I’ve been reading the Bible for like 5-10 years. There are moments in the day where I think all that reading has payed off, but there are also times in the day where it was all in vain. I don’t want to like “fake it” and like fake believe the Bible is working for me when it isn’t. I don’t get why it wouldn’t be working on me though. I keep trying to think that since the word is “alive and active” and his word “won’t return void” that it is so powerful, that even if I do the bare minimum (just reading it, like not studying it or meditating on it, just reading it) it would HAVE to work. But then again a lot of preachers say that some people have rejected the word and therefore the only thing hearing the Word CAN do, is fully harden their hearts so it’s better off to just avoid the word all together, because hearing it over and over again will increase their responsibility (they who knew Gods will, but did it not, will be beaten with MANY stripes)and to whom much is given, much more will be required. I just worry that might be me. Maybe im deceived and given over to a reprobate mind, and don’t even know it. Maybe I’m better off staying away from the Bible, because if I did have a hardened heart, it would be dangerous to keep on reading it, and just let it keep increasing what I will be responsible for on judgment day. So yeah I’m really double minded on this. What should I do?