Figure of eighty

9 minutes ago, Marilyn C said:

I can imagine with work, kids, shopping, cooking, cleaning etc everyday life can be overwhelming. May I suggest you read the Psalms & when you find a phrase about God, just meditate that throughout the day.

eg. Psalm 1: 6. `the Lord knows the way of the righteous. ` God knows your busy life with all its responsibilities and He is with you throughout the day. Just keep thanking Him for your work, children, having food, being able to shop, clean etc.  

As your focus changes to thankfulness and realising that God is with you, then you will grow more confident and trust Him more. The relationship develops. 

It's so funny when I was at church last Sunday well before this one a lady that prayed for me told me to read Psalms as well so I guess I will. 

So I know I definitely need to get right with God. I just feel busy and overwhelmed with work and kids but after dealing with my mental issue I definitely feel I need to dig a bit deeper. 

I wanted to just pray and wait on God to tell me what to read. Is that OK? I really want it to apply to my life and what I'm going through now instead of just reading just anything. You know?

On 3/3/2024 at 6:39 PM, BK1110 said:

Still praying!

Thank you so much

On 2/24/2024 at 10:13 PM, Debp said:

Do your doctors know that you are continually not getting enough sleep?   No use giving you psychotropic meds if you are sleep deprived.

Once you have enough sleep, they can then properly assess your condition.

I get sleep on my off days but I still feel mentally unwell.. its odd bc I don't feel it's me. I've never felt like this before. I'm calling my GP tommorow. Part of me wonders if this is a bit of a spiritual attack as this happened a bit sudden.. 

On 2/24/2024 at 3:33 PM, Debp said:

I remember your situation from some years ago and what happened leading up to all of this.

What happened to the fathers of these children?  Are they contributing to their financial care?   They are legally obligated to do that until your children are 18 years old.

If you haven't gone after them in the court system for financial help, you should do that.   The courts would make them pay to help provide for the children.

Maybe your family thinks the fathers should be helping you.

Okay but I'm helping my family. If I help them and I'm going out of my way why wouldn't they return the favor?  I did go through courts but my kids dad quit his job so he could pay the bare minimum. He pays when he wants. Also im not a leech. I have my own place,car and job. 

42 minutes ago, deva1 said:

No contact is a good decision. Hope you are feeling a little better today .

A little. Still feel off going to fill my meds then head straight to church Sunday. 

14 hours ago, Debp said:

Your mental health is probably failing because you are not getting enough sleep.   Your brain needs sleep in order to function properly.

Praying.

True but I have to work and I have to get my kids to school. It's just me. My family won't help, even when they lived with me they didn't help they just told me to figure it out so that's what I'm doing.

2 hours ago, Retrobyter said:

 

Shabbat shalom (A Sabbath of peace) to you, Figure of eighty.

How many "family" members are with you outside of you and your kids? Why aren't they HELPING with the stressful things? Make it a rule in your house that "if they can't help, they can't stay." That may seem harsh, but then, you NEED what little sleep you can get!

Also, you might consider work during the hours your kids are at school. Working all night and then trying to function all day, too, is NOT working out for you! Can't one of your "family" members take the kids to school, instead?

You may need to delegate more of the work load to those who are doing anything right now.

GOD IS THERE! And, HE CARES VERY MUCH ABOUT YOU! You NEED to get 8 hours of sleep, perhaps more right now, until you recover from sleep deprivation. Have a family meeting and lay it all out on the table! See if they are willing to help you in some way or another. If they are, the problems may be solved. If they aren't, then they don't need to be contributing to the problems.

In short my family literally does not care. They're pretty selfish. My dad took my keys without asking me, I let my mom use my car to get to work but when I needed help she said she couldn't do it. I asked for help with a bill she only paid half of it. 

They're gone now. They left. I feel like a black sheep in my family. I asked for help with my kids when they were stay with me my dad said they're not his responsibility and I shouldn't ask him to pay anything. Needless to say I'm doing no contact

I'm at the hospital now...praying God doesn't let me go. I'm scared he doesn't care enough to help me. 

That's my worst fear.

Please keep me in your prayers. I've always struggled with anxiety but these past few days have been hard to the point I've struggled with Sui*** thoughts. 

I'm so busy with work I work from 6p to 3a at times and when I get home have to be up in 2 hrs to get my kids together for school. After all that is done I make it home by 10a and I'm so tired today I drifted in another lane. 

My family is living with me and treating me like crap and hopefully they're moving soon I just can't believe how ive been treated.. 

I'm so afraid I'll off myself. 

I said all that to say if I'm not busy I'm tired. I tried calling my GP but she doesn't have my information so I have to call my insurance but I have to wait till Monday and I'm afraid I may have been dropped. If so I'm so screwed. 

I feel I won't make it and I'm afraid God won't help me make it.

Please pray for me. I just feel like I'm going to d*e

23 hours ago, Marilyn C said:

Hi Figure of eighty,

Life is damaged but God is not about fixing it up. God is about changing us as we yield to Him.

My suggestion is that you stop complaining (which we can all find things to complain about) and start being thankful. Thank God for - your children, for life, for life in Jesus, eternal life, and food, and clothes, and being able to talk to others here etc, etc. 

Do that daily and see the difference.

Right. I will try to do that. 

On 2/21/2024 at 1:37 PM, Spock said:

Greetings 80,

I’m a bit confused on what you wrote…it sounds like you are saying you met someone who is everything you want only that person came too early…you’re not ready.  Do I have this right? 
 

if that is right, my first thought is this….would you rather have the perfect one “early”, “late”, or “never”?
 

I’ll wait to see your answer first before I go on. -S

It depends. If I can still have him then  yes but I feel bc I wasn't ready I may have messed things up.

