TimothyHK

+1 on this

I don't think we can understand it with our current language and the logic available to us so to speak.

He must increase, I must decrease.

Psalm 127 King James Version (KJV) 127 Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the Lordkeep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.

I'm sure the moment your post got here there are many people who see and commit themselves to pray for you, hang in there brother! You may also want to read something about soul ties. Find a good Christian site to explain it to you, I think Frank Hammond (a deliverance minister), might have some good material for you to read up on, some are on youtube as well.