jmh137

Maybe the LORD wants you to go for some reason that only he can know. Ididn't read each and evey post, so maybe someone else said this too. HE may use you when you go, to bring HIM much glory.

I want to be straight forward. I have had some very uplifting times here. Yet also it has been somewhat discouraging at times. So much so that I have left from time to time. I came here (can't remember how long exactly) because I did not have a church home (and still do not). The preachers on television were my only church. The reason I stopped going is a story that some people would not believe. So, when I hear comments like "If you don't attend a local church regularly, you are probably not in fellowship with GOD," I stop listening to whomever made the statement. Having said that I would also add that I know my relationship to HIM, should be so much better. I would never, never, never advise anyone to stop attending church. Yet, I want others to reserve their judgement in my case, because they don't know the rest of my story. In any event, one day I was praying over this issue of not having a church family, and the LORD (or at least I felt like HE) spoke to me about finding this type of avenue (Worthy Boards) to have a church family. I was so excited about it and felt that some of the guilt I had about not going to church would be lifted. I felt sure that this was the way HE was telling me that I could serve HIM. I have since wondered if I have gotten the message wrong. I have a job where I am alone and basically have no friends. I have been taken advantage of so many times that I find that the love I once had, is waxing cold. I don't want that to happen, because I know what the LORD said about our love waxing cold. This seemed like such a good idea. Just recently I felt the LORD was prompting me to come back and make a thread all my own. Although it had very little response, I was very uplifted by the people who took the time to post on it. So, that was very positive. I feel that it is very strange that someone would start a thread where I could finally say what Worthy Boards has meant to me, and I want to thank you very much. I truly want to serve the LORD in some way. I have so much guilt about not serving HIM, in light of the fact that I'm not around too many other people. But, sadly I realize that I miss so many chances to lift HIM up to others, just because I'm distracted by life and also I stand in my own way. I ask for prayer on this issue. Later.

Dad Ernie You bring to my mind a sign by the road, where I live a few years back. I know that you probably already have heard it. It goes. "What part of thou shalt not, didn't you understand?" signed: GOD GOD'S WORD is tried and true.

Thank you Openly Curious. As I was reading your post I was thinking of something I heard a preacher say one time about the true greatness, power, and love GOD has for all HIS creation. Then in the next few lines of your post you wrote exactly what I was remembering. It went something like this: "Not only did GOD look down through time as the bird swoops down to the ground, but HE made sure there was a seed there to feed the bird!" That speaks awesome love to me. Thanks again all. You have all helped me whether you realize it or not. GOD bless each and everyone of you. I don't want to omit my thankfulness to any of you, so felix, thank you for your special post. Take care all.

Azarel Star thank you so much for your uplifting post. I also want to thank the other 2 posters for taking the time to respond to my thread. I am sorry that there was not more interest in the subject. I felt like it was something common that all believers could share information about. I think it has probably taken it's course and is more or less a dead thread. It happens to me every time I try. Yet I know that, or at least I feel like the LORD wanted me to go for it, so to speak. Maybe I don't convey my points well enough. Is there a forum posting class somewhere that I should take? I obviously don't know how to do it. So, I will fade back into the woodwork until HE speaks to my heart again and I"ll come back out and go through the rejection of a failed thread again. Woe is me Ha! Ha! Take care all.

Thank you for your replies. I was hoping that there would be more, but at least someone responded. I would like for you to understand that it was about a friend and not myself. Having said that, I also want to make it clear that doubting does come upon me as it does most ( the adversary makes sure of that). The root of my reasoning for wanting input from fellow believers, was more for my own understanding and I hoped to gain needed insight on the subject of doubting, from your own lives. This is really what's bothering me. I'm struggling with why people think that GOD is unfair. What is the deal? The WORD tells us that we are in a fallen state. The place that we find ourselves in, is in a fallen state. The enemy is the ruler of the air that surrounds this earth. I have asked myself the whys of life, most of my life. The WORD says that the secret things of GOD are HIS alone to know, and those to whom HE chooses to reveal them to. People I love dearly, are doubting the goodness of our GREAT GOD because of what they see happening around them. They use all the classic arguments. "Why do the children starve?" "Why do people get murdered?" "Why must there be war?" I want to defend our GOD with the truth of HIS WORD, yet even those I love the most will not listen. Doubt creeps in. I want to scream. The LORD told us the way it was, is, and always will be until HE comes to set up HIS KINGDOM, just as HIS WORD tells us. They won't listen. They won't hear. Discouragement creeps in. Doubt is following close behind. In my mind I see only one way, JESUS CHRIST. But in their minds HE has become the stumbling block, HE said HE would to some. It was the recent event of my friend that has burdened my heart with all of this. While the idea of GOD is still fine with my friend, the idea of THE WAY, THE TRUTH, and THE LIFE, that THE FATHER has ordained is not. It seems to me a lashing out at THE LORD. I have lashed out at HIM so many times. I know that HE can bear our hurting HIM, but it still seem so very dangerous a thing to do. As my husband will always say, (he was an unbeliever for so long, but not now) we do not know the rest of the story. I mean really, what right do we have to question an ALMIGHTY GOD, WHO formed all we know, by HIS WORD alone (JESUS CHRIST). For all things were created by HIM, and nothing that was created, was created any other way ( 1st chapter of John). Take care all.

