I was doing good in church and I slowly slipped out. I've been thinking a lot about Jesus lately, to tell you the truth I never stopped. I just feel like a huge disappointment, and if I did get back into church then I would just disappoint again. I suffer from near crippling social anxiety, its horrible I'm to the point where all I want to do is sleep stay home and go to work. I can't even stand to have people over to my house, its so bad my sister moved here a couple weeks ago and she started wanting to come over to my house during the week I stressed out so bad over it I actually broke out in shingles. I stopped going to my church on more than one occasion all because when the pastor wife was in the pulpit she said in front of the church lets welcome back Brother "Cpanthers786". I would like to think God has a purpose for me matter of fact I wish he does. I just don't know how im supposed to serve him when i can barley speak to a stranger. I know through God all things are possible, im no fool I know this. Im lost and im hurting so bad right now it isint funny. Please pray for me please.