's biggest battles at the moment. He never got me to doubt my salvation. He tried. One of those nightmares he said to me "You thought you had it all figured out and you were wrong." Well, that was not a very pleasant message to receive, but I knew it was not Jesus speaking. It made me love my Lord even more! I remember waking up and praying to Jesus that I was so grateful I knew the truth about Him and His love for me. So, don't buy into any nonsense the devil is feeding you. Know the truth so well that when a lie crosses your path you instantly know it and reject it.