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And Lord Thank You...For You Are Alive!!! Raised from the dead...and Alive!!! You do not change...You are the same yesterday, today and forever...and for that I'm very grateful...When I was unsaved, I needed desparately something or Someone that was Constant...I found Everything I Ever Needed in You, Jesus!!! In You Alone...I know we need other people etc. etc. but under the most profound circumstances I have kept my eyes on Jesus...and He has provided every need...every need...I'm in Awe!!! And I Thank You Lord That Your Word Is True...Every Word...and I suppose this is the place to say this: It's been bouncing around...Time to capture that thing... I wondered about Preachers and How They Could Say The Things They Said...And do the things they did...It was like they had Something or Someone... I didn't have...I didn't know...and I wanted it real real real bad...But keep in mind...I was listening to Preachers that walked in the Anointing...and believed in Healing...and I looked around at all the sick folk...and then my daddy called me...The call that changed my life...I went after The Anointing and The Healer With a Reckless Abandon...With Everything In Me...and found out The Truth...It is for Today!!! For Jesus Is The Same Yesterday, Today and Forever!!! Today...He is The Same as He Was Yesterday... Remember I was 28 when I was saved and had been to maybe one Vacation Bible Class when I was 12...so not really raised in church at all period...Whew...Ok...I agree...Not all believe...I won't defend it anymore...I've walked in it...Exactly what The Bible says we can have...Paid a Price...and still paying the price...surrendering all...but believing this verse with everything in me: 1John 2:6 He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked. Where did He walk? He healed the sick...He cast out devils...etc. etc. I wanted not just what The Preachers had...but where and as my Jesus walked...To walk as my Jesus walked...How do I get that? There are too many sick folk that can't afford what it costs in money to get well...And there will come a day when Jesus and His Healing Will Be What Will Be Needed...Already is really...Have I ever laid hands on someone for healing and they were healed...Yes!!! Only after having the experience of a lifetime that was real and Divine...God still sends His Holy Spirit To Baptise us...If we want it and if we go to any length to get it...I'm not special...God saw my heart...

What a Blessing... Having a child changed my life forever...God saw fit that I had my first and only child to term at a very old age...She's 9 now and beautiful!!! Do you know I truly believe that I will continue to buy wipes til the day I die...even now...I love them!!! They clean everything... Golden Eagle this is so good!!!