I realize I don't have alot of holy spirit conviction in my life. 

How do I gain that?

8 minutes ago, Renskedejonge said:

She saved Jews in WWII in Holland and had to go to a concentration camp and when she came out she started to share the Gospel. She wrote some books.

Human love is often: I love you if you love me too and God's love was in that case that she just wanted the best for him, regardless if he married someone else or that you can forgive and love people who were horrible to you and normally that wouldn't be possible with your own human love.

 

Thank you got the background info on her.

On 2/16/2024 at 1:34 PM, Renskedejonge said:

Maybe some day you become friends or get the harvest in together.

Corrie ten Boom was seeing a guy and she thought they would get married, but one day he came with his new fiancee. She was not rich enough for his mother. She went to her room and was laying on her bed crying. Her dad said: You can kill the love, but then a part of you dies. Or you can give it to God and ask Him to turn it into His Love. She said that enabled her to later love the unlovable, like traitors and Nazi's.

I see people reference Corrie alot. Who is she? That story was very nice to read. Thank you. Also what does that mean turn it into his love. 

On 2/16/2024 at 2:12 PM, Jayne said:

I understand that you are anxious and nervous.  I, myself, have depression and anxiety.  I know exactly what that feels like.

I know what it's like to be afraid and alone and afraid BECAUSE you are alone.  I get it!!  Truly!!

Here's what I don't understand.  You've been here for six years.  Never have you posted a problem that you did not blame God for.

Without fail.

It's always God's fault.

I get the crappy life.  Mine is pretty much crappy.  It would never dawn on me to lay the blame at God's feet and declare that I couldn't trust him.

Unless a Godly and Christian man wishes to marry you without sex before marriage - a man is the last thing that you need.

Your primary concern until a Godly man marries you is those two babies.  You never speak of them.  You only speak of your misery.  

And blame God for it.  When He alone can help you.

 

I dont speak of my kids bc they dont cause me distress. I just vent about the things that distress me. My kids are healthy, happy and well.. still I just don't know how to trust God. I know blaming is bad but if I'm trying and doing the best I can and need a little extra help from God and help doesn't come it just creates that cycle of distrust. 

What keeps you from not blaming God? I'm genuinely wondering bc I do have an issue with this only bc God is capable. If he couldn't do everything then I would understand. 

Some people trust God easily after setbacks. I'm going through alot from possible eviction,health issues and a break up. 

My heart is so thoroughly broken. Why would God bring someone who is everything I wanted but knows I'm not ready.  I'd rather God wait yrs to bring the guy instead of show me and it's not time. I feel heartbroken and upset about everything. 

I'm anxious..and nervous.

I feel so weak because I'm not doing anymore than what others are doing. 

I'm a single mom of 2, I'm barely skating by on my job..its part time I'm seeking fulltime employment continously but I'll make it past the interviews and drug screens just to be ghosted, have a court date for eviction, then I truly feel my mental is slipping. 

I deal with intrusive thoughts that can be a bit disturbing and send me on panic and anxiety attacks. Sometimes I just feel I'm gonna succumb to schizophrenia bc im balancing everything but I have friends who've been through what I have and more who are more mentally stable. 

I'm afraid and idk what to do. I also have nightmares. 

I feel like im breaking please send prayers.

I've been saved for as long as I can remember.  I have a few experiences with God but I feel I'm missing God's conviction in my life. 

I feel I'm one of those Christians that are asleep. I also feel I have too many responsibilities to pursue God and while listening to a podcast.. for women that were on fire for God and talking about discipleship.. 

I felt in my heart I wasn't ready.... like I'm okay with giving God some pieces of my life but not everything. 

I Also feel God is far off but I know he's not. 

I feel bored reading the Bible. Praying is easier for me.. The best way I can describe this is I'm a battery thats close to being dead that needs to be recharged but I also don't want to do this lol.. 

I'm just being honest.  I definitely need a new heart. 

Advice please. 

On 11/3/2023 at 6:58 AM, ~Shalhevet~ said:

I have been having a lot of anxiety over finances lately to the point I am getting panic attacks. My husband and I both work full time and barely making ends meet sometimes. Lately all our cars have been breaking down a lot and the debt keeps piling up. Could we get some prayers please?  Thank you. 

I'm in this same situation too. Mt car batt3ry went out and my brakes are bad. Hours at work were cut. So I totally get it. Sorry you're going through it.

1 hour ago, Who me said:

Is there any particular thing or reasons for your anxiety?

Are you eating and drinking properly?  

Do think seriously  about seeking help for your anxieties,  this is not a suggestion to get drugged to your eyebrows, but for counc3lling, therapy, as has been suggested vitamin supplements and practices like meditating on biblical verses to settle and calm your mind.

Yeah. I have anxiety I'm always afraid of breaks in and stuff. I have tried therapy.. I feel the therapist wasn't much help she made me look within for answers instead of giving helpful suggestions. I may try therapy again and like someone said, melatonin to put me to sleep lol.

I feel I got what I prayed for. A place of my own for my kids and I but ... my anxiety always spikes at night. 

Idk what to do. I can't sleep. 

6 hours ago, Wayne222 said:

God works that way.

Yes. God is awesome. I'm thankful for his foresight and provision.

On 6/3/2023 at 9:46 AM, The_Patriot21 said:

I actually think the oy vey reaction should be removed. In fact, I'm not a huge fan of any of the reactions, but particularly that one.

Because quite frankly it strikes me as rude. It's basically saying to the other person "your post and it's content is stupid and you shouldn't have posted it"

And as such it really doesn't lead to productive conversation.

I agree with you about that.