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I joined in hopes of connecting with others who may share similar struggles (or came through them) and are developing a "quiet and gentle spirit." (I Peter 3:4)

Recently I have taken some bold steps to change my situation. It is scary at times, but I strongly feel that God is directing my steps. Leaving my job and separating from my husband was a bit like stepping off the edge of the cliff and waiting for God to provide the bridge underneath me. I can't see the end of the bridge, but step by step I have to cross out in faith. Psalm 119:105: "Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path." I remember my pastor emphasizing that a lamp only shows a few feet ahead at a time, though most of us want a search light that sees miles ahead!

Everyone that knows me and cares for me (Christian friends and my family) are proud of the strength it took to make these difficult decisions. Now that I am out of an unhealthy situation, it is like a whole new vista of growth has opened up in front of me. I went to my brother's church up here the first Sunday after I made the decision to move. As the pastor taught from Proverbs 3, it suddenly hit me: I have the WHOLE BIBLE to study! For so long I have been reading James 1, 1 Peter and Romans 8 over and over again just to hang on and survive. Now I can take a deep breath and look for all of the other ways God wants me to grow. It is daunting and exciting at the same time. Whatever happens in the next year, or thereafter, I will do what God asks me to do, but I no longer believe that it has to be staying in an unhealthy marriage. As my father said, "God doesn't want any of His children to have to live like that." If my earthly Daddy wouldn't ask me to do that, how much more so my Heavenly (Abba!) Father? He knows what the future holds and still holds my husband's mental health and spiritual wellbeing in His hand as well.

I have a webpage that I hope could be of use to others dealing with similar issues. I think many women face the same challenges and perhaps my writing can be of encouragement. (Or at least, learn from this soldier's field mines: "Don't go this way boys!")

It is: lifeanalogies.com (no http or www)