God has used a billboard advertising some food and got something across to me, a secular song on the radio, and it dawns on me, a Donkey to save a prophet. What we are talking about though is going after what half our brothers and sisters are never taught, nor understand. We have pastors combing there extensive libraries finding sermons to preach, and being prepared is great, and I am sure using your notes do apply, but most the time I have prepared, did my notes the Holy Spirit changed it, and now I have to teach with no notes, and just hope I can find the scriptures I hear, and speak as I listen. That is the point I am trying to make, the anointing and the gifts make a big difference in ones life, as opposed to not having them. Can God use someone without them being filled with the Holy Spirit, of course he can, but what greater use to have that anointing. You are missing my point. Charles Stanley does not believe the gifts are for today, yet he preaches a strong message into the hearts of many as they walk with Christ. He is just one of many who God uses who do not believe in the operations of the gifts. The point is, if they are in His will, who are we to talk them down or try to correct them. Are they not His children and does He not move in them as He pleases? Or do you believe they are not saved and do nto rely on Him? Ok...I'm still laughing at Citizenship's comment...Hahaha...Wait a minute...Ok maybe now...Ok...I'm scrolling down...That little man (I mean that little face)...Whew...God...You are good... I knew God would make a way...and you know, Onelight...that God has quickened me on something that I have remained silent about...until now...I want to thank you for deleting a post a while back...I'm sorry...I was too upfront with someone...(someone that was too new) went back to find it later and it was gone...and The Holy Spirit checked me big time...Please forgive me... I wanted to comment on something about Charles Stanley...I'm not a biographer or autobiographer...which ever it is...Hahaha...so I don't know certain things of course...but this I do know...When I was not saved and broke down in my workplace...(God had just made sure that a Christian man had just been hired before my breakdown...He is Amazing) so I only remember one thing he said: Don't you know that God loves you...I told him I didn't know that...and then his relatively new wife...Beautiful couple!!! Told me about Christian Radio...we had a station that I could listen to...Wow...That was the beginnings...a very long time ago...I do not know if at that time, Charles Stanley did believe in The Gifts...but I think he did...because I did see him on tv...one time...in more recent history where I heard him talking about how he didn't believe In The Gifts anymore...anyway...(not an autobiographer though...Hahaha) back to the point...When I was listening to Christian Radio there were 3 preachers...only 3 that I listened to faithfully...(1) Charles Stanley...(2) The preacher that had "Through The Bible" (can't remember his name-but I can still hear his voice-Wow) and (3) R.W. Schambach!!! "You don't have any problems-all you need is Faith In God"...I can still hear that today...Hahaha...Now I had no idea what "religion" any of them were...They never said...ever...that I remember...so this is what God used to bring me to desiring "The Gifts" there came a time on the radio when every one of those preachers were talking about The Gifts of The Holy Spirit...every one of them...and what was so impressed upon my heart was that I was sure they didn't know each other...I was sure they lived in different parts of the country...and How Could They All At The Same Time Be Talking About The Holy Spirit and His Gifts...and then...on that same radio station...There were Churches that were talking about they were having Holy Spirit Rallies...Oh my...LIke wow...I'm going...so here we are...many years later...being the mess I still am...Hahaha...There is one thing for sure that I have not given up on...(I give up easy...My daughter is my biggest cheerleader...Go mom go...Hahaha) Anyway...For some reason...I have this thing in me...I refuse to believe that God doesn't give gifts to us For Him To Use Through Us... Oh I've been reading some posts too that just popped up...That is so true...We Don't Follow Men...We Follow Jesus...Lead and Guided By The Holy Spirit-That Brings Us Into All Truth...and even this that I just read In The Doctrines I recieved when I joined the church...even they recognize that others recognize that they seem to believe that The Gifts are Brought Way Out...at the expense of salvation etc...but even the doctrine acknowledges that in the end and (In my opinion) that the balance is there...It's amazing...maybe its the opposition that brings out the fight for it...anyway...I just know this too: Not directed at anybody and being the kind of person that gives up real fast on things...If something doesn't work pretty soon...then why try? But when God sends His Spirit in Baptism...There is no doubt!!! There is no question...There is no argument...That's what happened to me...and just like my Pastor said...24/7/365...and I've got too...He is on my Mind...He is In My Heart...He Is Before My Eyes...He is...oh my He Is!!! Whew... Yeah.. sparks are flying everywhere. You'd better ... ... if you don't want to get scorched. Citizenship...Thank you for this...Hahaha...But you know me...I'm running right into The Fire!!! Oh dear... Love everybody In Him, Kathy

Can you hear the sound? Iron Sharpening Iron...My goodness...Wow

Steven...Yes, we can Hope Together... ...Looking for that Glorious Day!!! In the meantime...Lead and Guide us, O God, I pray...In The Name of Jesus...My my...

Steven...One more thing...It's not time yet to go Home...I want to be with Him more than anything right now!!! But not yet...so I go with Him in prayer...I yield my whole self to Him...He is more real to me than some people...Lord, Show us who we are In You...Love you In Him...Kathy

Steven... I know exactly what you are saying...

