JERE

Thank you guys so much, I Really needed to hear what you guys said.

i been a really bad person i just want to start fresh with god. I know if you didnt know about god you can be save but its the fact i knew about god chosen to do evil. Its along story how it happen but never meant for it to happen now i regret it and understand. I feel ill never have that assurance but i hopefully you guys are right because i do want to have a relationship with Jesus.

I grew up in church got saved and baptized at a young age my parents later seprated and i moved in with my dad.We stopped going to church where was mentored by my uncle which didnt believe n the bible and told me life was about sex money and knowledge. He got me in to drinking and smokng cigarettes and later was addiction to porn masterbation threw out my teen years from 15 till now i been watching porn everyday and smoking and did many sinful thing like had sex with diffrent girls and had a girl friend for many years having sex and had a baby out of wedlock. My life was getting destroyed from sin but recently starting seeng that these thng were not bringing happiness only jesus can. I am now trying to come back but my heart has really harden abd i have been a really evil person and practiced unrepentant sin. These preaching teach wHen you what i have done jesus shuts the door and gives you over to a Reprobate Mind which jesus rejects you even when you cry for reptants with tears. Im now mature enough to know understand what i have done but i think its too late and were livingbin the final hours.I cant sleep knowing im on my way to hell and my times running out.I want to repent but in the back of my mind i feel its too late.