Dilaralara

I want to run away once I finish high school but I don't know how and I'm so scared. I don't have any money, I financially depend on my father. I want to get a part-time job and save money till I'm done with high school but my father doesn't let me and threatens me. And I don't know how to run away with no money. Simply moving out is not an option for me, I have to go to another country cause if I stay in this country, he will %100 find me, drag me home and imprison me. I also want to live in a Christian country. I'm so sick of being surrounded by intolerant muslims and not being able to go to church. I want to run away cause they don't accept me as I am. I am a Christian and they're super conservative, strict, narrow-minded muslims with sick brains and thoughts. I don't support the political party they support. I haven't told these things openly to them but they probably know it. They ask me if I'm going to vote for that party they support and I either don't say anything or change the subject. They've found my Bible once. They yelled at me and grounded me and threw it in the bin. My father checks my browser history- I'm not allowed to delete it- sometimes I do delete certain websites like Christian websites but one time I forgot to, and he saw those websites, Christian forums, audio Bible etc and he got so angry and took my phone away. He abuses me mentally, verbally, emotionally every single day. He controls me. I'm turning 18 in 2 months and still he tells me what to do, where to go, what to wear, what to eat, who to hang out with, when to go to sleep etc. I'm tired of them controlling me. Living with them makes me suicidal. I feel like a criminal under watch all the time. Unfortunately, reporting him to the appropriate authorities is not an option either, because seriously no one cares. I'm from Turkey by the way. Like girls are getting raped and nothing is done about it. Who cares if a Christian girl is being mentally tortured by her parents? She's a Christian so she deserves it, right? Sadly, many people working in the government think so. I don't know what to do. I have this friend I've known for about 5 years, she's my best friend. I completely trust her. She's Romanian and lives in Romania. She says you can come here, get a scholarship from a university, find a job. But I'm scared. What if I can't get a scholarship? How am I going to pay for my education then? How am I going to apply for scholarships, a passport etc when my father is watching me like a hawk all the time? I need money but how do I make money when I'm not allowed to work? I don't know what to do. I'm hopeless, I'm desperate. I'm considering to take my own life if I can't run away cause I seriously can't take it anymore.