Steven, I want to say this...I'm sorry if I mispelled your name before...And I want to say this real strong...I do not want you to move not one iota...from The Place God Has Called You To...But I want you to understand that God calls us individually to the place where He wants us to be...He may not want you in the same place He wants me to be in...and this is all based on if we answer the call and obey...And remember this too: No one person knows it all...It takes all of us...Now Lord...Please Help me...I ask...In The Name of Jesus... :broken_heart: He heals our broken hearts... Yes Lord...You are so good...and You did quicken my spirit with this response...Myself, not being even as good a Bible Scholar as you, Steven...Not Stephen-I'm sorry...This I understand by The One Spirit that Indwells me...There is a drawing first...By The Holy Spirit...(even just a person in the grocery store that says Jesus Loves You...you know some of us won't go to church for a very long time) so then we have this beginning of wondering: Who is Jesus? So then we start wondering if we can find out about Him in The Bible...or if we should go to a church...So we are being drawn by The Holy Spirit...The Holy Spirit Follows the instruction of Our Lord...Because Our Lord is Praying for Us Right Now To The Father...Standing In The Gap For Us-While We Are On This Earth...He Prays For Us... Is it true we are made in His Image? Yes...The Bible says we are...And did not Our Lord Come As A Baby? Yes He Did...Does The Bible say that we at first are on milk? (While we are learning of this new way of life) and did not Paul say it was time for meat? I'm testifying of my own experience...I wanted more...I wanted a piece of steak...Not milk...Also If I have a piece of cake...Do I want more? Sometimes I do...Sometimes I want the whole cake...(ok...just a metaphor...I won't eat the whole cake...But I want The Whole of What God Has For me) so is the same with Wanting More which is Seeking...Our Bible also says: Our God looks at the desire of our heart...and Our God is a rewarder to those that diligently seek Him... I have heard the teaching of: We all are given a measure of faith...Not to mixed up with: We are only given a little of The Holy Spirit...I have seen also Eph. 4:7 But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ's gift. Not to be mixed up with a little of The Holy Spirit... In totality of the best understanding I can give at this time...No, we aren't filled-with just a little-when Baptised With The Holy Spirit...(He is a He...A Whom...A Person) It has been my experience...Of course all this follows salvation...But When The Baptism of The Holy Spirit...When He Comes In...He gives To The Uttermost...Mark 1:8 "I indeed baptized you with water, but He (Jesus) will baptize you with the Holy Spirit." Eph 4:4-6 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling; 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6 one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all. NKJV Love, Steven I can so understand how it looks and I understand the fear of the Baptism of The Holy Spirit...Holy Ghost...interchangeable words...they mean the same thing...Having been one that did not have...and then one that does...like I've already said...Don't move not one iota from where God has called you to... I will though explain a little more of my understanding...that is what is so beautiful about understanding...we are brothers and sisters and need to be able to talk to each other...to gain more understanding... It was of the utmost importance that I learn that scripture teaches us with other scripture too...along with Our Pastor and all our brothers and sisters....and anything else The Lord so chooses to send our way...but I didn't understand that for a very long time-that scripture teaches us with other scripture...and then a miracle happened...(Has happened 2 times now) A specific Bible was given to me out of nowhere!!! Another words...I wasn't asking...I wasn't expecting a New Bible...and my my...The first one...New King James Version...that takes every verse that has a cooresponding verse and gives it...And the other was a Study Bible...Wow...Is all I can say...It explains alot... Steven...My New King James Version Bible gives Eph. 4:4-6 like this: The verse in green that follows...explains it better... verse 4- There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling; (Rom. 12:5) verse 5- one Lord, (1 Cor. 1:13) one faith, (Jude 3) one baptism; (Heb.6:6) verse 6-one God and Father of all, who is above all, and (Mal. 2:10) through all, and in you (us) all. (Rom. 11:36) And then this is what my Study Bible says about Eph. 4:4-6 Ephesians 4:4-6 indicates that true unity must rest upon a biblical bedrock of shared beliefs, so unity may not always be possible when there is strong disagreement over essential doctrines. Yet even in disagreement, we can maintain a spirit of unity by praying for one another, refraining from gossip and avoiding worthless arguments. And always remember...we can agree (on the basics: Jesus Death, Burial and Ressurection etc. etc.) without being divided spiritually...We are a new Creation In Christ...Whew... Loving ya'll always In Him, Kathy

I love it when this happens...Peacemaker Lord God of Heaven and Earth Please forgive me as I forgive others and myself at times we know not what we do... Please Draw Your Children Into Your Kingdom... In The Name of Jesus, I pray... Loving you In Him, Kathy

Father...I Pray...Put The Desire For You...for All of You...In us...Let Us Seek You With Our Whole Heart...Let Us Find You, I Pray...In The Name of Jesus...For You Are LIfe...You Are Love...You Are Hope...There are so many more books that weren't written because then Our Bible Would So Big We Wouldn't Be Able To Pick It Up...Even What We Have Was Divinely Inspired Through Some Men Who Loved You Very Much! How Do We Reach You from Earth? How Do We Reconnect To You, Our Creator, When We Were So Separated? By Going After You With Everything In me...There was one Divine Spark...just one is all it takes...Desire!!! For me...I couldn't bear it when my daddy called me sick...or the woman in the grocery store that had no hope that her daughter could be healed...Not even the possiblility...I refused that (kind of thinking) when My Bible told me that I was joint heir with Christ...that the Same Spirit That Raised Jesus From the Dead Lives In me...It's all in there...I had to learn also (as a metaphor) that there is Life inbetween the black and white words...In order to find more...I stepped out in faith...against everything my family ever believed...I had to step where I had never been before...Was I afraid? Oh my...There are no words...My beliefs had to change-In Order to Find Truth...And in going through all this I had to believe above all else that His Word Was True...That He Would Not Leave me or Forsake me...I'm just testifying...I'm not saying everyone can or will or desire or even believe that there is a Baptism In The Holy Ghost...Thank You for 2 Baptisms!!! Thank You, Lord. Our Lord Is Alive...and in full operation today...Saving The Lost...Healing The Sick...Helping The Poor and The Widows...Opening Deaf Ears and Blind Eyes...Changing Lives and Hearts...Whew...Through Some Men (and Women) Who Love You (Lord) Very Much!!! Now for my life...full circle...Given (The Bible-to us-through some men who loved Him (God) very much)...Received (by us)...Now Given Again (by us to others)...My my...This thread does not stop giving me Revelation!!! Loving you In Him...Kathy

