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i do consider death a gain. you dont know how many times i've tried to speed up the process by use of my own hands. i know he loves me but when my family is in danger specially my little brother im not gonna leave him and thats exactly what i prayed for. would i mind if god took me to his kingdom, no id willingly go, just not the last month or so. it was really hard for us and i wanted to make sure i was here and i prayed like crazy, but the bitter sweet side of that is i had to see 3 dear friends of mine pass away. i know the sacrifices and i count the blessings. what holds me here is my brother, that is it. once he can recognise god as a good thing completely and whole heartedly, that is the day i will finally be able to completely let go. until then everytime i get close to those gates i will pray and i will try to stay in this world for my brother.

so i was in the hospital right and this doctor comes up and says youre going into hospis care i cant do much for you anymore. i lay there like what just happened?! i turn over grab my old bible and i hold it to my heart and i pray and i pray but the next day i go into hospis care so i dont think god is listening... i stay for 2 weeks and the 3rd week i just had enough yea i was puking blood and the chemo just sucked as usual but i wasnt having this so i prayed again but not little god help me prayers i prayed big heavy chocodile tear prayers it was late monday by that thursday i was doing a little better, just a little by friday id stopped puking blood and i got to come home again sunday allthough i go back to the hospital later today and everyday until my doctor says which is going to suck but i know god will keep me safe. p.s- im watching news right now. a 5 year old girl was killed by her father with a knife lastnight from what the news is saying. please pray for her spirit and for her family, most of all her father..."Mark 10:14 ' suffer the little children who come unto me"

many people struggle with depression, me being one of them. sometimes i think my life is terrible, but then i think of jesus and what he went through and remember that my life is nothing compared to his pain and the love he gave for me - for everyone. this is for god. IN HIM by April written april 9th 2009 In His blood I am made clean All of my pain and scars are gone In His eyes I am perfect in everyway though I sin and am a hypocrite though I think I am never going to be good enough His love guides me In His hands I am held and am forever his precious child.

Please pray for the 4 slain officers of washington state. A man walked into a Forza in tacoma wa and shot 4 officers in the head, he was later shot and killed, but these officers were well known in my community and all worked in my school at different times. They all had children and families. Please pray for them and their families in this now tragic christmas season. Pray that god be with them i this difficult time.

I agree. I love to write and desciption is key. Background sets the scene and puts the reader in it, but knowing the family and their background lets the reader feel like he/she is part of the situation, lets the reader dive deep into the story and problems. I'd love to read more though! Great start!!

First of all, hi everyone, i'm new here. This is my first post, but in my mind is very important to me. I was saved when I was about 8 years old, or at least I think I was. Now I am 20 and I don't believe I was actually changed by the lord. I don't think I understood anything about salvation then, or what i was actually doing when i was with the preacher and asked the Lord to be saved. So therefore now i feel like i am not saved. That being said..I also realize I am a sinner..I have an addiction i would rather not mention on this board.. and i know that the only way i can be rid of it is through Jesus. I can't do it own my own. But the most important thing is that I need to get saved. I go to church every sunday and lately i have been feeling like the Lord is trying to get me to get saved..Or at least thats how i am feeling. I have prayed several times asking the Lord to save me, and confessed that i am a sinner, yet i still dont "feel" saved. I guess what i mean is that i don't feel changed by the Lord. I believe every single word of the Bible. I believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins. But sometimes I get these thoughts in my head trying to tell me its not true or something. I feel bad for even thinking them because i know in my heart it is true. I think its the devil trying to bring me away from God. I also feel awful and guilty for the sins that i commit every single day..I just feel like i am letting God down and hurting him..yet i do it anyway..i guess im just lost and need help So my question to anyone here who can answer me is..am i saved? or is something missing..because i feel like something is missing even though i have prayed many times asking the Lord to save me..I don't know what to do..someone please give me some advice on this..i would greatly appreciate it..Thank you everyone! Lost, I am young and may notbe in the position of giving advise because of being young, but from my perspective I see that I am alot like you. I get that "feeling" alot, like somehow I'm not doing something right. I can tell you that the "feeling" is nothing to be ashamed of, it happens to the best of us. I can tell you however, that God is with you, everytime you pray to him he is there with you hand on your shoulder telling you it is not your fault that these feelings grip you the way they do. It is all in your faith as the others have said. He will rid you of those feelings IN HIS TIME. Just be patient, I have been in your shoes Sir and I know that feeling--atleast that one-- and I know it takes a long time to get over the grip of it but I can promise you, relief will come!