e3I know how you feel. It seems every step forward I take leads me two step back.
sometimes I just want to say forget it. I'm to tired to go on, to fight this world anymore. Theres times when fighting seems an endless battle and then just when I think that this world has won and that I give up I remeber our Lord and what he did for me and you on that cross. I remember his words as he spoke to his disciples "The servant is not above the master. If they prosecute me they'll prosecute you." I understand that to mean that I will not only be attacked by humans for believing and walking with Jesus Christ, but that Satan himself will try his best to destory everything in my life especially my state of mind. Jesus said Through him we are free. Isaiah 40-10 "Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." You may not feel him around you, but your Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will never ever leave you.
What I do when I feel discouraged and alone is take a deep breath, close my eyes and think of nothing, but Jesus. I thank him for everything that I'm going through because I know if I was sailing through life it means that this world excepts me and that I am not of him. I thank him, because I know that everything that I am going through right now Satan intents to use for my destruction, but Jesus is going to use it to move me to the next step in my walk with him. Please don't believe Satan's lies. His plan is for you to give up. He wants you to forget that he's already lost. He knows that his time is almost up. This is a verse from a song that I've heard a few times. "He never said that the cross will not get heavy or the hill hard to climb. He never said that you wouldn't have to fight, he said help will always come in time so just hold on the Lord will show up and get you through the fire in time."
Once you became his child your fight is no longer your, but his. Let him fight it.
God Bless