Brother Mike...Come out from under that rock...We need you!!! Hahaha...and you know that our Brother Wigglesworth is a brother from another mother!!! I've read 9 Books...of his sermons, etc...My, my what a man after God's own Heart... NeedYouLord: Smith Wigglesworth: 1908

Oh Brother Mike...so agree with what you wrote...If I could just take ya'll to church with me this morning...See this is the proof I spoke about earlier...Preach The Gospel and The Gospel Happens...Something has happened to my Pastor...I think it's because I'm being taught and The Holy Spirit is Indwelling Mightily The Word!!! My Pastor was on fire this morning!!! Preaching Jesus Heals!!! Called for the hurting that needed healing come up to the altar...I ran to the altar...The Power that came out of him almost knocked me down...My body is brand new again...My my...and then the man in the wheelchair...not sure (an accident)...we were to pray for him...I know he has the faith to come up out of that wheelchair!!! I touched the lady in front of me that had her hands on him...my hands were on fire!!! Whew...That's what I'm talking about...How? On my face before God for a very long time...in the quiet secret place...It just proves the other part that has been spoken about...Do you know that we are actually crying and yearning for The Work of The Holy Spirit...upon the earth...so many of us need Him!!! Whew... I just want to add something...and this was so hard for me to understand at first...see us humans are very vain...we think its all about us...But it isn't...It's all about Him...We were really made for His Good Pleasure!!! Indwell me, Lord...For Your Purpose and Glory!!! Wow... My my...I'm just listening to a song on youtube that has just opened my heart and laid me bare before Him...In Awe...The words: I've got a river of Life flowing out of me...Makes the lame to walk and makes the blind to see... NeedYouLord Stephen truly seeks, is open, and praise God for him. Let us each go deeper into the things of Christ, the Power of the anointing and understand what each of us can walk in, according to the graces of God. Jesus Is Lord Loving you In Him, Kathy

