thereaperman

first of all, who ever said i dont know the dangers of drinking you very very wrong. i come from a broken home, my dad is an alcholic. i do drink and smoke, but its down to 2 times a week at the moment, it was 5 times a week this time last year. i dont do anything dangerous when i drink, i just sit and watch tv or play videogames, i am still fairly coherant and can hold a detailed conversation while drinking. i dont feel that god is in my life enough. i know he is, but i cant seem to feel it, im guessing this is becuase of my sin. i have control over it, but it is still there, i am still greatly tempted at times, and find it hard to resit with the highly depressed moods i get. when praying doesnt seem to have much effect i turn to the world to take the edge off a bit. im frustrated becusae i know i could and should be a "better" christian, but dont have the power to get there, if i ever will. i feel lost and confused in a sea of spiritual questions and dogma.

is drinking till your drunk a sin, even if you can still stand and have some form of control over your body?

the outcome of the election effects the whole world. the tragady is the world doesnt get to vote. i think bush is a devil in sheeps clothing? the antichrist? maybe i love the end of the world story... i think its bad news he got in again, personally

oddly enough i read a book called "new age spirituality" which refeered to a corse in miricles alot as well..... i need to get some bettter reading, clearly

i have been reading this book and have just got into chapter 6. the book/god says there is no punishment for sin, that no one goes to hell and we are free to do whatever we want. however there are also alot of other things in the book that make sence and sound like they came from god. was wondering if anyone else out there had read the book or thinks there could be a foundation for what is mentioned in the book?

i have more questions, help is you can does every single thing we say, eat, think, do determine the outcome of the rest of our lives? can all of it be sin? can we have such imense diciplin that we think and worship god every day of our lives? if we pray for issues like africa and iriq and other major issues everyone seems to ignore, does the ammount of time we spend praying make a differance? does god act for the non believers in those countrys if we ask him to? i have a tiny mustard seed of faith, so why does it feel like ive lost faith at a time of grief, and am still weary about my own death and what happens after it? whats the best way to spend my time that is going to help me get through this turmoil, and what works for you people out there? even though im a christian, i still feel lonley and like ive got so much still to learn and achieve vefore i can find a stable sence of peace, why could that be? much thanks for any answers as always love paul

thankfully i live by faith, not the man made laws of logic, but its great to see a simple argument provked such a responce

thank you, i will bring this and any other responces up, weve had some really late night chats about gods excistance. he tryed to prove that numbers show god doesnt excist and went on about meme.... i can see the light, and the light loves me, he doesnt see the light yet, i am trying and praying....

the argument is as follows: god can either create a stone he cant lift, or he cant create the stone he cant lift. this confused me to begin with and i said it was flawed becuase the word "cant" is closing the outcome of the question. can anyone help solve this question to help me prove to this argument is flawed? help much appricated i pray for this guy daily

it feels like my time on earth is running out and with the rise in violent crime i could be killed on the street anyday. is it normal for me to contemplate my death so often and so much? i know when i die im going somewhere better, my faith has grown so much this year its unbelivable. also ive had dreams about family members dying, is this a preminition or just somethin that keeps coming into my dreams? does god still work in the lives of the ones i pray for who dont believe in him? are we living in the end times, and how much worse does this world have to get before jesus comes back?

when i said about not belonging here, i didnt mean this board, i ment being alive in general, i dont feel i belong here anymore. i keep getting.....visions of another world, or place, or somewhere im not and think i want to be when i meditate

my name is paul, its meaning is small and insignificant.....does wonders for my confidence that....

all too often i get overcome with sadness. turns out my dad IS free of cancer BUT still has years marked against his life somehow... things get too much and i do question my existance and the futility of the world we live in at times. will give ecclesiaties a try

i seem to be asking these alot, maybe you could help me out like you all ave dont so many countless times this year: why does it feel im on borrowed time and dont belong here? are there good and bad guys if god loves us all? if my life is a perfect journey directed by god, is my sin deliberate so i can learn from it, or do i still have control over where my life can go? are our good deeds ultimatly irrelevant? can we REALLY change the world? are any of us differant or are we all the same? when is it right or wrong to question? any help is much appriciated

my dad is compleatly free of cancer. from being given 2 years to live, hes now got the rest of his life ahead of him. praise god for sure, thank you to all those who prayed for me and him

what is deadly sin and what isnt? how do i know im using the most of my time here on earth? how do i know which parts of the bible havnt be tampered with by man? why doesnt it feel that everything will be ok?

those of you who know me know my situation. steve said im surviving and i can now start to walk in victory, which will helpe me lead my family to christ. ive been put in a situation to convert my family and friends, yet it feels like im distinctly not cut out for this yet. what do i do?

love

last nite was pretty strange. me and my friend were sitting in the shed getting stoned when one of the push lights turned itself on in the middle of the floor wihtout us going anywhere near it. sufice to say i got pretty paranoid

personally as soon as the rapture comes the better. then i might be able to avilivate some of this great great deep pain. my dad doesnt know chrsit and hes dying of cancer. my uncle is in the same situation on both counts. my sister doesnt believe and is drifting further and further. no one else in my family believes. i pray for them all, but at times it feels like nothing is or will change. i definatly agree with living in the last days of the world, look around at the fearm grief, wars, famines, weapons of mass distruction and the greed the world has created, the sooner it all ends the better.

im on my spiritual journey and its not 2 bad at the moment. but i was wondering what everyones opinion of what makes up your soul and how you feel it and interact with it and heal it?

maybe my sins are what is causing everything around me?

i only get back what i put in right? i will read jhon over the next few days i have alot of time on y hands over the next few months and i need to use this to rest. im asking you as older more experienced christians when and how do you feel strength and feel god is giving it to you? but also what physical steps can i take to make myself feel more at ease with whats happening to me and make sure im taking care of myself?

i asked god to send someone to help take away the pain and to hug and hold me which she did for a few months till she dumped me 2 days ago. she said things were going too fast, i only said how i felt and i thought she felt the same. now shes cut off all contact and i dont know if she will pick up the fone when i call her.... i kinda go to a church and know a few of the guys there. my mum is a christian, but doesnt know about my dad. my dad doesnt believe in christ, but he believes in a higher power which i guess is a start. at times it feels like im reaching out and not getting anywhere close and death and depression IS all around me and amazingly im finding it pretty hard to overcome it all. maybe im looking for a quick fix and there isnt one. i dunno i just know im lost and confused and deeply deeply hurt

yesterday my girlfriend dumped me via a text message and i know no one her aproved of the relationship, i know god didnt favor it, but all the same he put her in my life for a reason. and now at my time of crisis she has left me for no reason. 2 weeks ago we were loves young dream, now she cant even bare to talk to me. my dad is getting worse, ive never known him so ill in the last 4 months and hes at the doctors again this week about his cancer. he is also adimate my mum doesnt need to know about him dying, he says as far as he is concerned she doesnt exict and he says she feels the same. he also doesnt believe in jesus, but believes in a higher power. my uncle now has about a year and a half left and only his direct family know. my grandad is coming down next week, its good to see him, but he cant go on forever and everytime i say goodbye to him, i say it like its the last time. i myself how have doubts if i am saved and am destined for anything better because i know i am a bad christian and i havnt made an overwhelimg attempt to change that becuase i dont feel i have the faith or strength to do that. so i ask anyone out there how does your troubled, depressed 18 year old christian manchild deal with this situation?