I am concerned and have been reflecting (on my journey) as of late. I am also confused to a great extent. Here is how it goes. A friend, of a friend, of a friend of mine has come to this conclusion; that the LORD is not who He says He was, is, and always will be. In short, my friend does not believe that CHRIST JESUS is the ONLY BEGOTTEN SON OF GOD. I think that GOD taught me awhile ago to reserve my judgement in case, what I had judged my brother on, should fall into my path. And that's what I have be contemplating in the past week. How can we seemingly go (in a lot of cases) most of our lives believing in all that GOD's WORD tells us and then succumb to the doubt that (for whatever the reasons may be) does come over us from time to time. This leads me to many a question and takes me back to the beginning, at least in my life. You know how when you think that the LORD has gotten you over a huge stumbling block, you somehow end up right back in front of it again. I can't begin to tell anyone all the times that I have thought, "Well I would never do that," and then before I knew it, I was faced with just what I thought I was above. Maybe, it's just the way the LORD has of keeping us humble. I think about all the promises in the WORD. I think about how they are really all we have to hold on to in this crazy life we have to get through. I think about how lonely I was before JESUS came to lowly me. I think about how terrible it would be without HIM to lean upon. I think about not being able to cast all my cares upon Him. I think about how I know, that I know, I do not deserve HIS GRACE. I think about how I really don't have a problem with an ALMIGHTY GOD, to WHOM all judgement has been given and is reserved. I think about how I just want to be with HIM when it's all said and done. I want my friend, of a friend, of a friend, to know that HE is who HE said HE is, was, and always will be. HE is the GREAT I AM. Doubts will come and go and come again and again. I've been there and will be there again, much to my dismay. But something so deep, so not of me, somewhere in the deepest parts of my heart and mind, tells me that the SON OF MAN, that Daniel saw and spoke of, is who I know HE is, THE LORD JESUS CHRIST! You might have a friend, of a friend too. My prayer is for THE FATHER, to protect us all, from the doubt that so easy enters in. I am so undone and waiting for HIM to make me complete. It has been a long time since I've posted anything, let alone to make a new topic, but now it's out there and there's no looking back. I hope that someone will respond. Take care all.

There is not a key to use to unlock "that door," that needs to be so desperately opened. There are no magic words to say to get our spirits to soar. Eventhough revival very well may begin on our knees, there can be no movement until He moves. His glory speaks out loud and clear, it shines forth. All this, and everything depends upon Him. I suppose that it boils down to this in me, I must decrease and He must increase. What He has started and ordained in me, He will accomplish. I must wait. The truth is that I do not deserve even one more blessing from Him. If I never feel anything but this "valley," again, I know that I know who my Lord is. In the words of Rich Mullins, "I know that it would not hurt any less even if it could be explained."

apothanein kerdos, Just a few short questions. Why must you always bash? Why must you try to take that which is precious to someone from them? Oh, yes, now I remember. We must keep everything in context. We must adhere to the letter of the law. We must dot every i and cross every t. To the O.P. I would like to thank you for the courage to share this. God gives revelations. He always has and always will; for He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. As I am replying just now, I am reminded of our Lord's words, not to cast our pearls to the swine. I'm not saying that to say you shouldn't proclaim this from every mountain-top; I just was reminded of it by the Lord and He wanted me to type it out, for whatever His reasons may be. I search for the answer to this question. Why must some always try to belittle others???

I pray for myself 98% of the time, crying out to God to help me. Then, I feel bad because it's all about me, me, me. I wonder most of the time, if my Lord gets tired of hearing it. I take comfort in the fact that He says to cast all our cares upon Him. I went down the isle when I was 9 years old. I strayed so far from the Lord that I don't consider myself to have been saved at that time in my life (I can only hope and pray that I am now). When I was 30 years old the Lord came to get me and we started together on this journey that has been wild, to say the least. I've broken His heart time and time again. Now, I am 45 and as I look back over the years and all the prayers, (for the most part I write my prayers on paper) I see that I mostly have only been concerned with the state of my spiritual bondage, that I always feel I'm in. I have been beseeching the Lord to teach me how to pray in a way that pleases Him, for years. I really still do not, to this day, think that I know how to pray correctly. The truth is that I've always felt that I was a messed up situation. I use to attend a local church, but not anymore (the reasons are to tragic to disclose). I've always yearned for fellowship with other brothers and sisters that would help each of us in our needs, but so much of the time, it's been only the Lord who has been my best friend and help in time of need. I really don't think that it should be this way. But, I think that this is the way that it is, more times than not, sad to say. I always say (to the Lord) that I want to intercede for others, and I do pray for my family and a few that He has laid on my heart. I don't have any close friends, so I pray for all the little ones so forth and so on, but it always comes back to little 'ole' me. I guess the point of all of this is that, I too feel that we mostly wear masks around our brothers and sisters in the "church setting." It seem that this is the time when we would want to be real. I have had more spiritual and real church outside of the local church than ever inside. I hate it when my spirit is bound, but that seems to be the way it is most of the time. I so long for the refreshing I always need; you know those times when the praise just flows out and back to the Lord where all praise belongs. I need a revival in my soul, but I quess that I will have to be still and know that He is God, and everything is His doing and in His time.