I'm catching up and just couldn't wait any longer...I haven't even read what is above me right now...I have to share-that in my prayer time...which is just about without ceasing...(only because I can pray in tongues...In The Spirit) well there is now a revelation given to me (yesterday)...enlightenment...there are things that we can know by knowledge (head knowledge) and then there is enlightenment given by God By His Spirit...Oh my...Help me, Lord...Whew...For me...It's when I can "see" it...In my spirit...God is in Heaven, Jesus on His Right Hand...The Holy Spirit on the earth with us...given to us...A Comforter that leads and guides us into all Truth...He speaks now to us-through our "born again" spirit...only giving Witness to Jesus and what He said or says (He is Alive...Jesus is Alive) This is what I could see...Just as Jesus, when He was on the earth...would do nothing except what was given Him by The Father...Whew...I am in Awe and OverWhelmed Right Now...This thread has taken an Almighty Good Turn for me...Oh Dear I have to finish this...Hahaha...Well The Holy Spirit will do nothing unless told to do it...WOW...Is all I can say...I knew that but The Holy Spirit enlightens and I'll say this too: He loves it when we give Him Glory!!! and then turns around and gives a seeking heart some more meat to chew on....Oh my my... I've heard it said like this before by a man that God has Indwelled Mightily For His Glory...Preach the Gospel and The Gospel will happen...My my Now...I just want to share this...Stephen...This was the most beautiful post I have ever read that you wrote...and I apologize for not being able to get to the very end...but when the thread had to be stepped into to bring some peace well I kinda stopped right there...but I had grabbed this one... We will give an account, let every man be fully persuaded in that which he does, or allows and it is work for the Kingdom and pleasing to God. We work out our own safety, healing, protection, walk with God, (Salvation) before the Lord. Let not my faith in one thing condemn another, nor their faith overshadow what the lord has revealed to me, and condemn me. All done to his Glory, whatever that is done. There is so much I don't Know Steven, just when I think I know, I only know a little, and may God gives us Grace, and wisdom concerning all things. your blessed Brother!!! Your writings since I first seen have shown more and more maturity in the Lord, I hope all of us follow after that example, always learning, always listening, always seeking. Jesus is Lord. Thank you for the blessing Mike... As all of us are in the last of days-> which means little time left to gather for Our Lord His Glory due Him... Soon we who are born of Him shall see His Face - He will be so beautiful to me... The One Who never sinned, the Holy Lamb of God, The Holy One of Israel, Lord of Lord and King of Kings, Our Friend... I want Him so much to come and get us but help me to be busy while I'm yearning!!! Love, Steven Lord...We are each one in Your Loving Care...Do with us as You Will...I Pray In The Name of Jesus...Thank You Lord...For This Thread Is For Your Glory and Will Allow Your Truths...I Thank You Right Now For You Have Given Us A Comforter...That Leads and Guides Us Into All Truth...Thank You That You Have Given Me Different Kinds of Tongues...That You Can Use Anytime, Anywhere...and Thank You for The Wisdom That You Have Given Also the Interpretation of those...To Another However You Have Given The Gift of Interpretation For The Church As A Whole...Thank You That You Gave That Gift to My Pastor... Loving My Lord and My God and His Children Always and Forever...And Draw Your Children, O God, I Pray...

Love Songs...You are not alone...So many times I've reached that place too...Wanting to give up but knowing I can't...There is nothing to go back to...If I go back...well that is surely death for me...I'll smoke and drink myself to death...or something...That I know for sure...because if I were to ever start again...I wouldn't stop... And I can't see the future...So I'm stuck...Can't go back to my past-and can see no Hope for my future...This is an amazing place to be...Actually the very best place I could ever be as A Child of God...I've said over and over I'm a big fat mess...and I am just that...and one day I heard The Lord (Actually The Holy Spirit Who Says What The Lord Says) say in my spirit...Yes, and you are My mess...well...what is a girl to do? I fell in Love With The One Who Saved me...and His Name is Jesus... So far...and notice...we aren't finished yet...at least I know this...I'm not through growing and learning...I'm still like a little child...most of the time-anyway...and I've come to this conclusion that helps me now alot...We are really Citizen's of Heaven living in a fallen world...and the fallen world is yukky!!! So we have this profound experience (born again) and are born into The Kingdom of God...living on this earth in His Light!!! But it's dark all around us...(Believe me...lots of my old beliefs had to go...I had to get new ones...Like I depend on My King...The King of the Kingdom and He takes care of me...Now I have no worry...I still have to do what is put in front of me...etc. etc. But My King is Responsible for me...That takes alot of the burden off!!!) Now I KNOW I can go through anything that is thrown at me...I've done it too many times...I also have lived this: Anything I try to do for God...Anything...Is met with an opposition like you wouldn't believe...I've had my printer break down just so I couldn't print something that had The Word of God on it...and then the next minute there is nothing wrong with the printer when I wasn't printing that particular thing...Tell me there isn't something trying to shut down The Word of God getting out!!! Well I've let it stop me several times...I'm done with that!!! The Lord gives me something to do...It's His Job to make sure it gets done!!! Now...Here is something that has taken years...like the very first inkling of it all was over 20 years ago...I have waited...I have prayed...I have cried and begged...I have been in debt and I don't like it...There are things that need fixing around this house...I'm a stay at home, mom...I need to bring in some money while I still homeschool my daughter...Oh dear...It seems as if everything is crumbling right now...so you aren't alone...Love Songs...but I want to tell you this: In God's Time...In God's Time...Not in my time...He started preparing me, literally... for what is trying to come to pass...He is doing a new thing in my life...All my Hope In Him...All the praying and crying...all my waiting...and it may seem like nothing for someone else...but to see this unfold is nothing but miraculous to me...Seek Him, Love Songs...He will give you the desires of your heart...Just make sure and check your heart to see what is in it...because He looks at our heart...if unbelief and yukky is in it...well...I truly believe that is what we get...I've lived it... Be Still and Know He Is God...Whew...and He Loves Us!!! No matter what is going on!!! He Still Loves Us!!!

