Ah yes goodbyes!
I went to a church for 8 years from the age of 7 and every year people who I cared about seemed to leave. It left me feeling upset and confused.
The people who, and remember I was a child!, were my favourites left and I cried and cried.
I've had the same experience in school with my favourite teachers leaving and even with half of the EastEnders cast leaving this year I feel sad!
Ok I know the EastEnders bit is small compared to someone close to you leaving. At 15 my turn came to leave and I moved 40 miles away leaving all the people who I'd grown up with behind and it crushed me and I get awfully homesick even 2 years later because I'd known those people all my life and thought I'd never find another church like that. When teachers left I thought I'd never make frineds with another teacher again partly because I'd feel as though I was a traitor and partly because I didn't want to be hurt again but because of the person I am I always found another teacher to be frineds with and I've found another church and I play the keyboard there now!
My boyfriend lives 182 miles away and everytime I say goodbye to him it breaks my heart but do you know what I do every time I'm feeling lonley or upset? I pray. I know it may not seem much but it always cheers me up and I feel much better. Also check out Psalm 62, that always cheers me up too!
I pray that you will feel better soon and the pain of loosing people close to you will fade away. Things will get better I promise.
Thinking of you
God Bless
Felinefan