Thank you, walla299 for repling. I had my fill of Psychologist's and Psychiatrist's, beginning in the mid-70s, had no effect.
Monarchy, You are special, a part of peculiar people. Remember Christ chose you to be a member of his family. Now you are a member of Abraham's family. Remember Christ's family rejected him and made comments against him as did his friends and people he had know all his life. It hurts when your family makes you feel invisible and that you aren't even in their presence. I have felt that also. I usually get out by myself and have my pity party, then ask God for strength and then I forgive and love them anyway. Without my Father to talk to and to tell all my hurts to, I don't think I could survive, but he is there and listens to me any time, even when I whine. Best of all is when I feel his peace flow into me and contentment takes the place of the hurt. I will pray for you.