And I inquire of The Lord...and He gives me Acts 5:24 and I say, Lord...This has nothing to do with this topic..and then again...in the flesh...I am in prison...There is no freedom...For Wherever The Spirit of The Lord Is There Is Liberty...2. Cor. 3:17 Then I just need to look this up...Strong's: "liberty...2 Cor. 3:17" to free us from bondage...Not to bring us again into bondage but Jesus came to set us free FROM what we were born into...(when we were born into this world). Acts 5:24...Now when the high priest, the captain of the temple, and chief priests heard these things, they wondered what the outcome would be. (This is where...starting Acts 5:12: Through the hands of the Apostles, many signs and wonders were being done-Gifts of the Holy Spirit) believers were increasingly added...and the high priest rose up (a sect of the Sadducees) and all those that were with him...filled with indignation...laid hands on The Apostles and put them in prison...the Angel of the Lord opened The Door...so when the officers reported that they (the Apostles) were no longer in the prison...well this is where Acts 5:24 comes in...now the believers had gained in number...and the captain and officers brought them without violence because they (the officers) might get stoned!!! (People that know deep down that they are talking through their hat...are just waiting to get stoned) My my...then they were set before the council...saying: Didn't we command you not to teach in This name...you are going to bring this Man's blood on us!!! but Peter and the other Apostles answered and said: Acts 5:29We ought to obey God rather than men...and then they spoke that The God of their fathers had raised up Jesus Whom they had murdered by hanging on a tree...(This Man) God has exalted to His right hand to be Prince and Savior, to give repentance to Israel and forgiveness of sins. and Acts 5:32 And we are His witnesses to these things, and so also is the Holy Spirit Whom God has given to those who obey Him... Religion and Doctrine, I truly believe, have their place...They help us understand a little better...However; there is one scripture that says that pure and undefiled religion before God and The Father is visiting the widows and orphans in their trouble and to keep oneself unspotted from the world...James 1:27 My problem was: I was missing some of the Bible...believing as my grandmother believed...or at least what I perceived she believed...(I will reinterate that it is lack of teaching, lack of understanding and/or fear, that keeps many from exploring the possibilities of everything God is...and gives) and remember I didn't start with church...At 28...I had been to one vacation Bible School at the age of 12...(God was drawing me even then) but at 28, I had an experience where I was going to die without Him...and I came to Believe!!! Then I started really exploring and believing...well, then my grandmother had something to say-mainly out of fear...(All the time growing up if anyone asked me what was my religion-I put down what my grandmother said she was) but she never really taught me anything about what she believed...she kept all quiet about it all... But when I was Baptised In The Holy Spirit...The initial physical evidence is speaking in an unlearned language...I have experienced as Botz explained it so well!!! And here are some things too that I have experienced and if someone has said this already I guess it bears repeating...Hahaha...All believers are entitled to receive the baptism in the Holy Spirit, and therefore should expect and earnestly seek the promise of the Father, according to the command of our Lord Jesus Christ. The baptism in The Holy Spirit was the normal experience of all believers in the early Christian church. With the experience comes the provision of power for victorious Christian living and productive service. It also provides believers with specific spiritual gifts for more effective ministry (Luke 24:49; Acts 1:4,8; 1Cor. 12:1-31). The Baptism in The Holy Spirit is separate from salvation, and follows the new birth experience (Acts 8:12-17, 10:44-46; 11:14-16, 15:7-9) With this baptism come such experiences as an overflowing fullness of the Spirit (John 7:34-39; Acts 4:8), a deepened reverence for God (Acts 2:43; Hebrews 12:28), an intensified commitment to God and dedication to His work (Acts 2:42) and a more active love for Christ, for His Word, and for those who have not yet become believers (Mark 16:20). I am so grateful it takes what it takes...I'm so grateful I didn't die before I got my miracle...I deep down wanted what I started learning about-in The Holy Bible...Desiring The Things of God...There is a verse that says: God will give us the desires of our heart...What do we really desire? It will show-whatever it is...And there is something to it about coming to God as a little child...God, I know nothing...I am nothing without You...Please, may I Walk In Your Spirit and not my flesh...My my...Please, lead and guide me into all Truth... Something else I want to bring up...Up above I have taken some of what was written from the 16 doctrines of one particular "religion"...and there is not one bit of it that is "way out there"...It is every bit Biblical and gives scripture to back it up...And it includes the entire Bible...doesn't leave out parts of it...In closing finally...I so desire that you obtain the desire of your heart...In The Name of Jesus...

