lily00 Posted February 6, 2006 Group: Members Followers: 4 Topic Count: 4 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 30 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 35 Days Won: 0 Joined: 01/26/2006 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/22/1986 Author Share Posted February 6, 2006 Hi, I just wanted to say thanks for all of the encouragement here! Lily00 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lily00 Posted May 10, 2020 Group: Members Followers: 4 Topic Count: 4 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 30 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 35 Days Won: 0 Joined: 01/26/2006 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/22/1986 Author Share Posted May 10, 2020 (edited) I cannot BELIEVE I was a member on here when I was just a KID, got so many kind and uplifting responses, and then have never came back on until now. I haven't been on here in 15 years, because Ive mainly been on CF and been on and off forums through my life. But listen. This is what God did in my life. He delivered me from depression, anxiety, and self injury. I have been able to forgive my dad for the sexual abuse I endured. I am way closer to God then I was back then. And the more I leaned on Him through those difficult years, the closer I got to Him. I am completely free from self injury. I went into a Christian based program called Teen Challenge and graduated there after a year and a half. Then got some extra support from another program in Indiana. I havent self injured in over ten years now and am completely delivered from this and the shame attached from it. June I will be married for 5 years to a Christian man of God. I have a two year old daughter and am having a son due in July. I am on fire for God and so grateful for what He has done in my life. And the best part? He is still leading and guiding my path. A friend invited me on here. I forgot I joined way back, but knowing how I was searching in my teen years, I tried my old username first. And sure enough. Yep. Gave my life story on a forum of people I don't know. But I guess I am still pretty much an open person.But God bless ya'll and thank you for being such a support at that time. I was really searching for answers and freedom from childhood demons. And I am definitely grateful for where I am now. I hope to stick around some now! I really love the format and kindness from the people on here. And some pretty interesting threads. Edited May 10, 2020 by lily00 1 1 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debp Posted May 10, 2020 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 52 Topic Count: 1,026 Topics Per Day: 0.15 Content Count: 12,355 Content Per Day: 1.80 Reputation: 16,388 Days Won: 92 Joined: 07/19/2005 Status: Offline Share Posted May 10, 2020 9 hours ago, lily00 said: I cannot BELIEVE I was a member on here when I was just a KID, got so many kind and uplifting responses, and then have never came back on until now. I haven't been on here in 15 years, because Ive mainly been on CF and been on and off forums through my life. But listen. This is what God did in my life. He delivered me from depression, anxiety, and self injury. I have been able to forgive my dad for the sexual abuse I endured. I am way closer to God then I was back then. And the more I leaned on Him through those difficult years, the closer I got to Him. I am completely free from self injury. I went into a Christian based program called Teen Challenge and graduated there after a year and a half. Then got some extra support from another program in Indiana. I havent self injured in over ten years now and am completely delivered from this and the shame attached from it. June I will be married for 5 years to a Christian man of God. I have a two year old daughter and am having a son due in July. I am on fire for God and so grateful for what He has done in my life. And the best part? He is still leading and guiding my path. A friend invited me on here. I forgot I joined way back, but knowing how I was searching in my teen years, I tried my old username first. And sure enough. Yep. Gave my life story on a forum of people I don't know. But I guess I am still pretty much an open person.But God bless ya'll and thank you for being such a support at that time. I was really searching for answers and freedom from childhood demons. And I am definitely grateful for where I am now. I hope to stick around some now! I really love the format and kindness from the people on here. And some pretty interesting threads. Wow, that's amazing! So glad to have you back! Will look forward to seeing more of your posts. Enjoy the fellowship! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Prycejosh1987 Posted July 12, 2020 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 1 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 1,176 Content Per Day: 0.84 Reputation: 126 Days Won: 0 Joined: 07/07/2020 Status: Offline Birthday: 04/29/1987 Share Posted July 12, 2020 On 1/26/2006 at 7:30 PM, lily00 said: Hello everyone. I am Lily00 and this is my first post here! I just figured I should just go ahead and get it out since I know it is coming sooner or later. I am nineteen years old and by the grace of God, I am still alive! I am getting through one day at a time but support would really be nice. I guess I haven't been depending on God as much as I should. About 4 years ago I had memories come back to me where I was molested when I was young ( I really don't know what is allowed here so please tell me if I need to edit this). Not wanting to believe it, I tried to ignore the feelings that were there and I just let work and school just numb out my feelings. It is true though when the Bible says, "You reap what you sow..." There comes a time when you can't numb something like that out any longer... in a desperate attempt, I stooped to self injury rather then turning to God and letting Him heal my hurting heart... It happened about a year ago and now it is so hard to stop... I learned a little to late. It has left me confused, beaten up, and with feelings of degredation and sorrow. I tried to go to therapy at school when I finally broke down and told my Mom, but the therapist graduated. I had recently went to one counseling session about 10 hours long... but it ended up being fake and more hurting then it actually helped ( I really can't go into it)... Finally I went to my "pastor" at church and though our old pastor resigned and we are recently trying to find a new pastor (financially unstable) the church wanted to help... He found me a christian counselor, she is really nice, and now I am beginning to slowly feel better about myself. I still need your prayers though. If anyone has a similar problem I would like to hear about it. I just feel so alone at times, too weak to stop or even get up... I need to build up my support system but I have always been quite a loner also and with more memories coming back... Does anyone understand this? How do you'll keep focused? God is so good and I just know He is going to break me out of my shell and help me through this. My favorite verse is Phillippians 4:13, "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Every word is true and I have recited it a lot in past times when I have thought the wrong things. When I still do. I just need an attitude adjustment I guess. Thanks for listening. Lily00 Confusion is just a little hard I guess. You have to work on your spiritual level, so that you do not need support form other spiritual people to help you sustain, it will also help you be healed of your emotional distress. Good luck. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lily00 Posted July 12, 2020 Group: Members Followers: 4 Topic Count: 4 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 30 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 35 Days Won: 0 Joined: 01/26/2006 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/22/1986 Author Share Posted July 12, 2020 3 hours ago, Prycejosh1987 said: You have to work on your spiritual level, so that you do not need support form other spiritual people to help you sustain, it will also help you be healed of your emotional distress. Good luck. Thank you! That post was from 15 years ago though! I am not who I was thanks to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I had many people that helped me through that as well. They were blessings in my life, because as a teenager, I did need a lot of spiritual guidance. Now, I do at times, but feel like God has put me in a place now to help and encourage others. And plus now, I have two young children of my own. Anyhow, read my last posts for my testimony. :) Only came back on here in May. I lurk. Lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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