All this has done damage to me. I've struggled so long with "what's wrong with me, why am I not like them, so full of joy." I concluded that I must be doing something very wrong. The Lord put a spirit of discontent in me concerning all of the TBN area. For almost a whole year now I have not been able to watch any of it (mostly), although I have tuned into certain preachers once in a great while. My (I struggle for the expression I need) life is not the same now. I never put them above my Lord, and always found many things that I did not agree with concerning all of it. Yet, I am not the judge of anyone and I will comment no futher on that, except to say that I find it hard to believe that they don't believe what they say. I've been so confused. My husband and I have had many a discussion about it over the past few years, and he always says that God will use many things to teach us the lessons we need to learn. He and I both think that He used this avenue for a period of time in our lives; if for nothing else then to bring us to this point. Yet it will take time, a very long time to recover from "them," and what at this time I consider "damage," to my soul. Having said all of this, I want to tell about what just recently (before the Lord led me to this thread) happened to bring this to a climax for me. As I mentioned in my former post, I have been, in the past, a giver to many of these ministries. This being the Christmas Season , I received a gift from one of the said ministries. It was a calender for 2006. On every page or month should I say, the pictures were of the ones who "are" the ministry (I'll mention no names). As I turned each and every page, it began to sicken me. There were no beautiful scenic photograghs of the splendor of the Creation, the Almighty has blessed us with. Every month was introduced by these individuals in all the splendor of their earthly riches, airplanes. motorcycles, finely decorated rooms, etc. I put the calendar on a piece of my furniture, under some clutter, so as not to have it be in view. the other day (just a couple of days past), I walked by it, picked up and thought to myself, "I aught to just throw this prosperity calendar in trash," but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I guess in the back of my mind I thought it would be wrong to throw it away. I think that I can do it now. Thank you starter or this thread. I know that all of this mess in my mind will take the Lord and time. So for now, I'll journey on, the only thing I can do. .......jmh137

I had been a watcher of TBN for quite a few years. I have so wanted to believe their message. I have in the past supported many of the preachers who are on their network. But I'm still as broke as I ever was. Not so long ago, I was considering starting a thread on WB about how angry I am because my journey doesn't seem to be their journeys. I have not been able to watch TBN or any of their preachers now for about I'd say at least a year, although I may have listened to JDM after the Katrina hurricane. But I can no longer listen to any of them. I haven't been a member here at WB for all that long, so I have never ran across this thread until it was recently bumped. I'm not all that with the computer world if you know what I mean. I guess what I trying to say can be put like this; I have been in a turmoil, but God has confirmed some of the questions I have been struggling with. So, for me this thread has been confirmation from God. Maybe now, I can be able to have some peace and put some of my issues to rest. Thank You. .......jmh137

DaughterofKing, As of late I too have been going through a great depression in my life. In the last 2 weeks I have noticed that it has started to lift off from me. The enemy has always used this against me (depression). But the Lord revealed something very important to me about 2 years or so ago. He helped me to realize that He put this seed of discontent in me. I ask myself. What would my life be like if depression had never been a factor in my life? I can't begin to know all the implications of that, but I know that if I had not been proned to depression I would not have looked at life the same way at all. I have had to cry out to my God for the comfort that only He is able to give. During my life their have been many counterfeits for that comfort. But once you have felt the joy of the Lord, nothing else will do. I do not think that God intends for us to be depressed. So don't get me wrong. We have to always remember where we are. We are aliens here. Our citizenship does not belong here, at least not until the Lord comes back. The Lord said to love this world would result in the loss of the life that only He can give. He also said that in this world we will most definitely have trials and tribulations. This is the bottom line, "be still and know that I am God," The Word tells us. Wait on the Lord. You are not alone. I will leave you with this thought. The Lord said to Peter, that the devil had asked to sift Peter as wheat. I think that the enemy still asks to do this to us all. But.... the Lord told Peter that He had prayed for him and when he (Peter), came back, he should strenghten his brethren. He is interceding for us now, even as He did for Peter. So, baby, you are in good company. Take heart for the Lord of Glory has overcome this world!!! .......jmh137

Jehovah is God. Nowhere in the Word does it mention Allah as God. Having said that, I want share something with all, very briefly. A while back (2 to 3 years) I received a book which contained the basic beliefs of different religions. I had lost my way to an extent so to speak. As I read about Islam, I realized how false it was. This was the part that proved it to me. It said that heaven to the Islamic man meant x number of virigins. I knew then and realized that the Lord had lead me to this to show me how false Islam is. I thought how nice for the man. Then it dawned on me that a man had to come up with that one. Our Lord says that with Him there is no male or female. Now, that's my Jehovah God!!! .......jmh137

I know that I am not the person who contacted you, but I am having grave difficulties in the dream area and would like to talk to anyone who is having the some problem. My dreams almost always nightmares and I have many unanswered questions about it all. .......jmh137