How about this one Kathy? God bless! This is beautiful, Golden...Thank you!!! See there I just knew I was a fashionista...Now my picture matches the color of my words!!! Oh my...This is Heaven...I just knew it... Thank you Brother... you too are so Loved by us all ! may God sharpen your humor ....enoob Lord, I'm so grateful...for my brothers and sisters...LoveSongs-I'm still praying too... I'd like to get under that sentiment myself ... Wow...The things that can be done...Steven...You never cease to amaze...Wow

Hahaha...Just seeing laughter is making me laugh!!! And I love what you said, Love Songs...and your avatar is so beautiful...Our God loves us to sing to Him!!! Whew... Love you In Him, Kathy

I found out who done it!!! Yeah...I really came to say Thank You and Heaven is Beautiful!!! What I'm not really there...are you sure??? Hahaha...I just made myself laugh... Golden...Thank you, again and again...I know I wasn't very pretty before...what being gray and all...And I really don't ask for much...But Royal Purple is my favorite...Do you have that color on your pallot? Oh dear not sure if that's how you spell it...Hahaha...I'll wait forever you know...It builds my character... Some of us are still so funny!!! (Steven) ducking... Love ya'll in Him!!! Kathy

Whew...Amen...Stephen...And Semper...You have just made my heart leap with Joy!!! Wow...

It is so amazing to me again how God uses things for His Glory...One of the stepping stones He used for me to get to Him was AA...and what Gary said is true... Lord, I'm also grateful to learn now that there is a such a thing as Celebrate Recovery...Thank You!!!

Of course I forgot one thing...How do I forgive?...I heard this from a preacher and it helped me...and I need all the help I can get...it takes a little bit of thinking about it all...but I found that for me this is the truth...This is how I deal with unforgiveness and forgiveness. He pictured unforgiveness like this: What happens is: we think the person we can't forgive owes us a big ol' debt...and it's so big...in reality there is nobody that can pay that... What I do is figure that the only way I can forgive them is if they pay me a Billion Dollars...see they have hurt me or somebody close to me that much!!! So I set out to have this unattainable price of forgiveness... Well they can't pay that...and no matter what they do...if I continue in not forgiving them...the debt just gets bigger and bigger...Another words...I am setting up something that nobody can pay.. Well I'm in a mess now...I can't forgive them and they can't pay... So here is the solution: And it is just what Jesus did for us in going to The Cross...He paid that debt!!! And now...the person's debt has been paid...I can't hold it against them anymore...I forgive them the debt...They don't owe me anything and I forgive them like Jesus did me...He forgave me...when I asked...He forgave me...it's really like a great metaphor of it all...but in the sound mind God has given me...It was just what I needed...in order to understand it better.... Love you In Him, Kathy

