Chris0699
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Hardened beyond repentance?
Chris0699 replied to Chris0699's topic in Have a problem? Looking for advice?
I don't feel guilt. That's why I'm over the line. -
Life in general is ok, great really, except for that I spend a lot of time trying to avoid sin and thinking about how to get to Jesus, and how impossible it is in my current position.
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Yes, my prayers are probably going to the wrong address. Must be the reason nothing has happened.
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When I first started doubting over a year and a half ago, I could barely sleep, I lost about 80 pounds, I quit visiting dirty websites and doing what accompanies that, etc. But all of that is in vain because my attitude towards God needs to change. Seems I am willing to do anything to avoid hell except the only thing that really can cause me to avoid hell. Which is why I am growing more certain day by day that I have committed the unpardonable sin and that I am going to hell. Because of my attitude toward God and my lack of desire to change. I suppose the only reason I have been hanging around is that, maybe, God will do something to wake me up, give me sight, and turn me around. But I have to genuinely want it. And I'm not sure I truly do. So, I guess I am whining about things I have no business whining about. I ought to be living profligately and doing things other than hanging around Worthy. But I can't put this down. Paul was a Jesus hating blasphemer and Jesus changed him. There has to be a way. I guess the only hope I have left is that God would answer someone's prayer on my behalf. But that hope is fading fast as well.
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The thought of hell - that's what keeps me striving in any sense.
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No, not that I am aware of.
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I guess all that's left for me to sin it up and pay the price when it's all over. I don't have the attitudes that @Thess described, I don't know whether I really give a hoot as @other one was mentioning. Without these correct attitudes, I cannot be heard by God, and if I cannot be heard, then it's all over unless by some miracle He intervenes, but He won't because I have free will to choose, but I don't have free will since I cannot come unless I am drawn...
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I mean, I don't know how or why I was classified in Worthy. I don't think I have any control over that.
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I don't know.
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A bit over a year and a half. All kinds of prayers. Trying hard to quit sins (and a lot of failing). The problem must be me. I really don't know what to do. He isn't listening.
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I've been asking. Nothing.
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True prayer with the right intentions is impossible too. I have been asking for this for over a year and nothing. I am praying to the wall. God isn't listening because I don't think I want to leave my sin. Which also boggles me because I don't think I really enjoy it all that much. Or maybe I am suppressing my sinful desires. I don't know. But this is a bad place.
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I didn't see the date on this. Whoops. Didn't realize it was that old. But how does one with a seared conscience even truly seek God? Or even want to? Because if I am honest with myself, that is where I am. And that is the sign that someone has crossed God's line and there is no way back, even while they still draw breath.
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Following. I'm there too.
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To Those Who Blasphemed Against the HS..
Chris0699 replied to ItsJustDeep's topic in General Discussion
And this is what I believe I have done and that it is impossible to repent. Why? Because I fell away and put Him to open shame. The desire is gone. All of it. Which is why I have been posting about my wife and kids. There is hopefully a chance for them, but I don't think I am among those God elected. -
Willa, I'm glad this worked out for your family. Would you please be willing to petition God on behalf of my family? I am an evil man, a wolf in disguise. Please pray that a godly man or person, I don't care, would be put into this family for my wife and children. I don't care if it means my life on this Earth is shortened and I go to hell. God will not listen to someone in my condition - there are many verses that attest to that. So, please ask Him on my behalf if you are willing. Thank you.
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I have been hoping for a good humbling from God (at least I think I do). I can only hope He will do this to me before I die. If not...well... won't be pretty.
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Well, I hope your friend will repent, and it's good that you've stuck with him.
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I don't really know. Sermon after sermon, all kinds of Bible reading, and I will not repent or bow the knee to Him as Lord. I don't know the exact reason. I think it will take a Saul-like experience to change me at this point. But those are rare. Saul did not know who Jesus was or why He came, that's why he found mercy. But I know better.
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It's my pride. I need to be humbled. I won't humble myself. Even knowing what is on the line.
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I don't see issues with his theology. Calvinism seems biblical as far as I can understand.
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Thank you. I need prayer to have my blindness removed.
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I would like to think that if He did, I would.
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I get so jealous of these people who God saved because of other people praying for them.
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Like it's crazy that you were only half seeking and He just flattened you, and I had been working and working and nothing. Kinda like you just stumbled onto Him, right? Ugh. I can't get it together.