Jen77

Thank you, I'm not sure how I would answer this question. The verses in Colossians do hit home, so thank you for the reference.

Thank you for that, I have considered both.

I joined a team within my company about a year ago and am now regretting it. I am the only straight (and female, and Christian) person in a group of five money-hungry, Christian-hating gay men whose mouths and minds are filled with the most vile things, and they speak of everyone around them -clients, other teams, anyone - with bitter contempt. I was not the most devoted Christian when I joined, so it would be an unpleasant surprise to my team if I were to begin to demonstrate my faith, even in the smallest ways. In fact, whenever they take the opportunity to bash believers, I stay silent for fear of putting my job in jeopardy. They managed to push out the previous girl, who was also a Christian. My desire is to leave the team and find a better fit - as well as something closer to home (my commute is over an hour one way). I have been praying persistently to Jesus to invoke the Holy Spirit to either strengthen my walk and help me endure this job, or provide a better opportunity. But neither has happened, and I live in constant discouragement. Recently I was presented with a better offer from a Godly team in my hometown. I turned it down before my resume was even accepted, simply because the ringleader of my team suspected I was looking for another job, and offered me a $200 gas card and a .50-cent an hour raise. Now I feel like Judas, who was bought out by the Pharisees for a bag of coins. Furthermore, my boss has recently insisted on helping me financially with moving into my new apartment. So I feel ashamed, because in a way I am greatly indebted to him. Would there be a reason for God to keep me in this job - possibly to use it as a mission field? I should hope not, no Christian should have to be surrounded by this daily filth! But I’m afraid since I forfeited my chance at a better opportunity for a few cents more an hour, I have indeed messed up God’s plan, and now must remain here as a consequence. How am I ever to know which path God wants me to take? Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

Thank you so much for the encouraging posts. I see there's much to be done on my end before God's plan comes together. It is amazing to have such a response the first post I've put up here. I'm prepared to meet with my minister as well for his input. Hopefully some time I'll be on here to help someone in these forums, as you've helped me.

Thank you for all your advice, but I'm now more confused than ever. Still Alive says there is a chance at forgiveness from my past circumstances, but CreativeMechanic says not so? I appreciate you all trying to help.

I am new in reading the Bible, and last night I read this passage that made me close the book and start crying. In Matthew 5:32, Jesus denounces divorce, stating that any man who divorces his wife other than for adultery, has caused her to become and adulteress. I got divorced after 12 years for reasons other than adultery. I'm discouraged in reading this, because it basically means that I will never be honored with another relationship blessed by God, even if it is with a Godly man, because I have become an adulteress through my divorce. I am only 32 and this is extremely depressing. Any thoughts or words of encouragement on this?