Hello all and hope you are doing well today. I found this site while in the search of trying to find others to talk with about what was going on my life. I have been a Christian for many years and did stray away for some time but found my way back about 6 years ago. Have experienced many ups and downs over the years which is normal. But lately things have been so hard and I am going through the hardest time ever in my life. I pray and pray, study and read but nothing is getting better. I do believe that I can do all things through him that gives me strength and that he is always there, even closer when you are going through times of trouble. But times are so hard right now and praying for strength and guidance, but seems like my world is falling apart piece by piece. Every time something good happens it is withing just a few hours that something bad happens and it is not just one thing it is many. Whenever one good thing happens it is like three bad things happen and it is tearing me down. I feel so broken, so empty inside like life is just crushing me. I have spoken to my pastor (who is now on mission trip for next two weeks) and felt better after leaving just to wake up the next morning to crushing news. I just dont know what to do, or say and came here trying to find others to talk too. Sorry for going on but it feels like im out of options and just dont know what to do. Open to any input and hope you have a good day.