He giveth more grace Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 123 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2,049 Content Per Day: 0.32 Reputation: 267 Days Won: 9 Joined: 10/22/2006 Status: Offline Share Posted March 18, 2012 Yesterday, a small group of family members went to the cemetery to see the grave of my late brother, the burial ceremony was not near the grave site because of inter-cemetery road work, so we went yesterday. After the cemetery when we all went to Piccadilly restaurant to eat, and as usually, I felt like a somewhat dim witted little boy delegated to quietness while the adults talked. I don't know what my major malfunction is. I was unsocialized as a child, ostracized in school and employment; I'm just not good at conversation and sociability and at being a mature, grown-up, adult male, of course I am, but I get that idea of people's perception of me. Coming from family that really really hurts, though they are not to blame, the problem lies within me, I lacked the development that other received growing up, before the first grade I was unprepared socially to meet the world away from home. I suppose that I have fought for and won a self-image that is better than when in schools and employment, now that I don't work I am somewhat sheltered again, away from criticizing opinions and being talked about. I health issue is at the core of all this, I feel like I am a square peg in a round hole, a misfit. I really feel like one that you pat on the back and say, how are you little boy. If I had Downs Syndrome at least I would be open to people and loving; If I had a wife that would go a long way toward being treated like I was an adult. No one else is a fault here, but yo solo, I alone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~candice~ Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 5 Topic Count: 955 Topics Per Day: 0.16 Content Count: 11,318 Content Per Day: 1.89 Reputation: 448 Days Won: 33 Joined: 12/16/2007 Status: Offline Share Posted March 18, 2012 Monarchy so sorry brother, that must feel so lonely and alienating. I don't think I have any wisdom or advice for you, but I am thinking of you. Lots of agape love . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
He giveth more grace Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 123 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2,049 Content Per Day: 0.32 Reputation: 267 Days Won: 9 Joined: 10/22/2006 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 18, 2012 Monarchy so sorry brother, that must feel so lonely and alienating. I don't think I have any wisdom or advice for you, but I am thinking of you. Lots of agape love . Squinting my eyes, breathing hard, and got emotional for a brief moment, aaw thanks for that, Candice, heres one for you, thanks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nebula Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 10 Topic Count: 5,823 Topics Per Day: 0.75 Content Count: 45,870 Content Per Day: 5.95 Reputation: 1,897 Days Won: 83 Joined: 03/22/2003 Status: Offline Birthday: 11/19/1970 Share Posted March 18, 2012 Dear Monarchy, some of us just aren't socialites. That's ok. I'm much more comfortable interacting in intellectual conversation that social chit-chat. I hate parties for this reason. I most often find myself by myself twiddling my thumbs. There's nothing wrong with you. You just belong to a different part of the body than the mouth. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
He giveth more grace Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 123 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2,049 Content Per Day: 0.32 Reputation: 267 Days Won: 9 Joined: 10/22/2006 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 18, 2012 Dear Monarchy, some of us just aren't socialites. That's ok. I'm much more comfortable interacting in intellectual conversation that social chit-chat. I hate parties for this reason. I most often find myself by myself twiddling my thumbs. There's nothing wrong with you. You just belong to a different part of the body than the mouth. Excellent counsel and comfort, Neb. Let me add this one thing, and I will stop being negative, I believe that if I were married that my wife would add value to me in the family. I am more comfortable with my Vietnamese friend and my marriage couple friends that I am with my own family and that is not right. Pressing forward and praising him. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
enoob57 Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 35 Topic Count: 100 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 41,229 Content Per Day: 7.98 Reputation: 21,485 Days Won: 76 Joined: 03/13/2010 Status: Offline Birthday: 07/27/1957 Share Posted March 18, 2012 Because of the distance people are from the truth that 'IS' in God, I am grieved in conversation most of time and find solace and peace alone with Him! This is not a bad thing but when I mix with people Neb like you I find this twiddle you speak of ... Brother of mine what appears as happiness and something to be sought after as social placement comes with it also - for no better word 'dung'- for there are myriads of improper ideas and influences that flow out of every party of class and social event and as Christ was a draw and invite to such for the miracles and fame they invited Him- He was a disdain in their eyes for His humble demeanor and then to claim being God thus their rage of Him! God would be the way they thought 'not as He Was' ... Love, Steven Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
He giveth more grace Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 123 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2,049 Content Per Day: 0.32 Reputation: 267 Days Won: 9 Joined: 10/22/2006 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 18, 2012 Steven, I guess it not strange to think that if I were of this world the world would love its own . and I come not into the world to bring peace, but division. [Reference to scripture are not direct quotes] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
He giveth more grace Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 123 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2,049 Content Per Day: 0.32 Reputation: 267 Days Won: 9 Joined: 10/22/2006 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 18, 2012 I believe that God just dropped this into my spirit, Hannah husbad said, Am not I more to thee than ten sons. God is more to me that all the relationship the world could contain. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Floatingaxe Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 3 Topic Count: 62 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 9,613 Content Per Day: 1.45 Reputation: 656 Days Won: 9 Joined: 03/11/2006 Status: Offline Birthday: 05/31/1952 Share Posted March 18, 2012 Monarchy, find comfort in something I have learned only in the last five years, due to a painful family issue: the world says that blood is thicker than water, but the Lord says that spiritual kin supersedes blood connections! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
He giveth more grace Posted March 18, 2012 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 123 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 2,049 Content Per Day: 0.32 Reputation: 267 Days Won: 9 Joined: 10/22/2006 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 18, 2012 Monarchy, find comfort in something I have learned only in the last five years, due to a painful family issue: the world says that blood is thicker than water, but the Lord says that spiritual kin supersedes blood connections! I have found that to be so true, thanks, Floatingaxe, odd but true. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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