Semper...First of all...Thank You for Serving Our Country...My heart just is bursting with love for the men and women that are so led to serve in our Military...Oh dear ...talk about tears right now...Wow...Whew...anyway...Thank You!!! And I'm so very proud that you will get to experience being a daddy...Just going by memory now because I'm not sure where it is...but I think I responded to you talking about ya'll are going to have a baby!!! God knows exactly what He is doing and what you wrote about your sister is so very good...She is helping others that have gone through the same thing...I truly believe God takes and turns around things...have to have people praying though...I truly believe that too...I've heard the testimony of a very well known Preacher in this country that was a product of rape (or so it is thought)...and his mother was going to abort him...but didn't...The good he has done is amazing...But I know that all of us aren't going to be Preachers but you get my point... I've used writing down my feelings and thoughts so many times it is amazing...And it helps me beyond belief...Some letters I wrote to people and then had to tear them up after I got it all out of me...Hahaha...It just couldn't stay in there any more!!! Hahaha...Had to come out into The Light...so to speak...then I just started imagining carrots were up their nose!!! (During the time I was having trouble) I'm fixing to say this: You will know the time and when the time is right to write this man...(I also agree to abiding by the decision of your sister in not telling of her daughter) I just have to tell you something that happened to me (rather someone in my family)...(and you can substitute the word rape and the circumstance-because the result could have been the same) instead of getting raped...of course my husband didn't get raped...but this is about something that happened to him...and what I did about it... My husband had taken a part-time job as a taxi driver to make extra money...had been doing it quite a while...well one night he was held at gun point...robbed...and then shot at...I could have been a widow with a one year old...and my husband could have been dead...so it was like that man had raped me...if you will...and I won't go into detail how it came all over me to pray for my husband that night and how I could see Angels around him in that taxi being protected...my my...anyway...well at first I went through all the normal emotions...and if I could have gotten my hands on the robber (perpetrator) at one point...but no...that's how I used to live...so now I'm filled with Peace...I forgive right away...(oh I have to practice that one on a regular basis) but God Still Loves me...no matter what...He still loves me...and He created me...and my daughter...and your niece and your daughter to be...and my 2 nieces...oh and He created the man that shot at my husband and the man that raped your sister...God how can You love them? "Because they know not what they do..." So that means they need prayer...they need help so they will know what they do... I sat down with a piece of paper and a pen...Knowing I had to tell the man what he didn't know...yet I started telling him about His God...about how he had to be brought to justice...because he almost made me a widow...I started telling him everything that was in me...and most of it was in LOVE...that I hoped that He would ask forgiveness...I wrote all this before he was even captured!!! The man had been doing things for years and had never been caught!!! The thing that caught him was the very next taxi cab driver he robbed!!! and shot in the leg!!! The man chased him down calling the police at the same time...You know what my prayer is: one day he will be on a Christian website and I'll get to talk to him...Wow...Well I wrote and rewrote the letter...God had by then put some good stuff in me...(He knows how) but I have to Seek Him and desire Godly things... I had a picture of the perpetrator on the fugitive website...so then I could see him from afar...and then came the day of the trial...my husband and I went...I was armed with a letter...from my heart...they said they really didn't need us to testify etc...so I handed the Assistant District Attorney my only weapon...the letter...and I told him how important it was that the man get the letter...he said he would make sure...I left it all in God's Hands...If God wanted the man to read the letter...He would make sure of it...In that I was fully confident...It was a good letter...I felt as if God, Himself, had entered in and was writing to this man that didn't know Him yet...Amazing... I'll pray for you because I have found that...Prayer helps all things... Father...I pray for Semper...In The Name of Jesus...that he be led and guided into All Truth...that You make a way for him to resolve the feelings he has and fill him with Peace...Your Peace...Your Truth...Fill him up, Lord...with Yourself...because You are so good!!! and because You have given him a life that is beyond imagination...A Life In You!!! Make him the best daddy and uncle ever!!! And Your Will Be Done Above All...Use us Lord to Help Others, I Pray...In The Name Above Every Name...Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ of Nazareth...It's soon Your Birthday, Jesus...I Love You!!!

This is a most intriguing something that happened today...I know I'm simple and not a scholar...but why would this just come to my mind today...oh it was while we were having Science today during Homeschool... All of a sudden I could see this truth...When Jesus was on the Cross and the soldier pierced His side and out came water and Blood... I told my daughter...If you were to pierce your skin; before blood would come out you would see water...(You know if not too much of a cut etc.) Anyway...I could see it clear as day...It proves Jesus was human...Oh my

I love that we are wonderfully made...and that God made it so that we would have to be together because He won't give us all the same things (revelations) all at the same time...I just love Him!!! And I love it that I need us!!! All of us... Some of us have to have it like pop -corn... Some of us have it as the most elegant 5 course meal at the Wilshire... Some of us start out eating popcorn and end up at The Wilshire...Wow...I love it when that happens...All I know right now is that...(giving all credit to the author and singer of the song...but applying these words to my faith: If I am wrong...I don't want to be right... Oopppsss...Forgot to say something: God renews our mind by the Washing of The Word (All the while He is trying to get us to The Wilshire...Hahaha...Ya'll know I'm using this as a figure of speech...His Word Is Alive and Changes Us!!! We gave the world and all it's cares so much of our life...Let's give God some now!!! He is the One that wonderfully made us...and Loves Us...Let's return to our First Love...Whew...You Are So Good...Lord Love you In Him, Kathy

Amen and Amen... Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit...Romans 15:13 In The Name Above Every Name...Jesus Christ of Nazareth