Lomi Posted April 23, 2009 Group: Advanced Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 108 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 437 Content Per Day: 0.08 Reputation: 62 Days Won: 1 Joined: 10/13/2008 Status: Offline Birthday: 05/20/1979 Share Posted April 23, 2009 Mother's Day is coming up, and I'm breaking into pieces... A kaleidoscope of feelings is running through me. I feel like hidding, but that not what you taught me do do... It's been 9 years already since you've gone away...but it still feels like yesterday... Do you know i still blame myself that you've died? Though everyone told me not to... You taught me how to love & live life, but all i want to do is go to you... You said on the day you died, to pray for releasement and that everything will be OK, I need to hold onto DADDY, cuz HE will carry me all the way... DADDY have been carrying me, HE even blesed me with an adoptive mom, (she is so wonderful, kind, generous, a lot like you), But i'm so afraid, to loose her... Will I be able to survive such a loss again? I'm hurting here & I don't know what to do...Can I take my heart out and not feel again? How do I go back in being numb again? If you could, would you be able to come back once again, just once, you need not stay. I miss you so much....I never had the change to say goodbye.... I hope that one day I can be a mother like you, when DADDY blessed me with children, cuz what you've done for me words cannot express or do justice... I used to give you flowers every week, and told you I appreciate you, Now I found myself calling your number still, just to find your not answerring. 9 years and still I'm thinking you're just a phone call away.... I hold within me the life spirit you possessed & remembered the legacy of love, laughter, strength, determination, jokes, stubbornness, helping hand, kindness, joy & most of all the Love for DADDY. I went to bed last night at 4am again, crying & longing for your arms to hold me tight and sing me songs, and chasing all the nightmares away.... Oh,DADDY will this hurting ever stop? Will you just hold me again, like you always do? lv lomi Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne Posted April 23, 2009 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 55 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 923 Content Per Day: 0.13 Reputation: 32 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/14/2004 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/03/1974 Share Posted April 23, 2009 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cecee Posted April 23, 2009 Group: Advanced Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 2 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 97 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 1 Days Won: 0 Joined: 12/30/2007 Status: Offline Birthday: 06/15/1959 Share Posted April 23, 2009 ((((((((((((((((Lomi)))))))))))))))))))))) I feel your pain. I can say the pain does ease up after a while but the loss will never go away. I lost my mom 7 yrs ago and it seems just like yesterday we were laughing and sharing. To know that she is with Jesus is the only thing that sees me through and to know he is with me helps me make each day anew. I will pray for you Love Cecee Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Trusting Jesus Posted April 24, 2009 Group: Royal Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 66 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 2,050 Content Per Day: 0.34 Reputation: 22 Days Won: 0 Joined: 09/12/2007 Status: Offline Birthday: 09/09/1952 Share Posted April 24, 2009 The pain that is left after losing someone who you love can be devestating. My mother died in 1976 - I was young and she was my best friend. I won't say I lost her, because I know where she is. She is in the presence of our Lord. But my hurt goes on. You just have to thank God for the years you had with her. <>< ><> Nathele Heavenly Father, Please sooth Lomi's hurts. Ease her pain and help her to bask in Your love and feel Your peace. In Christ's name I pray Amen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
georgedrw81 Posted April 24, 2009 Group: Royal Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 7 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 1,823 Content Per Day: 0.33 Reputation: 36 Days Won: 2 Joined: 04/10/2009 Status: Offline Share Posted April 24, 2009 It was wonderfully.Thank you Blessings Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*messianicjew.heart* Posted April 24, 2009 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 0 Topics Per Day: 0 Content Count: 4 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 10/02/2008 Status: Offline Birthday: 07/07/1968 Share Posted April 24, 2009 My mom died for 3 years ago , and she wasn Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest HIS girl Posted April 24, 2009 Share Posted April 24, 2009 lomi - from a woman who can't remember her Mum at all (I was 22 months when my Mum passed on)- and as a Mother now - I'm so glad you have "Mum memories" to draw on. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lomi Posted April 24, 2009 Group: Advanced Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 108 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 437 Content Per Day: 0.08 Reputation: 62 Days Won: 1 Joined: 10/13/2008 Status: Offline Birthday: 05/20/1979 Author Share Posted April 24, 2009 I thank all of yall here at worthy, cuz yall prayers & encouragement is really a pillar for me to lean on. mwah lot of love, Lomi Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gauntlet Posted April 24, 2009 Group: Senior Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 7 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 788 Content Per Day: 0.14 Reputation: 4 Days Won: 0 Joined: 03/18/2009 Status: Offline Birthday: 04/18/1979 Share Posted April 24, 2009 Mother's Day is coming up, and I'm breaking into pieces... A kaleidoscope of feelings is running through me. I feel like hidding, but that not what you taught me do do... It's been 9 years already since you've gone away...but it still feels like yesterday... Do you know i still blame myself that you've died? Though everyone told me not to... You taught me how to love & live life, but all i want to do is go to you... You said on the day you died, to pray for releasement and that everything will be OK, I need to hold onto DADDY, cuz HE will carry me all the way... DADDY have been carrying me, HE even blesed me with an adoptive mom, (she is so wonderful, kind, generous, a lot like you), But i'm so afraid, to loose her... Will I be able to survive such a loss again? I'm hurting here & I don't know what to do...Can I take my heart out and not feel again? How do I go back in being numb again? If you could, would you be able to come back once again, just once, you need not stay. I miss you so much....I never had the change to say goodbye.... I hope that one day I can be a mother like you, when DADDY blessed me with children, cuz what you've done for me words cannot express or do justice... I used to give you flowers every week, and told you I appreciate you, Now I found myself calling your number still, just to find your not answerring. 9 years and still I'm thinking you're just a phone call away.... I hold within me the life spirit you possessed & remembered the legacy of love, laughter, strength, determination, jokes, stubbornness, helping hand, kindness, joy & most of all the Love for DADDY. I went to bed last night at 4am again, crying & longing for your arms to hold me tight and sing me songs, and chasing all the nightmares away.... Oh,DADDY will this hurting ever stop? Will you just hold me again, like you always do? lv lomi I wish I knew what to say. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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