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Hi. I’m so scared. About two weeks ago I started having cursing thoughts because I read verses about cursing in the Bible for example :- Genisis 9:25 he said, "Cursed be Canaan! The lowest of slaves will he be to his brothers." and 1 Corinthians 12:3 Wherefore I give you to understand, that no man speaking by the Spirit of God calleth Jesus accursed: and that no man can say that Jesus is the Lord, but by the Holy Ghost. these verses triggered me and I then started having thoghts in my head saying “curse” and I started getting tempted to think them about people and then I started praying to Jesus and then started getting tempted to think them about Him. I don’t feel emotions for Jesus and I don’t feel like connection and stuff with Him and it triggered me to think stuff. my head has been doing it for like over a week and I’m scared incase because I tube it hardened my heart. I’m scared because anyone I look at or think another my head gets tempted to think it about them. And Jesus. i want my heart to be soft for Him. (I received Him 10/11months ago I’m sure) But prayed to the Father most of the time until a few months ago. im scared for my soul. ? I asked Jesus for help all week and I’m scared because last night I read this verse:- Ecclesiastes 10:20 Even in your thoughts, do not curse the king, nor in your bedroom curse the rich, for a bird of the air will carry your voice, or some winged creature tell the matter. im always in my bedroom - barley leave it. my thoghts have been cursing Jesus is king Christians are rich and my head thoghts cursing thoghts. I don’t know what to do. I’m terrified. I’m scared about my standing with God. I want to be saved. I want to be with God.? I don’t even know if He’s with me. I’m scared because of the cursing thoghts and because of the state of the heart and Jesus and the thoghts about Him. thanks for reading

I think I’ve been living in ungodliness and didn’t realise it. I don’t think I was living to honour God. This is the video I watched:- Because I think I was living to honour myself and not God I’m worried incase I used Gods grace as a lisence tk sin because I’ve complained a lot I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. The video I watched says that some Christians have their hearts surrendered to Jesus and they still struggle sometimes and then there’s their people who are ungodly and aren’t living to honour God but to themselves I’m scared so I am. I’ve complained in my head so much like every day and I spend all day on my phone and I didn’t think about living to honour God. I didn’t even think. The video said that some have the show of a Christian but it ungodly and fellowship with Christians. I fellowship with Christians online and I quote scriptures all the time and think about God. But I haven’t been living to honour Him. The video also said people twist the gospel to fit their own flesh. I have been angry in my head and complained in my head and lay in my bed all day. I haven’t really been acting the godliest and because of ocd thoghts always running through my head I find it hard to talk trying to tame my thoughts every second and sometimes I speak in a non gentle way and it looks really rude. I don’t think I’ve been serving God. Jesus scares me all the time so I find it hard to feel emotion and focus on Him. I go on my phone all day every day and stay in my bed all day and barley leave my room because idk what else to do. I have nowhere to go nothing to do. I have bad OCD intrusive thoughts so I haven’t prayed to God properly in like 2 weeks. I struggle with unwanted sinful thoughts. would Jesus even want me to pray to Him if I don’t feel emotion for Him. I don’t know how to surrender my heart to Hin and I don’t know how to deny myself or take up my cross and follow Him. I don’t know what Gods will is. I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. please help thank you for reading ?