TJ

I use luck as in I am lucky to have him watch over me even though I do stupid things, mostly due to my illness but I know he's there. It's just like saying I'm lucky to have my mum coz she will always be here for me making sure I'm safe xx

I'm very lucky I have God watching over me if he wasn't I would be dead or very sick by now. He had me talk to tar right crisis lady on Wednesday she was concerned and phoned an ambulance, when ambulance control phoned me I had the perfect guy. I have PTSD I wasn't in 2016 I was in 2001 or 2002. He was stricked with me getting me to do things he was very strong but once I was safe he became a very easy guy to talk to he kept me talking until the ambulance and police arrived. He give me instructions but being a first aider I knew but he had to make sure I was safe he even spoke to the paramedic to make sure I wasn't lying to him. I hope God blesses them as they deserve it they were amazing people keeping me calm when I was suicidal with bad flashbacks which altered my memory a lot. I know I told the paramedic not to touch my right wrist she was lovely I thanked her but wished I could give her a cwtch (hug) xx

Getting very anxious about things touching my right arm and triggering my flashbacks which are getting clearer. I've been helped by police, drs, CPS, home care team and my family who have hidden all my meds to stop me ODing again. Really struggling with this not sure how to deal with it xx

I was sexually abused by a man I am scared to get near them especially if their on my right side or touch my right arm. In fact nobody can touch my right arm because of the abuse by a man. It's not false I can't get close to a man after one has done this to me.

Not much really the crisis team don't want to come back even though a week last Monday I was at hospital for trying to takemy own life again. Apart from possibly ending up on court over my step father soon which I don't want to go to the court but I have to. I have no enjoyment out of anything I'm drugged up from my Dr to stop me killing or hurting myself the drugs don't work and I can't talk to my family. I talk to God but he can't magically take the pain away. Xx

A crisis mental health team are coming out to see me again tomorrow xx

I don't care about intimacy but I would like to wake up to her ever morning and fall asleep with her at night I'd be safer not being alone. Yes I'm a girl and gone through a lot but guys scare me because of my stepfather I can't get close to them. My ex wasn't allowed to hug me I would push him away xx

I have a counselor in childhood sexual abuse, a psychiatrist, a psychologist, a community mental health crisis team due to 8 suicide Attempts and self harming, I have a crisis team a good Dr and police are now involved, as they stopped attempt 8 from working and debt me to hospital who sent me home. I really like this girl more than I've liked a guy I know God frowns upon it but he allowed my stepfather to sexually abuse me when I was young. Sorry if this offends you just angry at God at the moment and police interviews are bringing memories back xx

There's a girl I really like and I have no trust in men due to childhood trauma. Would God understand if I had a girlfriend instead because otherwise I will be alone forever as I cannot get close to a man.

I would have succeed if a friend hadn't called the police. But Thank God he sent the right officers they were sympathetic and annoyed me into talking about why I had tried and why I wanted to do it. If it was a different officer I probably wouldn't have said a work. And to the saying "permanent solution to a temporary problem" the person who said that obviously didn't live with PTSD where meds control nightmares of the sexual abuse which I had but they do not take away the flashbacks which make me want to die. Because God sent me the right police officers at the right time I'm alive and my abuser has been arrested but is out on bail. He lives close to me which is hard as the police couldn't move him I'm still likely to see him but he's not allowed to speak to me. God is giving me the strength this week not to try again as I'm finding the police interviews and hospital appointments hard. I have attempted to take my life 8 times for some reason God wants me here xx

I'm not coping anymore I need out this life is too hard for me God made a mistake thinking I was strong enough to handle this life he's given me. I can't keep going much longer I need out xxx

I hurt myself knowing what I am doing I do it for a rush for a release its like being a drug addict but instead of drugs I damage my skin.

I have PTSD anxiety and Depression. I suffer major flashbacks and I feel God hates me because I hurt myself almost daily now. I see a therapist and a good Dr I'm on meds but still end up giving into harming as I can't handle what I see all the time. It's made me plan suicide previously and attempt but things aren't that bad at the moment. Xx