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I watched videos on hygenists and how they do the same thing everyday and can have back issues because of being hunched over daily trying to look into someone's mouth. Eh, I'll choose an associates eventually just not sure which. Most likely sonography.

hmm-- theyre self employed?

Im not sure if i want to be a dental hygenist. I feel wary and nervous having a title like. Dr or whatever..im not Dr material lol. However, this one classmate of mine inspires me. Young, in the dental assistant program with me while simultaneously in a hygeinist program she graduates next year, lives on her own , has a small child and works weekends and does all this as a solo mom. It amazes and inspires me to just keep going.

4 more weeks. And im not sure.

Yes. I think I'll be happy there I hope I fit in. It'll be a lot of fun I can't wait.

I think youre right. Just got home from my Saturday class and I love my teachers they help me feel so confident like I can really do this and dental assiting has a long list of benefits.. I'm very glad the doors were closed to both phlebotomy and Cna because I wouldn't have been able to stand them

Thaank you all for being so positive.

This is true especially with the prosperity teachings

I definitely will. I won't give up.

Yeah. I don't regret my baby i just wish i knew what I wanted to do sooner. Ah well.

Yeah and i could only imagine those that love horror and gore movies. I was always extremely sensitive to that stuff so i avoid it at all costs even today. There's no point looking at garbage like that.

I hate it took me so long to finally find out what I wanted to major in, now that I have a kid on the way--It'll be too hard to do. I hate that the major I wanted to do requires clinicals uhg.. it just irritates me, I just wish I knew years ago that's what I wanted to do I'd be in my field already. My courses are going to lapse come 2020( it's been 5 years) and that's that. I try to find substitutes like sonography or even speech therapy, I think Id love speech therapy a lot but you need a masters in it, with sonography I keep looking on Indeed and I just see part time, per diem positions. Idk I just hate it because I keep worrying if dental assisting doesn't work out or if I can't catch on I'm just out of luck. I just felt like I missed it, missed the train. Its an in demand job and pays well and it would have been something Id love to do without a shadow of a doubt.

Lol dang.

Hmm. If God chastises me.. I wouldn't know it.. But i do feel he's very sweet to me. Sweeter than he should be...sometimes I feel God handles me with kid gloves lol

Aw. Thank you so much for your encouragement-- Yeah I'm gonna do the very best I can.

Yeah-- I'm not interested in having sex again. There are other ways you can get pregnant beside consensual sex. Rape is a thing and it happens, after this child I don't think I want another baby.

Totally agree with you. Honestly I'm still trying to understand.

I'll be able to care for him. If I was truly homeless with zero support Id most likely give him away. I was just frustrated I'm not out of my program yet and dealing with stressors.

Im defintely not. Im halfway through and im doing well.

late 20's. I'm in a dental program halfway done.

I will. I'll be super committed.

**** Also side note: kids are back over my mom brought groceries, I'm kinda in the middle of cooking dinner and the kids complained about how hungry they were and prior they ate ice cream sandwhiches(our ice cream sandwhiches) and I asked my mom earlier and she said don't give them dinner. I asked if they had food at their house they said yes..but I feel wrong teling them to go home to eat but I know for a complete fact this could never happen the other way around. I feel so disrespected.

I think I'm just going to keep him. I couldn't imagine my life without him-- I have my mom and dad for support financially and ill be out of my program ... I can do it it'll just be hard.

I know in my heart I'd never have another chance to have a child again. This baby was , well he came suddenly. Ive had horrid luck with men and honestly, children weren't even in my plan-- so I know if I gave him away I'd never have another chance. Guys don't see me as anything other than a good friend..or a good time.. I'm starting to accept that I'm probably most definitely called to singleness bc despite trying to find a nice decent guy it just doesn't work out. I'm getting older and I don't believe I'll be married. Besides that, even though this pregnancy wasn't a hassle I'm not doing this again, when I can afford to I may have my tubes tied or something because one is enough for me. However, I love my child-- I feel like he'll be the only thing I have that's worth something if that makes sense.

Yeah this is very true. I love my baby a lot. I just went through some bags of diapers we have for him and I just kinda held them opened and smiled bc I can't wait to use them. But yeah God knows what is best, It will be excruciatingly hard but this baby is for me. Thanks for bringing me back to reality.