dgolvach Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 110 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 1,254 Content Per Day: 0.17 Reputation: 6 Days Won: 0 Joined: 07/28/2004 Status: Offline Share Posted February 29, 2008 A few here know that I have struggled with a painful auto-immune disease that has causes whats called small fiber neuropathy throughout my body. I have struggled with the pain for many years and conceeded to prescription pain meds back in 05. If any knows about opiate based meds they know that there is an inevitable tolorance issue. This means you will have to take more as time goes by. Not only to treat the cronic pain but to avoid the hellish withdrawls that follow when you stop. I was on two very powerful opiates called fentanyl and then subutex. This stuff his more powerful than herion. I went cold turky in july of 06 and went through two months of nothing less than a living breathing hell on earth. I swore off the things but then my disease advanced and so did the pain so here I am again. A defacto junky junking awat on lortab and vicoden. These are bad but my pain doc supplements this regiment with a drug called Lyrica that makes me feel basically like I'm stoned but it does marginalize the pain. Being doped up like this makes it hard to have as close as a relationship with the Lord as I would like but the pain of my disease is horrific. Sometimes I feel like God wants to see me try to follow him with both hands tied behind my back. I love him but I sometimes doubt that he can accept me in this state. It almost seems like I am abusing his grace. I know I wouldn't take this stuff if I were heathy. I don't know.......where am I???????? Dan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
patricia1 Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 44 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1,858 Content Per Day: 0.30 Reputation: 9 Days Won: 0 Joined: 07/24/2007 Status: Offline Birthday: 05/23/1957 Share Posted February 29, 2008 Absolutely. That is a lie that you are abusing the Grace of God Have they tried you on...I am sure they have, any of the antiseizure meds in conjunction with one opiate? ( I would pick out fentynal.) Sometime nuerotin helps as well. If you go off your meds cold turkey please let me know but I beg you not to do that again.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Richard_yaash Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 4 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 940 Content Per Day: 0.16 Reputation: 1 Days Won: 0 Joined: 01/10/2008 Status: Offline Share Posted February 29, 2008 I love him but I sometimes doubt that he can accept me in this state. It almost seems like I am abusing his grace. I know I wouldn't take this stuff if I were heathy. Will grace cover this? As Patricia said: Absolutely. Can He accept you in this state? Absolutely. I think He knows and understands better than even we are able to understand ourselves. You are safe within His unfailing and enduring love... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 29, 2008 Share Posted February 29, 2008 And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Amen.Romans 16:20 With Tears Of Relieve And Of Joy Hallelujah To The KING Be Blessed Beloved The LORD Reigns Love, Joe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scarletprayers Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 135 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 7,537 Content Per Day: 1.08 Reputation: 157 Days Won: 2 Joined: 04/06/2005 Status: Offline Birthday: 09/29/1956 Share Posted February 29, 2008 I love him but I sometimes doubt that he can accept me in this state. It almost seems like I am abusing his grace. I know I wouldn't take this stuff if I were heathy. Will grace cover this? As Patricia said: Absolutely. Can He accept you in this state? Absolutely. I think He knows and understands better than even we are able to understand ourselves. You are safe within His unfailing and enduring love... Amen! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgolvach Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 110 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 1,254 Content Per Day: 0.17 Reputation: 6 Days Won: 0 Joined: 07/28/2004 Status: Offline Author Share Posted February 29, 2008 Sometimes I feel like God wants to see me try to follow him with both hands tied behind my back. You type very well that way. I Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ddavid from NC Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 196 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 1,343 Content Per Day: 0.22 Reputation: 12 Days Won: 1 Joined: 01/15/2008 Status: Offline Birthday: 12/03/1964 Share Posted February 29, 2008 I will be praying with you regarding this...You have some tough decisions to make all along the way. I would advise close spiritual counsel. Do you have a pastor or Christain counselor at your disposal. You need some outside spiritual help and some pain management specialist that you trust. But, don't let the Devil accuse you...but know they you are in an area of great risk and your day to day decisions will be crucial. You need accountability with someone you trust. