Cogito...what?

Greetings all, I am attempting to reach out to others for meaningful dialogue. I have been a struggling Christian since 1981. Not to put my worst foot forward but honesty is always the best policy. I consider myself a Christian Philosopher, amateur of course, but passionate. I have been influenced by many denominations.   Started out Nazarene, with Seventh Day influence. then to more esoteric branches of Wesleyan belief. Then to the Door movement from Prescott AZ. On to historic Calvinism, the basic tenants of which I currently hold to. I examine all beliefs I come in contact with. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. My mind is racing. 

Part of the reason I am here is because I have no one to talk to. I need a Philo friend, who wants to "do life together". Talk about things real. All I see around me is shallow opining, and empty activism. I want to feel good and right to, but life is short. It has been said that "The unexamined life is not worth living". Which makes me ask, how far can natural law take us into the truth?  Well, I should have said natural reason, but I think I see the two definitions (at least as I currently hold them) as so closely related, I use them synonymously.