Figure of eighty

Luk 12:48 But he who did not know, yet committed things deserving of stripes, shall be beaten with few. For everyone to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more. I feel i keep seeing scripture when im out and about That was the one i saw recently.. I feel i dont have much.. I just wonder like when i become a nurse just do good to people? Idk Whats ur take?

Alot of christians dont believe in hell bc they feel its too mean or cruel of a punishment some dont believe in tongues or the holy spirit either. If they follow God and his commands and believe in hi m would they still go to heaven.?

I'm not watching youtubers just the news bc I like to stay informed and don't like to be ignorant to what's going on in the world.. but you're right no one knows the day or time. I'm prone to anxiety. I do hope we have more time.

With everything going on in th3 world it definitely points to us living in the end times so much so I decided to try and get right with God. I just don't think there's much turning back from here... I definitely feel we're going to be ushered into a new world order soon than later with the tariff wars,federal freezes and more.. I just worry about my faith being too weak and faltering when I need it most. I'm very afraid for the future.. I don't even think I'll be able to practice as a nurse which really put things into perspective that I need to get my relationship/faith right..

To overcome mental illness. Ocd to be exact-- I feel hopeless and scared I won't make it. I hope this therapist is able to help .. just making it to the appointment is a struggle.

Thanks. I'm gonna stay in a hotel with my kiddos. I hope I can do it.

I have an update: So I finished my 1st quarter of Nursing school. But I won't be able to keep my place. My brother kept giving his money to the church and my mom sees nothing he's doing wrong. She gives him so much grace but is pretty hard on me. Now me and my kids will be living with her in her hotel.. I'll be leaving on the 26th or 27th of this month. Im trying not to fall into despair,depression,panic... All I ask for is prayers for strength and resilience.. Also those asking abt my sleep, I couldn't sleep due to nightmares...so far I'm doing okay but I assume they'll pick up again once I'm living with my mom. Also any suggestions I wouldn't mind. Whether spiritual or otherwise. I mainly want advice on how to keep going. I feel exhausted and depleted mentally.

Thanks. Also, I'm having a rough night mentally. I think I'm gonna broach the subject of medication with my therapist. I'm exhausted mentally. Please keep me in your prayer. I'm really afraid of going crazy. Feels like it's creeping closer and closer.

Thanks

Yep it does. I feel I'm in a bad place spiritually. I just feel I don't café anymore about God or really love him... I saw a comment about how God changes people and if you don't feel the HS convicting you you're not Saved. I feel my conversion was real but idk.. I never felt the holy spirit convict me ever. I'm tired of pulling teeth to get God to save and change me. I'm ready to just give up and throw in the towel.

I'll ask him to lead me to the right medication

Perhaps. I hope so too. Hope it's not a horror show.

Idk I feel like I'm not a Christian moat have warm loving feelings towards God and I don't. I'm mad at him, angry, disappointed. I don't trust-- I don't want to be bc I don't want to be let down by Him. I'll only trust him for things I can't control like death and life after. That's it. Idk , I'm not a toy He can mess over. Idk I just feel real Christians don't feel like this. I wonder what am I don't here. My feelings for God has definitely changed.

My conversion was sincere..

I think I'm gonna get on medication first..to help with my thought's no matter how much I repent the anger and hate comes back... just doesn't seem to go anywhere. Since it's still lingering I think perhaps I need medical intervention to help my head.

I feel im gonna need medication for that part. I thought I had a handle on my intrusive thoughts but I don't. Im just gonna try to get medication from my therapist to try and help me.

I truly feel like I'm developing ocd in a sense. I struggle with intrusive thoughts. I think it's time for me to face the music and try meds before I'm worse off than I am now.. im so upset my mind is broken and thus making me a broken human being. I could cry. I wish I was normal.

I will try. I really wish I was like you guys. Most here seem to trust God no matter what and don't have issues like I do.

I hope so.

I'm not trying to sound like a wet mat but I really haven't been pursuing God. I'm not a good Christian. I still struggle with anger and resentment twds God. Sometimes I feel im not Saved at all... I feel like a fake but I'll pray God takes this anger away. Bc I know it's wrong.

True but idk I just feel upset about the situation.

I definitely feel like I have a heart issue spiritually... I question if I'm saved. I said the sinners prayer and did water baptism twice. Yet I still am so reluctant with trusting God, anxious,upset about trusting God and I get angry as well. Idk I feel like a dead person that's not responding to a defibrillator... Sometimes idk if I should keep trying or give up with Christianity bc I feel like a hypocrite and I can't change myself. It's exhausting.

I seem to have an anger and sadness I can't let go. I went through an unexpected and disappointing experience ( don't want to talk about it ) I feel the more I hold on to it. The more it messes with me mentally, to the point I was having nightmares chronically every time I closed my eyes..but when I repented they stopped.. but it's like my mind can't let it go.. I keep God at Arms length, I don't trust him fully bc I don't want to be disappointed again so I just keep him far away.. I'm starting to feel hopeless and give up on myself. Trying to trust triggers anxiety and anger.. Idk.. I probably just need meds.

One thing I can say is that I've never expressed my anger outwardly. I hope I don't get to that point.

Sometimes I wonder if I should give up being a christian. I've been saved and baptized twice but I see no fruit in my own life.. I've come to a place where I feel weird towards God. I don't trust him at all, I have alot of anger towards him and I genuinely don't want to surrender completely mainly bc I see an example being my brother who's brainwashed and has nothing. Idk what to do. I really don't know how to trust God Idk I wish I were full of faith but I'm not. I just know my situation isn't ideal-- I just feel like a pot of destruction.. I think maybe I should take a hiatus.