Sweetly Broken

Thank you all. My relationship with my spouse continues become better and better. He still has times when he seems to forget I exsist but that might be something with in me not something he is doing wrong. Life is still very difficult. I hate to admit that, but it really is. It just seems one thing after another. A murder in the family, a fire, another death, a child wandered off, niece tried to commit suicide, nearly lost my job, oh it makes me dizzy just typing about it all. I know times are hard. We all are struggling. I think it's just the times. I sit here thinking and this smilie above hugging over and over and the words "dear friend" cause a peace with in me. Thanks for sharing, for being there. Posting may seem like such a small thing to do but sometimes it makes a huge difference in a persons life.

Hello Taylor. I'm a little late on a reply. I hope you've worked out your struggles. I don't have any wonderful words to add to the great advice already given here except to apologize on behalf of those who haven't spoken to you at church. It's not that they don't care. They are afraid. I'm very afraid to walk up to someone I don't know and try to hold a conversation. At times when I have I've received cutting words back such as, "I've been coming here for months!" or "If you really were glad to meet me you would remember you introduced yourself to me a few weeks ago already." Or "If you cared to meet me you would remember my name and you've forgotten my name haven't you?" Of coarse I have. I can't keep my own kids names straight. Words like that just cause us to shy away from attempting to start a conversation with others. Please forgive them, they are Gods children too. Take care. Keep seeking Him.

It isn't sinful to grieve. We are told to rejoice in all things because God knew it was the path to being able to stand up under anything this world would toss at us. It was a tool given to us by a very loving God. Emotions are also a gift He gave us. Though sometimes they may feel like more of a curse as the enemy tries to corrupt them and use them to control us. Grieving sure carries a lot of the emotions. Anger, hurt, sadness. When faced with death of a loved one the only comfort I found was in the hope of seeing him again. Yet being left behind is what I felt and it was very very painful. The unsaved is crushed under such loss. If we don't allow ourselves to feel grief how can we understand and reach for the unsaved one who is suffocating in their grief. They won't understand how to rejoice in their pain. Even as children of God we can struggle to rejoice in all things. Well that's my 2 cents on the subject. Not sure I answered your question. Reading your post and sharing my thoughts helped me refocus from my own difficult situation. God bless. May you find comfort through His Spirit during this time.

Good answers. Gerda I'm sorry for your struggle. I know peoples words can hurt us so deeply and even set us back from doing the good we are called to do. I'd like to just add something that has helped me. Even recently at Christmas, getting together with family. As family can be so cruel. A few words that help me is the words Jesus said on the cross, "Father forgive them for they know not what they are doing." As the person begins to say hurtful and negative things begin to pray. They don't need to know you are praying. And ask God to forgive them and reveal to them what they are doing. Hope this helps. God bless and keep you. Saying a prayer that you can find the strength through God to continue to stand strong.

Hello Danielle, I'm a bit late in a reply. Just wanted to say I am going to say a prayer for you. I to know how terrible depression can be. I found helping others seems to help me. As well as music. Singing songs of praise and worship and praying. Not praying about my problem but praying praises to Him for tending to my problems and for loving me and making a future for His people. Also I started taking Vit D. You may know we get vit D from the sun and now in the winter we don't get much sunlight so we can be lacking in vit d. I think I feel a bit better already even though it's only been a 2 weeks. Hope this helps. God loves you and so do I. Hang in there. There will be a better day.