Sup shoofly08. Read everything you wrote, even though, it be like, 12:30. Most my family dead or dying too. But the bible talk about death, like it not really the end, more come after that
1 Corinthians 15:42-44 “So will it be with the resurrection of the dead. The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body.” (NIV)
God will listen, when you talk to him, he say, he will grant you peace
John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (KJV)
I be praying for you and your family, and I know what you mean bout distracting, cause when it quiet, we just got our own thoughts to deal wit. but everyone here tight like family, God listen, and they listen too. some kind of weird, but they here anyway, and everybody care, keep talkin if it help.