Jabre7

Some people seem to worship the God of another reality, if you catch my drift, one where certain things that are bad and destructive here are good, where often even abuse is tolerable and even righteous if it's "done Biblically", of course they never call it abuse. And some others seem to worship a God who's basically a tantrum throwing toddler, who has everything be arbitrary and if he doesn't get his way, how he feels it at the moment, he goes full Hulk on whoever questions him and his cultic teachings on Judgement Day. I'm sure most of you, especially those who have been in cults, work based or otherwise, know what I'm talking about...but why are there so many groups like this?

I've noticed something important, something my Bible teacher actually pointed out when it comes to vows according to the Bible: In every case of a vow, it's implied there's someone to confirm it was made, and the oath is specifically spoken verbally. None of my oaths for a long time have been spoken, and in the very rare cases among those I told someone about it, I was scared of it being binding and asking if it was, not confirming that I was even completely sure I was bound to it. Besides, every spoken oath when it comes to abstaining from something has been OCD induced, and almost certainly not binding regardless since I'm not in my right mind when making them. Also there's all the countless OCD "oaths" that were only in thought, which according to the biblical definition, wouldn't count. The spoken ones from long ago still worry me a bit, but I'm very much relieved knowing my foolish thought processes don't restrain me.

I also in my foolish compulsions ask God to bind me if I fail...I hope since it's from compulsions and not entirely under my control He won't honor this

I mean I compulsively, in my OCD fueled madness, make oaths in my head like"if I don't manage to do this, I'll never play video games again!" It's almost always video games for some reason, either that or some other thing I'm scared I'll make an oath for or am about to enjoy. The urge suddenly comes and it's very strong, often times I can't stop it from playing out in my head...I could at least resist it instead of giving in because my mind suggests some stupid challenge to go with it, so I'm scared I may be bound to these...I try and try to repent of making these, but it always happens again

I have religious OCD, sure, and I often try to resist these...people say God knows your heart to people who don't want these, don't want to end up making them...but that's the thing, God DOES know my heart, see my thoughts and their intentions...and He sees that even if I don't want to end up binding myself to pointless restrictions, when the compulsions come, I often agree to some ridiculous challenge and/or meaningless restrictions because it scratches that itch my brain forces on me... it's like I become a different person, going from one who realizes the danger of oaths and why they're sinful for us in the New Covenat, to an adrenaline junkie who will gamble on everything no matter what the consequences may be if he fails...when I fail I immediately mourn that I've failed Jesus's command not to bind yourself under this, and that I may have permanently lost the right to do something I had no reason to stop...but like 5 minutes later I do it again. Sure, all of this is only ever in thought, I never would risk binding for sure myself in word, but my point still stands...could this all just be compulsions and not binding even if it's disrespectful to give in, or am I just so foolishly impulsive I truly don't care about consequences for things like this?

thank you, i might return once i fix the mess that is my spiritual life

All ive ever done here is suggest blasphemous ideas to sate my lust for all these "god killing" or "demon killing" series, even offering a "christian version" idea, or ask if its ok to play something that's clearly not good for anyone spiritually. I'm probably the most unWorthy person ever to be on this site. I have no place here. So i'm banishing myself from all online Christian communities, i do the same stuff there. No ask for help i ever do is truly sincere. Go ahead and ban me already.

I know, everyone says "follow your conscience in such matters", but i feel like my Conscience can't speak, that i can't really tell right from wrong by myself, which is why i need someone to tell me what's right, either other believers or my conscience "wakes up" momentarily in moments of extreme burden over the consequences of something wrong i already did. Okay, so the Digital Devil Saga(also called Avatar Tuner) series(there's only 2 games) is one of my favorite video game series. I'm not sure if a Christian should really be playing this though, because it has heavy Hindu/Bhuddist themes, and enemies/bosses include all sorts of mythological creatures and even gods, end game bosses in them being almost exclusively Hindu gods. There's also the Biblical Archangels as bosses in 2. I know with the exception of the Archangels, it's all stuff from other religions and stuff, but there are Bible verses that seem to say, maybe i'm not reading the context right, to stay far away from anything to do with other religions, even if you know its false. This series caused HUGE backlash from Hindus BTW, not that it's important, just wanted to bring it up.

i was going to make a fantasy/scifi roleplay with Christian themes. I was going to have it almost be an actual RPG people could play, with the major villians being bosses. a recurring one was going to be Xenu from Scientology. Yes, many of the villians were going to be mythical gods and demons and whatnot. I was going to use these figures, especially Xenu, to expose what these cults/ faiths truly beleive and where they came from. I even have the final villian/boss and penultimate enemy planned, turn away now if you don't want them spoiled:------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tthe final villian and "boss" was going to be Sophia, the supreme and original godess of Gnosticism. Unlike the others, this one is supposed to actully be the deity, or at least the actual demon behind her, where all the other "gods" are in fact avatars people take based off said deity/demon. The penultimate one would be GAOTU, the Masonic God, who would then transform into his "true form", Baphomet. Would this all be sinful?

i have a mobile game called Shin Megami Tensei Dx2. Basically it's a game where you collect characters to fight for you, and like most gacha style games, it has a summoning system where you can recruit a random character by using in game currency. I did this....and got Baphomet(if you don't know who he is, follow this link:https://youtu.be/iLRBziDjkaQ). he even looks almost exactly like the occult depictions of him. I'm scared. The game doesn't let you discard party members as far as i know, so i'm considering just deleting the game, or fusing him away(games like this also have a system where you can give up 2 party members to get a stronger one). As a Christian i want nothing to do with occult beings, even if it's just a video game and it's not the real demon or whatever. Should i delete the game? The game also has all sorts of pagan gods, and super vile ones like Egyptian and Mayan gods too, as well as other mythological beings and spirits. It even has the 4 horsemen of the apocalypse, and the archangels from the Bible. should i delete this game?