Hi TT,
I sent this to you in a pm, but I wanted to post it here, as well, in hopes that someone else might benefit from it....
I don't have all that much to say in response except that you are loved, by me, by some wonderful people here at Worthy (like those above), and most importantly, by God. Even if everyone else in the world were to reject you, know that God loves you unconditionally. No mere circumstance, no matter how big it may seem, can stop God from loving you. When He loves, He ALWAYS loves. And remember, we serve a BIG God. In the Bible, even David felt the way that you are feeling right now; he said, "When You said, 'Seek My face,' My heart said to You, 'Your face, LORD, I will seek.' Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation. When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the LORD will take care of me." David was seeking God, and he felt like God had forsaken him; yet, despite how he felt, he said that when he was forsaken by those closest to him, the Lord would take care of Him. I encourage you to cast your cares upon the Lord. The Bible promises that He CARES for you; if he cares for you, then He will take care of you and your problems.
I pray for you every day. Know that you are loved.
Hugs.
Love,
Rudy