Ice:
I dated my ex-girlfriend for about 5-6 months and after we broke up I told her I didn't want to see her anymore. It wasn't because I hated her, it was because being with her reminded me too much of what we had. That relationship moved way too quick too. A quote from a movie comes to mind when I think of that experience.
"A clean break is easier. You can reset it... and it heals, and you move on. But if you leave things messy
or things don't get put right... then it just hurts. Forever." -Litlle Black Book (2004)
This was so true, because the way we broke up was very complicated too. And that experience festered in my heart for a very long time, but not forever. You may not believe this but there will be a morning that you will wake up and it won't hurt anymore. Something to keep in mind is that the whole point of dating is to get to know someone you eventually may want to marry. So anything you learn throughout the dating process is something positive that adds to your experience in the dating world. The only thing that truly heals wounds like this is time. Take your life one day at a time, and do whatever makes you happy. I also encourage you to read Luke. The bible is always comforting for me to read for some reason, and Luke tells the story of Jesus. If you are already a believer, this book just reminds us of everything Jesus said and did for us. And it is comforting to be reminded of where you are ultimatly going. Sometimes it feels better when you share what is bothering you, and I am curious as to more details of what happened with your friend. But if you don't want to then I understand. Here are a few versus:
1 Thessalonians 4:16 "The Lord himself will come down from heaven with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trumpet call of God. And those who have died believing in Christ will rise first."
Revelation 22:7 "Listen! I am coming soon! Happy is the one who obeys the words of prophecy in this book."
I will be praying for you.
Your Brother in Christ,
Jon