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nebula Posted February 29, 2008 Group: Royal Member Followers: 10 Topic Count: 5,823 Topics Per Day: 0.75 Content Count: 45,870 Content Per Day: 5.93 Reputation: 1,897 Days Won: 83 Joined: 03/22/2003 Status: Offline Birthday: 11/19/1970 Share Posted February 29, 2008 Hey, Dan - Our value to God isn't based on our works. You know this, correct? I know it is more a "guy" thing to have a need to be successful. I can imagine that this "doing nothing" is more torturous for a guy than it would a girl, like me. But even still, I can appreciate the frustration with feeling worthless for not being able to do anything. If it helps to hear what you are saying? On the one hand you say God has put you in this situation, or is leaving you in this situation. On the other hand, you are afraid that God is mad at you for this situation you are in. Do you see the contradiction here? If He put you there, or is keeping you there, why would He be mad at you? Consider Job with this. Job had no idea why he suffered as he did, nor was he ever given the answer. But in the end, the only "answer" God seemed to give is: "Do you trust me?" I know chemicals can interfere with your communication with the Lord . . . I have a harder time connecting when I'm not completely awake (not all neural processes are connecting right), so I can get the idea. But if I may make a suggestion? In the morning, pray, "Lord, I give you this pain." As you take your pain medication, pray, "Lord, I give my treatment to You. If You have a better plan, please show me the way." And begin thanking Him for the answer. Start there, and see where it takes you - OK? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
patricia1 Posted March 1, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 44 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1,858 Content Per Day: 0.30 Reputation: 9 Days Won: 0 Joined: 07/24/2007 Status: Offline Birthday: 05/23/1957 Share Posted March 1, 2008 with what I have , my limitations in stamina and energy I have to be careful. Save evrything for my daughter to give to her. It is so hard to once know what you had been capable of and the mind remains young and but the body does not want to cooperate. I reverse isolate myself due to the fact a simple cold takes months for me to overcome and I refuse to walk around with a mask on, let alone walk in a church with one on causing attraction to myself and a possible distraction to a preaching pastor... I know that boredom. It can make you sleep and being on meds. Just talking to the Lord you are doing what he wants you do to . Jesus wnts us to have fellowship with Him. You can keep a journal. write a book create a bible study and share it. You may also contact a church and offer you place for a prayer meeting, bible study or fellowship but let them know a head of time you inability to straighten up or entertaining with food or what will limit you. This may break up the monotony during the week and help edify and refuel you.... if you these suggestions do not tickle you in any way..I have more... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeCajunboy Posted March 3, 2008 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 113 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 1,430 Content Per Day: 0.22 Reputation: 33 Days Won: 1 Joined: 12/24/2006 Status: Offline Birthday: 06/28/1952 Share Posted March 3, 2008 A few here know that I have struggled with a painful auto-immune disease that has causes whats called small fiber neuropathy throughout my body. I have struggled with the pain for many years and conceeded to prescription pain meds back in 05. If any knows about opiate based meds they know that there is an inevitable tolorance issue. This means you will have to take more as time goes by. Not only to treat the cronic pain but to avoid the hellish withdrawls that follow when you stop. I was on two very powerful opiates called fentanyl and then subutex. This stuff his more powerful than herion. I went cold turky in july of 06 and went through two months of nothing less than a living breathing hell on earth. I swore off the things but then my disease advanced and so did the pain so here I am again. A defacto junky junking awat on lortab and vicoden. These are bad but my pain doc supplements this regiment with a drug called Lyrica that makes me feel basically like I'm stoned but it does marginalize the pain. Being doped up like this makes it hard to have as close as a relationship with the Lord as I would like but the pain of my disease is horrific. Sometimes I feel like God wants to see me try to follow him with both hands tied behind my back. I love him but I sometimes doubt that he can accept me in this state. It almost seems like I am abusing his grace. I know I wouldn't take this stuff if I were heathy. I don't know.......where am I???????? Dan Everything Patricia plus this thought, "God knows your heart and your mind." Just as I struggled with a sexual problem in my earlier years and thought "Well , God made me this way so why change?" That was "stinkin thinkin," directly from satan. What I want to say about this to tie it together is, That God always knew my heart and mind and HE knew that when I was living in sin, EVEN THEN I knew that IT WAS SIN, AND IT WAS WRONG. And until I could overcome what I thought was innate desires and learned to give it all to God and take it off my weak shoulders, as I have had to do so very many others sins in my life.....I wasn't strong enough on my own....But now with God .......that's quite a different story. To make a long boring story short....What so very many sinful souls, on this planet have come to accept as "the norm," and natural sexual desires I , with the help of God left behind in my old life with the poor souls who refused to believe in themselves and the Lord who died for us, and walk away from that dismal death, as I know today that I would not be walking among the living had God not interceded in my pitiful life....Now, I'm happy in the LORD, successful, two gorgeous...lol, children.....A special woman for the past 36 years, peace beyond belief.......And the ability to hold my head high above the clouds of filth and disaster that I thought was bound for me! In God's love Larry Cajunboy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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